Anything For Him( More Than Anything 2) by T. T. Kove

Title: Anything For Him          Word Count:201 pgs

Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:How could we ever make a relationship work while living nine hours away from each other?

I’m a broken man. Thanks to my boyfriend’s psychiatrist uncle, however, I might finally get some much needed professional help to come to term with my past and my post-traumatic stress disorder. But it all feels hollow and empty without Geir—because he was the one who made life worth living. 

We might as well live a world’s apart. He can only visit during holidays now that he lives in the capital, and I can’t face going to a big city. A year’s a long time. Can a tentative relationship such as ours survive that long apart?

My Review: Geir shows up at his new home and immediately is overwhelmed by a seizure. When he wakes up , he meets his step mom and her kids for the first time. Even though he is still a little bitter,he acknowledges the beauty of the place. He misses Jorgen like crazy , but he looks forward to meeting another friend. Geir calls up Jorgen’s best friend’s brother Nik and introduces himself.

Nik is unapologetically gay, very flamboyant and super sweet. Geir’s father doesn’t approve of his new boyfriend or his friend. This saddens Geir, but he knows having a friend like Nik will keep the loneliness at bay. They get along famously.Unbeknownst to Geir, Jorgen is certainly not doing as well. Within the month that Geir has been gone, he has fallen into a deep depression. Not only is Jorgen lonely, therapy has been brutal and very evocative bringing his demons to the fore.

Jorgen has suffered an accidental overdose from trying to dull the pain. He is under suicide watch and is forced to go home with his uncle Thomas. Thomas is very kind and always quick to lend a helping hand. Jorgen runs into his cousin Andreas’ boyfriend Alex in the middle of the night. They both find that they have something in common with missing their boyfriends. Also, they both have issues that cannot be easily overcome. Jorgen realizes that it is time for him to open up himself a little. Alex and Jorgen become great friends and their trauma that they have endured due to their families bond them together.

Even though they are apart for almost a year, they keep in contact through phone calls and Geir writes letters to Jorgen which he cherishes. Life continues for both  of them simultaneously with Geir becoming more confident and Jorgen becoming stronger and  more mentally stable. Jorgen has started going to therapy more regularly and their is a vast  difference in the status of his mental health. Although he still suffers from PTSD and panic attacks, it is easier for him to control it before it even starts.

When Easter comes around Jorgen spends a week with Geir’s family. He is happy to embrace his boyfriend again and it is clear to see that their feelings have not waned for each other. They have a really sexy frottage session that pushes their relationship over into the sexual realm. Before then, Jorgen had avoided anything too blatantly sexual. They were both ecstatic and have hopes for the future that they could grow sexually. They leave each other with plans that Geir would move in with Jorgen in a few months when school ended.

Jorgen feels that he needs to explain about his childhood sexual abuse to Geir. He knows Geir suspects, but he is finally ready to open up to him  and trust him with his deep dark secrets. Jorgen writes all this in a letter and strips his soul bare. He had a truly horrific childhood with an uncle that sexually abused him on a daily basis for years. Meanwhile, he was also physically and mentally abused by a mother who suffered from multiple personality disorder. His family is definitely the personification of dysfunction. When Geir reads the letter , he is devastated and the truth is certainly heartrending.

Geir is ready to start his life with Jorgen so he can fill it with all the love that he deserves. Jorgen invites Geir and his family to a barbeque/ coming home party for his cousin Andreas. It was great to see Andreas and Alex back together , still very much in love. They give Geir hope for where he would like to see his relationship with Jorgen in the future.

Jorgen and Geir have their own intimate welcome home party. They definitely make up for lost time. Being with Geir in a sexual way allows Jorgen to reclaim his sexuality and the innocence that was taken from him. Jorgen marvels at the purity and intimacy of making love with Geir. They are both amazed at how good it feels to be with each other. They are sooo sexy together in their explorations. I really enjoyed watching both these young men blossom and break out of their shells.
Yet again, this one was not overly filled with sex, but I think that actually made it better. Their love story was made even more authentic, pure and intimate due to the lack of sex. I give this
my ratings of 4- not for the sex, but for the intimacy and love that overcame all the trauma that these two endured in their young life.

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More Than Anything 1 by T.T Kove

Title: MoreThan Anything                 Word Count:276pgs

Genre:Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:He might’ve been the right person—if I hadn’t been so damaged and he hadn’t been so young.

The first time I met him, he had a seizure on the pavement in front of my flat. When my efforts to find someone who could take him off my hands failed, I let him spend the night. He was already asleep anyway, so it wasn’t like I had any choice. 

What started out as helping someone in need, slowly turns into something much more when he keeps appearing in my life. But how can he want someone like me? Someone so damaged and traumatised from my past that it keeps on messing up my present? When just one simple touch from someone is enough to bring on a flashback, a relationship with another person isn’t exactly within reach.

My Review: When Jorgen first sees the young man in front of his home , he is not sure what to expect. He immediately understands the signals as soon as the young man falls to the floor and start having a seizure. Jorgen is familiar with epileptic seizures since his uncle used to have them frequently. He takes the young man inside who he now knows is Geir from his ID. Jorgen lets Geir sleep in his bed , while he watches over him. Geir wakes disoriented, but he is met by the most handsome man he has ever seen. Jorgen is a little bit un-communicative, but Geir sees the kindness through his action.

Jorgen meets Geir by chance a few more times and it seems that he has become his self professed rescuer. Geir is being bullied at school on their second meeting and Jorgen runs off the bullies. Geir is a lonely young man and all he wants is just a friend. Jorgen is concerned about their 5 yr age difference and he knows he is a bit attracted to Geir. Jorgen is in no position for any type of intimacy though as he experiences flashbacks and panic attacks from being touched.

Geir is very attuned to Jorgen and realizes certain triggers and topics that make Jorgen quite uncomfortable. He tries his best not to push too much or be too inquisitive. Geir is wise beyond his 17 yrs and he knows for sure their is something traumatic in Jorgen’s past. The friendship between these young men blossom, but they don’t get very intimate. They are perfect for each other. Jorgen is scared of physical intimacy , because of his past sexual trauma from his childhood. Geir is not the typical teenage boy who constantly has sex on the brain. He thinks that his sex drive might be muted because of his epilepsy medications. With the lack of sex , they definitively get to know each other better through their conversations.

Their relationship doesn’t go any further than a few passionate kisses , but they both know they are thoroughly in love with each other. Their love is certainly a special brand and they have something real.This is soon torn apart when Geir’s father announces that they will be moving in with his girlfriend in another city. Geir is devastated and he feels like his father is being unfair and trying to ruin his life.

They promise to stay in touch and continue a long distance relationship. Jorgen tries to remain strong for Geir, but as soon as Geir leaves, he falls apart. Geir’s uncle is a therapist and he sees the common signs of PTSD. He encourages Jorgen to get help and Jorgen knows its time for him to get back to therapy if he wants to be the man that Geir needs. I really enjoyed this, for the heat level I will give this my ratings of  3 -If you are not all about the ‘sex’, give it a try.

Joker (Executioners 2) by J.M. Dabney

Title: Joker                    Word Count: 150 pgs

Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb: Joker, what a misnomer, but Jackson Webb’s friends were idiots. He’d joined Executioners almost three years earlier after the lead singer King caught him playing his guitar behind his garage. It broke up the monotony of his life, but once he got bored, he’d move on to another distraction. He wasn’t nice. He sure as hell wasn’t friendly. He was what he was, his friends handled his attitude and standoffish nature just fine. At thirty-eight he was pretty sure he was too stuck in his ways to change shit now. 

Demetri “Dem” Urban was settling into a new life in the middle of nowhere. Okay, he was hiding from everyone in a kitchen as far removed from his five-star kitchen back in New York as he could get. Gideon invited him to stay with him and his wife for a while just until he could get everything back on track. He didn’t see it happening, but he had to admit the scenery wasn’t bad even if the man had the personality of a rabid, man-eating bear. Dem did like a challenge and that fit Joker Webb perfectly.

Author’s Note: This story contains scenes of a violent nature, mentions of rape and torture (All off page from characters pasts) and severe abuse. If you, as a reader, find this objectionable or triggering in any way, you can skip this story without losing the transition to the next book.

My Review: From the moment of conception Joker’s life has been embedded in violence. Joker is the product of a rape, where his father kidnapped his mother and continued to abuse her for years. That physical abuse turned into torture for Joker, especially when  his mother disappeared. His father perpetuated the cycle of violence that was passed on from his grandfather. Joker fears the blood that runs through his veins has tainted him and will cause him to be the same kind of man. He has always shyed away from touch, learning to live with the bare minimum of everything. Joker leads a very structured life where he sticks to routine as a means of controlling all the rage and anger he is filled with.  

Gideon’s best friend Demitri needs a change after he breaks up with his boyfriend of two years. From the moment he sees a picture of Joker, he feels a certain spark. Demitri leads a pretty upbeat life and he doesn’t allow anything to get him down. He was borned with a degenerative disease that has gotten progressively worse and causes him to use arm crutches.Demitri loves being in the kitchen and is currently working at the diner where Joker eats all his meals. Demitri forces his way into Joker’s life by disrupting his monotonous routine. When he purposely messes with Joker’s breakfast, he is pissed and storms out. Dem realizes that he needs to nudge Joker in the right direction rather than  push him over the edge.

Dem starts inserting himself gently into Joker’s life and even though Joker balks, he still ended up taking Dem on a date. Dem is definitely the aggressor in this relationship, pursuing Joker at every turn. Dem even goes to Joker’s isolated cabin, drops in unannounced and stays two days. This is unheard of, everyone usually just leaves Joker when he needs his space. When Dem leaves the cabin , he tells Joker he will be staying at his home. Even though Joker is a bit standoffish and skittish, he doesn’t push Dem away.

Joker gives Dem one night of unadulterated passion. Dem has needs and he begs Joker to give it to him hard. He is tired of everyone treating him as less than because of his disability. Joker becomes swept up in the passion and gives in to both of their desires for the first time. Joker is understandably conflicted and he flees for 3 weeks. Joker doesn’t have the proper framework when he thinks about sex. He associates any type of rough sex with rape.

Dem was worried sick and he thinks he might have pushed Joker too hard. Joker acknowledges to himself that he wants their relationship to work. Their friends give them both advice , but what resonates with Joker is Sheriff Pelter’s advice to be honest. Dem understands that they will never have a touchy feely traditional relationship, but what they have is real and very promising. After being together for more than 6 months , Dem spits out a wedding proposal that is quite untraditional. Joker gladly accepts, hoping that he will be the man that Dem needs. I give this my ratings of 3- It was ok, give it a try.

Saving Kane by Michele M. Rakes

Title : Saving Kane          Word Count : 83,269      Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : A twenty-something paramedic suffering from PTSD and a failing relationship with his high school sweetheart becomes embroiled in the tragic life of a young, gay man brutally beaten, raped, and left for dead.

Kane Abel can’t help falling for his caregiver, the handsome paramedic who saves his life, but he’s resistant. The one time Kane threw caution to the wind, he was left with a wired jaw and a tracheostomy. He can’t take much more hurt. But with his attacker’s promise to return, Kane lives in a constant state of fear, and with the ever-present paramedic, arousal.

Garrett Young struggles with the question of his sexuality, unable to get Kane out of his mind even as he fights against the demise of his long-time engagement with his girlfriend Amanda. Every day is complicated by his ongoing battle with PTSD and alcoholism, compounded by his fear for Kane’s life.

My Review : Kane is living a life straight out of a horror story. As a child he was pimped out by his drug addicted mother and father and eventually ran away at sixteen to become a prostitute.  He leaves a life of prostitution to become a bartender where he meets a handsome devil who takes him home to be Gay bashed and gang raped by six degenerate human beings. They leave him  battling for his life on his front step. This is where he meets his ‘angel’ Garett the paramedic who saves his life. Garett feels drawn to him and he can’t fathom why , because for one he is straight and has a fiancée.

  Garett has his own demons he is battling, he is drinking to take away the pain from a previous accident he had when he was a former fireman. Kane brings out a lot of Garrett’s protective instincts when he realizes that Kane is all alone. Garett takes Kane home with him  after his fiancée abandoned him for his excessive drinking. Being close to Kane is the only thing that culls Garett ‘s drinking and the awful nightmares about fire. The attraction between Kane and Garett sparks and before they know it becomes and all consuming fire. The sex between the two is hot and sensual. It’s all about cleansing Kane of the horrible atrocities that’s been done to his body. For Garett the sex is about awakening to a side of himself that he’s never explored and it’s a balm that heals his tortured soul. 

   The monsters that almost killed Kane are still out there and they soon come to realize that Jake the man who lured Kane to his demise is possibly a serial killer. Jake stalks Kane and the ones he loves relentlessly. He has promised to finish what he started. Garett  pulls closer to Kane when he realizes that there is a possibility he might lose these fledgling feelings that he has for Kane if the psycho succeeds with his plan. 

Garett and Kane are so good for each other because they rejuvenate each other’s spirits. In a way, Garett gives back Kane a piece of his childhood innocence that was lost while Kane does the same for him in a different way. Kane gives back Garett his childhood that was lost in the fire that took his mom away, he crushes that guilt that has driven Garett for all these years by loving him. Their love is something that is pure and cleansing. Awww, they make me believe in everlasting love.  

This book was riveting in it’s intensity. It’s one of those books that will live on in your memory with clarity. This is a new author for me and she definitely didn’t disappoint. I can’t wait to see what more she has in store for us. I give this book my ratings of 5*****- it was absolutely breathtaking,  the plot was spot on and kept me on the edge of my seat. The sex was super hot. Very lovable characters. I really couldn’t ask for more.