No Shame( No Shame 4) by Nora Phoenix

Title:No Shame Word Count: 333pgs
Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:(This is NOT a stand alone novel. See end of this description for details) Brad feels nothing but shame about himself. Shame about his sexual needs, about his reputation, about his medical problem no one knows about. No one, except his best friend Charlie, but no matter what feelings Brad may have for him, he’s not going there. Charlie deserves so much better, and Brad desperately needs something not even Charlie can provide.

Charlie has loved Brad forever, but he’s never acted on his feelings, unsure of where he stood. Plus, there was the complication of his boyfriend. But when his boyfriend’s abuse gets too much for Charlie, it’s Brad who helps him escape and recover.

Miles ends up severely wounded in the line of duty as an FBI agent. He’s floored when the man he was protecting, Indy, opens his home to him so he can recover. Indy also sets him up with Brad, who turns out to be a perfect solution for Miles’ sexual issues…until Miles wants more than sex from him, and a developing friendship between Miles and Charlie complicates things even more.

Bit by bit Charlie and Miles break through Brad’s defenses, until they come crumbling down. Miles will have to prove he can provide what Brad needs, and Charlie’s sweet love will be put to the test. But when Brad finally finds the courage to break free of his shame, will the fragile love that has blossomed between the three of them survive?

No Shame is a steamy M/M/M romance that ends with a happy ever after for all characters, including those from the previous books in the series. It’s the fourth book in the No Shame Series, and is NOT a stand alone novel, so make sure to read the first three books first (No Filter, No Limits, and No Fear). It contains hot sex, a ménage, a little daddy kink, more hot sex, and a poly-amorous relationship that transcends labels. Also: trigger warning for mentions of domestic abuse, sexual abuse, and rape.

My Review: Three different men, with three vastly different personalities. They all come with baggage, but they mesh seemlessly. We’ve been introduced to all three before, we have Miles the FBI agent who was a part of Indy’s protective detail. Indy saved his life when he got shot, he also offered him a place to recover since he has no family. We have Brad, Blake’s younger brother, a mild mannered math teacher who comes off a little bit abrasive in social situations. The only person who brings out Brad’s gentler side is Charlie, his best friend. Charlie is also recovering after his cop boyfriend Zack beat the living daylights out of him. Indy, Josh, Connor and Noah has opened up a section of their ranch style home to these three.

Miles has a tiny little problem, he has an overly hyper sex drive which leaves him tenting his trousers throughout most of the day. So far he hasn’t met anyone who can handle him. That is, until he meets Brad; Brad has a nasty reputation around town of being a ‘cum slut’ , he craves being used. Indy requests Brad’s help with Mile’s little problem which can become quite painful if tensions aren’t released. Brad is only too happy to help. Miles is still in the hospital the first time he experiences Brad’s oral prowess. He is very impressed and looks forward to Brad’s visits. Miles is curious to know more about his mystery man when he finds out they are cohabiting the same house . When he tries to spark up a conversation with Brad, he is immediately shot down. Brad lays down the law, letting Miles know it is just sex, nothing more. Miles is very disappointed as he feels a connection with Brad.

Miles come to realize that there are underlying problems that causes Brad to be so prickly. It is his slow friendship with Charlie that allows him to see things more clearly. Right away , he recognizes how in love Charlie and Brad are , but they can’t see it for themselves. Even though they have been friends for awhile, Brad dares not cross the line of friendship. He fears he is not good enough to be with Charlie. Brad has issues with psychological erectile dysfunction after a former bout of testicular cancer. This holds him back and he is very insecure about being worthy. Brad also suffers from abandonment issues when it comes to having a family. He believes that everyone he loves will leave him or trade him in.

It is a long road for Brad and the struggle is real as he continues to fight his identity. It is Miles who pinpoints what he really needs. He implements a Daddy/boy dynamic when he factors in all the issues Brad’s endured in the past. Miles is spot on and ‘Daddy’ lures his ‘boy’ in. Brad feels a sense of peace the first time he gives up control to his ‘Daddy’. There are two aspects to their kink however, Charlie realizes that Brad also craves being his little slut. It is Charlie who pulls this element of kink out of Brad through his dirty talk and bossiness. Brad lives to service his men and this is where he thrives. The status quo is definitely thrown out with these three. The strong macho Marine Miles loves to bottom for the ‘twinky cross-dressing’ Charlie who is more a defined top. Then we have Brad who has always been in control and takes care of everyone, he yearns and relishes being a ‘boy’ to his daddy.It is amazing watching the dynamics between these three unfold. Although, Charlie and Miles develop more slowly, it is no less intense.

When Connor gets some devastating news, it is wonderful to see how this makeshift family rallied around taking care of each other. Noah goes with Connor to be his strength. It was gut wrenching watching this strong man crumbling, but Noah was there to pick up the pieces. Miles was left as the ‘Dom’ in charge and between him and Indy, they were able to get Josh into ‘subspace’. The house and family have definitely expanded as Indy, Josh, Noah and Connor has offered this new trio a place in their lives , hearts and family. This kinky lot have all been blessed with the greatest treasure of all, LOVE. A wonderful end to a series that embraces all types of kink. It closes out with Indy and Josh proposing to Noah and Connor respectively. I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.

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No Fear (No Shame 3)by Nora Phoenix

Title: No Fear Word Count:325 pgs
Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb: Aaron is drowning. After coming out as gay, he lost his parents’ approval, his job, and his sense of identity. He feels like a freak who doesn’t fit in anywhere. His last hope was his brother Josh, but Josh can’t seem to forgive him for how Aaron treated him when they were teens. Not that Aaron can blame him, because he did treat Josh like crap.

All Aaron wants is for someone to accept him, guide him, because he doesn’t have a clue. When sexy jiujitsu teacher Blake takes him in and starts mentoring him, Aaron has hope for the first time, even though he can’t understand what Blake sees in him.

Blake doesn’t do relationships. At all. He’s more than willing to help Aaron find solid ground under his feet, but that’s it. Until insecure, vulnerable, and surprisingly sexy Aaron gets under his skin, triggering all kinds of protective instincts that make Blake long for more. He wants to take care of Aaron, give him what he needs, but how can he convince Aaron of that?

When Josh’s friend-with-benefits Indy’s past finally catches up with him, it endangers them all—and leads to heartbreaking decisions for everyone involved.

No Fear is a steamy M/M romance that ends with a HFN for Aaron and Blake, but has a continuing storyline as well. It’s the third book in the No Shame Series, and is not a stand alone novel, so make sure to read the first book (No Filter) and the second book (No Limits) first. It contains hot sex, a little kink, more hot sex, very mild puppy play, and a beautiful friendship-with-benefits that transcends labels. Also: trigger warning for mentions of sexual abuse.

My Review: We were introduced to Aaron Gordon in the previous installment of this series. We met him as Josh’s younger brother who turned his back on him when he came out. First impressions of him were that he was a spoiled brat who comes from an uber religious family. He comes off as being a self entitled kid who got everything handed to him. Now that he has come out himself, his parents kicked him out. Aaron is no longer the golden boy and he is rudely awakened to some of the horrors faced by many gay men around the world. On his first foray out to a club, he is beaten badly and gets a few bruised ribs for his troubles. Aaron shows up on Josh’s doorstep and even though they are not close, Josh lets him stay for a bit. Things are very tense for awhile and it soon becomes clear it’s not gonna work. Aaron is perceived to be very lazy and expects to be taken care of. He doesn’t have the wherewithal to clean up his own mess. It is Josh’s boyfriend Connor who steps in and gives him an ultimatum: pay his own way or he has to stay somewhere else. Josh finds him a safe space to stay with Indy’s juijitsu professor Blake Kent.

Blake seems to be a very rigid man , but he has a very kind heart and he looks out for others and champions the weak. He opens his home as a safe space to people who have been abused. Blake is empathetic to Aaron’s situation, but he soon loses patience with his slovenly ways. Blake takes Aaron to task, letting the arrogant young man know he needs to pull his own weight. After Aaron cleans the studio without complaining, Blake heart softens when he realizes that Aaron is trying. After a very candid conversation, Blake understands that what he saw as arrogance is actually Aaron’s vulnerable insecurities coming through. Aaron is a lost puppy, who has lost all his sense of self and identity.

Blake gives Aaron carte blanche to ask any question he wants. This leads to some sexual explorations when he finds out that Aaron is still a virgin. Blake decides to pay it forward and lead this innocent young man into a gay new world. First order of business is to get Aaron some sexy underwear and a new wardrobe. After careful scrutiny, Blake deduces that any form of sexual identity that Aaron might have formed while living with his parents would have been eradicated. Blake sees through the fear of rejection and perceives that Aaron may possibly want to identify with a more gentler, feminine side of himself. He knows he is spot on when he sees the joy on Aaron’s face when he tries on a more feminine wardrobe. This also brings out Aaron’s sexy side. Aaron is feeling a new sense of self and decides to have the sexy dominant Blake relieve him of his virginity. Blake decides to give him a taste of the gay nightlife first to see other options before he takes on the much coveted job of v-card defiler.

Aaron knows from the moment he steps in the club that there is no other man for him. He sways sensually to the music and Blake knows right away that he is willing to break all his rules for this sexy Aaron. Blake knows that there is definitely something building between them that defies his no relationship rule. He is certainly intrigued by this sweet cuddle puppy who has turned into a terrier. When they start getting too frisky for the dance floor, Blake makes the decision to take sexy Aaron home. He is on his way home when he noticed something weird at his studio. Someone’s trying to break in, he stealthily creeps in and overheard them talking about finding Indy. Blake knows he has to warn Indy.

It is the middle of the night and its clear to see that Blake has woken up my favorite quartet. Blake is a little bit shocked to see the openness and sexual familiarity displayed by these four men. It makes him curious about their relationship. When he explains what’s happening,it is Josh who comforts Indy by kissing him. Looking at Noah, it is obvious that he isn’t upset at Josh kissing his boyfriend Indy. The same goes for Connor when he walks in. The easy camaraderie amongst these four is clear. They use sexual banter and nuance to comfort each other. What Blake is envious of is the love he feels radiating from all of them. However, it is very tense between the two brothers Josh and Aaron. The pot finally boils over when Josh lashes out at Aaron for not standing up for him when they were younger. Aaron is brought to tears and he apologizes for hurting Josh. It is Indy who appeals to Josh, showing him that Aaron was only a scared 15 yr old boy then. Blake cuddles his ‘puppy’, letting him know he is no longer alone. Blake sees deep inside his boy, knowing the pain he carries inside is keeping him from embracing his true sense of self.

Blake knows that with all the pain Aaron has endured, he just needs someone to take care of him. Blake takes Aaron on a date and he loves the connection that he feels with this needy young man. Something in Aaron calls to Blake and he explains the BDSM lifestyle, especially the daddy/boy dynamics. It doesn’t quite fit though;when Blake explains about puppy play, all the pieces snap into place for Aaron. Puppy play definitely resonates with Aaron and accounts for all the weird, clingy, needy feelings he is prone to feeling.Blake decides to step up to the plate and fulfill this need in his boy, which surprisingly calls out to the dominant nature within himself. Before they can go home to explore the new dynamics in their relationship, Aaron asks to stop by to check in with Indy and his men.

They aren’t there for too long before chaos ensues. The men who are hunting Indy show up. Blake jumps into the fray and disarmed two of them, but gets shot in the process. Connor kills 3 of the men. Indy knows he can no longer put his men in danger. He decides to go into witness protection. Blake is seriously hurt and flatlines twice. Luckily, Noah is there to pull him back. They are all in their own world of hurt. Aaron is constant and just like the ‘puppy’ he is, he never leaves Blake’s side. Everyone starts noticing how ‘clingy’ he is. Blake’s brothers Burke and Brad make derogatory remarks about Aaron. This brings up all of Aaron’s insecurities causing him to flee from the only home he has ever known. Blake is furious and takes his brothers to task for their judgement. Blake expresses his love for Aaron and continues to text his ‘puppy’. Aaron is so far gone in his loneliness, he drives quite a few states away and find a job at a motel.

Everybody’s world seems to be imploding.Connor comes up with a plan for him and Josh to free Indy, but it involves being separated. Connor has quit his job and gone back to the criminal elements of his past life in Boston.Indy has gone into witness protection and is in an unknown location fending for himself. Noah feels like he is losing himself, especially when he finds out that Josh has to be booked in a psychiatric ward for his PTSD. Blake is recovering slowly and missing his ‘puppy’, but he diligently sends text messages on an hourly basis letting him know how much he is missed.

It only takes Aaron a month to figure out what the sentiment behind Blake’s messages mean. Even though Blake hasn’t said it outright, Aaron knows he is loved. As soon as Blake opens the door, Aaron knows he is home. A sense of peace flows over him as soon as he is back in Blake’s arms. Blake presents him with a gift of a perfect pink collar and matching leash to welcome home his puppy. Aaron is at peace with himself and his unique needs and he is definitely ready to embrace his true identity. The sexual energy between these two is very palpable and showcases the full extent of their trust and love for each other. I really enjoyed how naturally the puppy play aspect was introduced by the author. It was not overly salacious, just two men being in love and freely expressing that love ,as it should be.

Indy once again proves to be a superhero trapped in his little ‘twinkie’ body when he ends up saving himself as well as a federal agent Miles who will star in the next upcoming book of this series. The plan Connor has set in place is perfectly executed without any of the key players falling under suspicion. At last, Indy is free, all the men of the Fitzpatrick clan who has hurt and hunted him are dead. I can’t wait to see the fabulous quartet that is made up of Indy , Noah, Josh and Connor reclaim their lives. Another amazing addition, the next one will be a threesome, can’t wait. I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.

Horizons 4: Chyna Doll by Mickie B. Ashling

Title :  Chyna Doll                Word Count : 90,981

Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : Lil Lampert’s forty-fifth birthday turns the effervescent architect into a brooding mess, and his partner, Grier Dilorio, takes him to Italy to help him regain his zest for life. The timing is bad—almost-fifteen-year-old Luca has just started high school, and his mother and stepfather are also traveling. Luca is left in the care of Chicago Bear, Clark Stevens, and his partner, Dr. Jody Williams.

Growing up with two dads and two gay uncles has given Luca a unique perspective on gender roles, but not all the answers. He’s had a secret crush on his straight best friend, Chip, for years. Suddenly, Luca finds himself attracted to Chyna, Chip’s twin sister. Now he’s wondering if this means he’s bisexual.

Born with a sexual development disorder, Chyna should have been raised as a male, but due to an epic parenting fail, is being raised as female. Hiding the truth becomes more difficult when Chyna hits puberty, and crushing over Luca adds another element to Chyna’s struggle to fit in.

Is Luca’s moral compass strong enough to guide him successfully through this period of discovery or will he succumb to peer pressure and shatter Chyna’s dreams for happiness?

My Review : Chyna has a big secret, one that can’t be hid if any guy decides to be sexually intimate with her. Chyna could have been Chandler if her parents had ticked the male sex box at her birth. Instead, her mom chose to tick the female sex box.Chyna is intersex, she was born with fallopian tubes, a uterus, a penis and a scrotum. Chyna’s mother decided to assign her a female gender since her sex was ambiguous while her twin brother was undoubtedly male. Also, the mother Lisa really wanted that ideal family of one boy , one girl. 

Chyna really wants a boob job and a doctor to assess her situation so she’ll  know her options. However, her mother shoots down all of her attempts due to the fear that she possibly made a horrible mistake against the advice of medical personnel.  Chyna’s  parents were warned that because of the XY chromosome and the penis,  Chyna is considered biologically and anatomically  male. 

Chyna is 15 and feels like a total freak. She has always felt like a girl, but she doesn’t have the budding breasts like all the other teenage girls. Not to mention,  the tucked penis that keeps on popping boners whenever her brother’s best friend  Luca is around. Luca and her twin Chip has been best friends since they were really young. Chyna has always been the tag along and now she is ready for Luca to see her as more than the  pesky sister.  

Chyna and her mother are constantly at each other’s throats , because of this spiraling problem  which is due to puberty and the fact that the hormone blockers aren’t as effective as before. Chyna’s body has always been ‘medicalized’ in her family. She was taught from an early age that her penis was something to be ‘fixed’, rather than showing her how to live with the body that she was given. Chyna has never really explored that part of her anatomy out of fear that if she jerked off this would make her into a boy. Due to her limited supply of hormone blockers, her body is definitely looking more like the boy that her physiological penis says that she is. Her penis has grown and she definitely has more of a defined treasure trail leading to a very prominent burning bush since she hit puberty.

Throughout it all, her twin  brother Chip has been her rock and he truly hates the turmoil that Chyna is going through. Chip cautions her about entering into a misleading relationship with Luca, as this can lead to more heartbreak for all involved. Chip enlightens Chyna about all the repercussions and loss of stimulus that can result from doing penile reconstruction  surgery. He encourages her to take it for a test drive by masturbating to see if it’s something that she really wants to get rid of. Chip really wants her to explore all her options before she does something so irreversible that can possibly cause her more emotional upheaval. 

One of those options presents itself to Chyna as a modeling career that she is hoping will bring in enough cash to fund her boob job that her mother refuses. When Chyna and Chip gets to the studio, they meet Dan the photographer  and his wife and makeup artist Melinda. The photo shoot is seemless, because of Chyna’s flawless beauty. It is only after they are done, that Chyna realizes that Dan  and Melinda knows her secret. She freaks out, but Melinda calms her down by revealing her own secrets. Dan and Melinda opens Chyna’s eyes to the world of famous androgynous people where models like Andrej Pejic are renowned and able to embrace their true gender identities freely. They leave Chyna with quite a few of her questions answered and a sense of hopefulness that she’s never felt before.

All of that hope comes crashing down on Chyna’s head when she finally gets the doctor’s appointment. The news they receive is worse than they could have imagined. It turns out that their mom has been lying to the whole world to protect her own selfish needs. Lisa has been forging her daughters immunization records for years, causing Chyna and everyone she has ever come in contact with to be at risk for all potential diseases. Lisa has also been lying to her daughter about the hormone blockers. The pills she has been giving Chyna is none other than birth control pills, meaning that Chyna is actually hurtling at full speed to puberty. Chyna is devastated and she now has to accept the actualization that she is anatomically a boy. She decides to set aside all her emotional baggage so she can have one carefree night at the high school dance with Luca. The night starts out beautifully and Luca and Chyna explore their sexual curiosity. They share a first when Chyna gives her boyfriend a lightning quick , extremely hot blowjob. Then everything goes to hell in a hand basket.

Some of Chyna’s high school rivals decide to play a nasty prank on her that causes her secret to be exposed to the world.  The aftermath is horrendous and very traumatic  for everyone involved.  Luca feels like he has been duped and reinforcements are called in the form of his gay dad’s Grier and Lil, who have been on a romantic getaway in Italy to revitalize their marriage. Lil and Grier are able to impart some insight into Chyna’s state of mind and situation,  which helps Luca to see that her deception was most likely not intentional but something that vital for her survival.  Luca forgives Chyna and helps her to come to terms with her body. He lets her know that he supports her wholeheartedly and would not be adverse to having a boyfriend instead of a girlfriend if that’s what she decides to do.

I really enjoyed the premise of this book that was very enlightening to issues surrounding intersex and Transgender sexuality. This is the 4th book in this series and it was great to revisit the relationship between Luca’s fathers Grier and Lil.Their relationship  was becoming lackluster and Lil’s trajectory on his way to becoming fifty was causing depression that was beginning to take a toll on the couple. Their foray into a little bit of lace, leather and toys helped to bring back that spark. I give this my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear.

Favorite Quotes : 1. “Perfect,” Lil said, pulling aside the flimsy piece of cloth covering Grier’s ass crack. He speared him with his tongue, making Grier yelp in surprise, and then hunkered down to eat the hell out of his partner’s delectable core. Lil was humming with pleasure, and the vibrations raised goose bumps all over Grier’s body, causing the dark hair on his thighs to bristle with shock. His ass cheeks were being pulled apart, and Lil attacked Grier’s butthole relentlessly, poking through the tight muscle, seemingly determined to turn him into a pleading, wanton wreck.( A little bit of lace on Grier  still gets Lil extremely hot 😉).

2 .“Lil, God that’s good,” Grier huffed from somewhere within the folds of his pillowcase. He moaned and began to tremble when he felt Lil take him in hand from behind, pulling downward in rhythmic strokes while he fucked him forcefully. Lil shifted and withdrew his cock almost to the edge, rubbing over the sensitive skin around Grier’s opening, before slamming back in and grazing his prostate. Grier came with a shout, and ropes of creamy cum shot from his swollen slit while Lil kept on stroking. (Very sensual and primal at the same time.)

3. Chyna didn’t open her eyes but sank down on her knees, suddenly too weak to stand. Moving past her fear, she sneaked a peek and saw how much the organ had expanded underneath her touch. She became more aggressive, experimenting with her strokes. It felt good when she shafted the loose skin up and down. The veiny worm reared up toward her belly, dark pink at the tip and oozing more of the clear liquid. She began tugging faster and faster. Her heart felt like it was going to explode, beating loudly within her ears and making her lose her breath. It was exhilarating and frightening at the same time. She felt hot, wet, and squishy inside and knew she couldn’t stop despite her fear. She finally crested and soared, plummeting downward in a hazy cloud of pleasure she’d never experienced before. Semen spurted out of her, and she watched it coat her fingers. Unfazed, she stuck a finger in her mouth. It was pretty bland, not salty like the clear stuff, but not disgusting either.( Chyna’s explorations are very exhilarating,  because for the first time ever she understands the addiction and wonder of playing with a penis).

Take the Long Way Home by J.A.Rock

Title : Take the Long Way Home          Word Count : 74,152

Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : Dresden Marich has failed out of high school three months shy of graduation. He’s infatuated with his online friend, Evan, alienated from his family and former classmates, and still trying to recover from his father’s death six years ago. He’s also keeping a troubling secret about his older brother, Gunner, who is away at boot camp.

Then Dresden meets Caleb, a judgmental environmentalist who’s hardly Dresden’s fantasy come true. But Caleb seems to understand Dresden’s desire for rough sex, big feelings, and, ultimately, safety. As Dresden becomes embroiled in a farmers market drama involving Caleb, a couple of bullying tomato enthusiasts, and a gang of vigilante vegans, he discovers he might be willing to trade a fantasy relationship with Evan for a shot at something real with Caleb.

But Dresden fears telling quick-to-judge Caleb his secret, and the news that Gunner is coming home sends him fleeing to California for a chance to meet Evan in person and hopefully fall in love. When the encounter doesn’t go as expected, Dresden faces a choice: stay in California and carve out a new life, or take the long road home to his family, Caleb, and a past he must face if he has any hope for a future.

My Review :  Dresden Marich has seen a lot of pain throughout his short life of 18yrs. He was there at 12 when his father was found dead sitting in front of the television.  Shortly thereafter,  his brother who is two years older climbs into his bed and sexually abuses him. He is a little bit  messed up in his head and at 18 he is a high school drop out. Although he has told his mother about the abuse,  she hasn’t done anything to help him other than to hold him while he cries and tell him to keep quiet about what his brother Gunner had done. 

Dresden has taken the initiative to see a therapist to talk about his issues. He is not sure how he feels about sex, he can’t  always maintain an erection and he puts himself in some very risky sexual situations. Dresden’s only friend is Evan, someone who he only talks to through the Internet.  The only thing he knows of Evan is that he likes Indie music and he’s seen a picture of Evan’s waxed ass. Dresden is searching for something and he realized that he just might be looking in all the wrong places. Especially, if what he is looking for leads him to strange men who just wants to piss in his ass crack. Dresden feels  weirded out by allowing one of his Internet hookups to act out his fantasies and sully his body in this manner. He gets out of there post haste and promises himself to be more astute to the weirdos.

From the first moment Dresden meets Caleb a 24 yr old who owns his own business selling wood, there is a strange connection that he is not sure if he’s comfortable with. Caleb doesn’t pursue Dresden but he makes it obvious he is interested when he kisses Dresden.  Dresden  opens to him like a flower in bloom. Caleb facilitates Dresden need for a little pain during sex. He becomes unhinged in Caleb’s arms when he puts pressure on his throat, tugs at his ear and presses hard on a cut on his thigh during their make out session. Dresden feels totally safe in Caleb’s arms and there is an unnamed emotion that is released with their coming together. Caleb is very quiet but  there is just something about him that causes Dresden to open  up and tell him personal things that he can’t tell anyone else. Dresden doesn’t feel the need to cut and self harm when he’s around Caleb.

They practice erotic asphixiation where Caleb restricts Dresden’s oxygen and he gets a big thrill out of this kink. As much as he likes what happened when he was with Caleb,  he doesn’t want to like Caleb. Dresden  just doesn’t think that Caleb is the one He likes Evan, his online pal who sends him links to porn sites. He really wished that his connection with Evan was as strong as the one he felt with Caleb.

Caleb and Dresden starts hanging out a lot and he is introduced to Caleb’s  friends. Their relationship progressed nicely,  without too much drama. Dresden realizes that Caleb understands him more than anyone he’s ever known. They experiment with quite a few kinks rolled into one and it makes the story that much hotter. They role play Caleb kidnapping Dresden  and the slight fear he gets is invigorating. Dresden has faith that Caleb will not hurt him, but there is  still a level of unsurity that causes butterflies in his stomach.

Dresden  is a very complicated character and there is a bump in the road of their relationship when Caleb tells him  to sort out himself. Dresden is not able to process his feelings after hearing that his brother Gunner is coming home from boot camp  in a few days. He acts erratically which is  understood under the circumstances. He lashes  out and runs off to California to meet his online friend Evan. His journey is a waste of time when he meets  Evan and sees that  he is definitely not what he imagined. Dresden is very dissapointed,  but his time away is an eye opener and makes him even more determined to get his life in order. 

Dresden tries his best to repair the bonds of relationship between his mother and brother. He makes peace with what was done to him and chalks it up to the error of judgement of someone who was grieving.  He decides to forgive Gunner and lay it rest in the past. His final step was to fix the bond between Caleb and himself by laying it all on the table and sharing his past with him. Dresden lays his past at Caleb’s feet and allows it to set his future free. Caleb lets him know that he wants all of him , the good , the bad and the ugly. They work together on their blossoming relationship to become better men for each other. I give this my ratings of 3 – it was ok, give it a try. 

Favorite Quotes : 1. He hooks his arms around my legs and starts kneading the backs of my thighs, then my ass cheeks. He takes his mouth off my dick and slides his tongue from just behind my balls up to my asshole. Pulls my hips down toward him, until my ass is on his face. Then he spreads my cheeks and starts working his tongue inside me.( Hot, hot , hot.)

2. My breath catches and my body shakes. I try to dig my fingers into the couch’s upholstery. I feel him stretching his tongue inside me, lengthening it. One guy I hooked up with rimmed me, but it was a lot droolier, and I didn’t worry about whether my ass tasted gross because he was pervy and really desperate to eat me out. But I feel kind of bad for Caleb, because how can an ass not taste like shit, really? I only worry about it for a second, though, and then I’m grabbing my dick to keep from coming as Caleb squeezes my ass and goes to town, slurping and biting and yanking my hips down so I’m completely sitting on his face. The wet sound is driving me almost as crazy as the sensation. He places a hand on my shoulder and drags his nails down my back, and I arch and grind my teeth. ( I’m happy that this was talked about, because I find that oftentimes rimming  is glossed over in romance novels or talked about with euphemisms such as ‘manly flavor ‘. Let’s be real, as hot as it is, it is a little bit gross. I’m all in favor of this though as I do believe that sex is messy and a little gross at times😉.)