Troubled Waters (Pine Cove 2) by H.J.Welch

Title: Troubled Waters         Word Count:284 pgs
Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:Scout Duffy doesn’t know what’s worse. The fact that his scorching one-night-stand is his bratty new client, or the fact that he doesn’t even remember Scout. But beneath all the bravado, Scout can see Emery is terrified, and he’ll do anything to protect him from his attacker. If only he would lower his walls and let Scout into his heart as easily as he lets him dominate in the bedroom.

Being out and proud his whole life means Emery Klein has never been safe. But now his charity work and social media fame has put a target on his back from bigots, and his friends force him to hire a private bodyguard. Emery doesn’t need to be judged by some straight former-boxer , but his attraction to the gorgeous hunk is insatiable. When Emery finally recognizes Scout, they can’t keep their damn hands off one another, if only for as long as Scout’s in town.

There’s a reason Emery never looks too closely at the men he sleeps with, just like there’s a reason Scout lives out of a suitcase in motel rooms. Will two men hiding from hurt realize the love that could heal them both is right in front of them? Or will Emery’s attacker take everything before they have the chance?

Book Two of Pine Cove. Troubled Waters is a steamy, standalone MM romance novel with a guaranteed HEA and absolutely no cliffhanger.

My Review: Emery Klein is no stranger to having bathroom hookups at the gay hotspot ‘Aquarium’ in Pine Cove. His hometown may be small, but it’s very well rounded and has quite a few LGBTQ friendly establishments. Aquarium just happens to be one of his favourite places to blow off steam. He has his target locked and loaded once he spies the butch sexy looking marine type on the dance floor. Emery sashays his fabulous twinky Asian ass over and offers his proposition. ‘No means yes and yes means harder’ ,  when Scout Duffy hears these words from the magnificent cutie in front of him, he’s flabbergasted yet intrigued. Emery sees the spark of interest in the man’s eyes and pushes his game. He encourages Mr. Sexy to take him to the bathroom and have his kinky way with him. Before they get down and dirty, Emery gives him the safeword ‘guppy’ in case either of them want to stop their kinky fun. 

Scout realizes that they haven’t even exchanged names, but the little firecracker has him so hot and bothered he can’t think straight. Being an ex-boxer turned bodyguard is  a very demanding job for Scout. He decides to enjoy this gift that the beautiful sexy little twink has offered. They both come together in a fiery passion. For Scout , it’s his first time experiencing this exhilarating and fun side to sex. It is certainly a memorable moment for him. Emery is surprised that he’s found this specimen that exudes such dominance, but also handles his body with such care. Although this hookup proves to be orgasmic and all that he’s ever dreamed, Emery tries not to focus too much on the man or take in any details. He stares at the lone wolf tattooed on his partner’s arm , but that’s all he would possibly remember. As soon as their passion culminates, Emery gives his partner a kiss as a thank you and walks away. Scout is in orgasmic bliss and stupefied at their kinky encounter that he misses his chance to go after Emery.

After leaving the club, Emery goes home alone to find his door ajar. Emery is scared shitless and is ready to run, until he thinks of his poor defenseless little hedgehog being left behind. Emery is able to free the hedgehog, but he is left with a mild concussion when the stalker in his house gives chase. He ends up on his best friend’s Ava’s couch where she informs him she has hired him a bodyguard. Emery is left feeling vulnerable after his attack. There are rips in the armour that has always protected him. He is certainly not enthused to meet his bodyguard and refuses to curtail his lifestyle, no matter how many hate mail he receives.

Scout is ecstatic to be reunited with Emery, when he realized its the guy he can’t stop thinking about. All his protection instincts come to the fore when he thinks how scared Emery must be. This soon turns to devastation when Scout sees there is not even a flicker of recognition in Emery’s eyes. Scout is definitely hurt, but he knows it’s for the best since he needs to maintain a professional distance. Emery is such a brat, he takes out all his frustrations of the upheaval in his life on Scout. A man who Emery believes has lived an all American lifestyle and is the quintessential picture of machismo. He unfairly judges Scout on stereotypes and preconceived notions that he’s drawn based on his outward appearance. Scout sucks it all up until Emery pushes too far in his game of trying to seduce ‘the straight guy’.Scout has had enough and uses the safeword that Emery gave to him when they hooked up the first time. Emery is stunned silent as the pieces of random memories start to fall in place.

Emery has been primed by life to always enshroud himself in armour. His flamboyant ways proclaim him as loud and proud, but he uses it as a way to keep people at a distance. When he finds Scout, their encounter is not only passionate but meaningful.For the first time Emery is open and honest and letting someone in. He explains his insecurities that he’s always been plagued with concerning him being Asian and ‘fem’. He explains why he challenges gender binaries through non conforming. He embraces his ‘fem’ side and it sets his beautiful soul free.

There are unexplored depths to Scout, Emery soon finds out. When Scout talks about his father’s physical abuse against him as a child. How he was forced to become unnecessarily aggressive through boxing as a means to protect himself and his mother. He was never seen to be ‘manly’ enough for his father. Not ever really knowing his own self worth. This is one of the reasons he enjoys when Emery praises him as a Dom. Finally, he knows he’s doing a great job and it pleases him to know he’s taking care of Emery.

Emery and Scout have a fun loving, playful relationship with Emery usually being a brat. Scout loves this side of Emery and he truly embraces it wholeheartedly. They are a match made in heaven, turns out they are two halfs of a whole. Emery finally gets his fairytale ending with Scout spoiling his ‘princess’ with his bling bling. I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.

Pure (Trenton Security 4) by J.M. Dabney

Title: Pure                    Word Count:190 pgs
Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:Innocence wasn’t a personality flaw.

Nicolas “Pure” Warner lived with the curse of a cute face and a terminal blush. He was waiting for his happily ever after. Yet he’d given up on finding his one. His partner and spotter wasn’t the type to settle down but he’d always been drawn to the other man. Pure decided he could live with that, but when powers outside their control took Raul away, Pure would stop at nothing to get Raul back even if that meant leaving the Trenton Security team behind.

Touching the sun only left you burned.

Raul Martinez was a brutal fighter. He’d worked freelance for several years at Trenton Security. There was one dark spot to the perfect job: Pure. The man was sweet and looking for forever. How did the damaged and unworthy ever hope to touch the sun without getting burned? And touching Pure would be a dream come true. When Pure endangers his freedom to save him, how could Raul convince his boy that letting him go was the only option?

This title may contain triggering material for some readers.

My Review:  Pure and Raul are the only unattached men of  the Trenton crew. The sexual chemistry between the two is incendiary, it is so obvious to everyone around them. There is just one problem,it is clear that Pure has experienced some form of trauma in his past. This keeps him running away from the feelings that Raul ignites in him. Raul tries to resist the temptation of the big sexy man named Pure. He just knows that he could never be good enough for this sweet gentle giant. He is a ‘daddy dom’ who would love to make Pure his ‘boy’. Raul gets a glimpse into Pure’s life when he takes care of him after a concussion. It is Pure’s turn to babysit the Crew’s rugrats. This is a sight to behold, watching Pure with all the kids causes a soul deep yearning in Raul.

From the very beginning, chaos ensues when Raul is set up on a murder wrap. Pure goes rogue in order to help the man who he now acknowledges as his one and only. For once, Pure feels he cannot trust the Trenton Crew to help with the problem. He feels betrayed that the team has so easily disregarded Raul’s arrest. To Pure everything seems so insignificant when he realizes he might lose his one true love to false accusations. He knows that he is the only one that can protect and save his man. Pure takes matters into his own hands, he breaks Raul out and takes him to a safe house.

They are on their own in this trying time and they definitely have to count on each other, which is nothing new for them. What is new is the intimate setting and the open mindset that Pure is now willing to embrace. Gage, one of his teammates who is a daddy dom explained the importance of being open and honest about his limits in a daddy/ boy dynamic. Pure takes a leap of faith, trusting that Raul would never hurt him. He reveals the secret of his tainted past. Raul is enraged when he hears how his sweet baby boy was raped on his first date in high school. He understands so much more about his ‘boy’ Pure and he knows now that he needs to handle him gently.

Its an awakening for both Pure and Raul. Raul has to re-imagine the dynamic of being a daddy dom for Pure. He gives over all the power to Pure allowing him to experience the fearless joy of ‘topping his Dom, while still maintaining the control. For the first time, Pure feels something other than shame and fear when it comes to sex. He feels treasured and revels in the sturdy arms of his sexy Dom. It doesn’t take Pure long to completely trust his Daddy. Their short time together is blissful and they come close to forgetting the outside world.

They decide to keep moving and go off the grid to see their crazy friends Horace and Freddie. It’s not long before all hell break lose. Assassins find them before they can formulate a plan. Pure, being the better sniper decides to draw their fire and is hurt in the process. Raul is devastated and decides to just give himself up and go back to prison. One thing is certain, Raul will always put Pure first. He knows that he would rather be locked up or die in prison, than to see his boy hurt.

As soon as Pure is able he makes plans to clear his Daddy’s name. He does all this without the help of the Crew and with the help of his sweet mother. Right now, he doesn’t trust the Crew. He doesn’t believe that they fought as hard as they should have for Raul. Pure puts his faith in a few criminals that would be considered the underbelly of society. In the meantime, Raul is being protected in prison as best as he can by a few men who owes Peaches favours. After doing some digging, they find out that Raul has been setup for a job he did 10 years prior. The step daughter of the crime boss that went to prison is out for blood. Raul pleads with Gage to keep his boy safe. Eventually the Trenton Crew jumps in to help Pure. They realize they definitely dropped the ball in helping one of their own, they left Raul hanging. They make amends by dealing with the problem and proving why the Trenton Crew is feared by many. Pure hasn’t totally forgive them, but he appreciates the help. Anything to get his ‘daddy’ back.

It takes 4 mths for Raul to finish out his sentence, but finally the stress of it all is over. Pure is ready for his Daddy to be home and show him to whom he belongs. Pure gives himself over to full submission. Raul doesn’t mind Pure topping him, but there is nothing greater than being inside Pure. For him, being together is heavenly and all his dreams are coming through. Another self fulfilling prophecy that comes to pass is seeing Pure with their triplets. Their life is complete with their tiny grumpy boy, and their two terrifying little princesses. It is amazing seeing these two strong men with their well deserved beautiful family. I give this my ratings of 3- it was ok, give it a try. In my honest opinion I was a little bit disappointed, because I found it lacking. I waited so long for Pure’s story and I think it fell flat. I felt a disconnect between the characters and as a part of the series. It didn’t seem cohesive. I still love JM and look forward to any new material.

Rocket Science by K.M. Neuhold

Title: Rocket Science Word Count:
Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:Relationships aren’t rocket science. If they were, I might stand a chance of figuring one out.

Elijah
Saying I’ve had a crush on my best friend’s older brother, Pax, most of my life is like saying the big bang was just an explosion. It’s true, but I’m not sure that quite captures the essence of its true enormity.

I know he’s only hanging out with me because I’m new in town and getting my PhD doesn’t leave me with much time to make friends. And even if it did, my strength is mathematics, not friend-making. What I don’t understand is why he kissed me… why he seems to want to keep kissing me. I don’t think my advanced physics knowledge is going to help me figure this one out. But I think for once I’m okay with not knowing, as long as Pax and I don’t know together.

Pax
He’s still the awkward Nerdlet I remember…he’s also probably the cutest, most tempting man I’ve laid eyes on. I know I should keep my hands off him, but this thing between us is like a force of nature. I want to be his first everything. He says we’re nothing more than atoms crashing into each other. I’m no scientist but I don’t think either of us are braced for the explosion.

**** Rocket Science is a stand-alone MM romance featuring an inexperienced nerd, a cocky player, and a satisfying HEA

My Review: Rocket scientist in training Elijah just moved to California to do his PhD at the university of Caltech. He is very introverted and gets really anxious in social situations. This is the first time going to school without his best friend and protector Theo by his side. Theo has enlisted the help of his hunky brother Pax to show Elijah around. Remembering the quirky little nerd he always thought was funny as a kid, pushes Pax to agree. He sets up a night out with Elijah. He is totally surprised when the adorkable guy who just walked in is none other than his brother’s childhood friend. Elijah can’t believe the guy who he had a crush on in his teens could possibly get any hotter. Damn was he wrong, Pax is hotter than ever showing off his tatted up arms under his dress shirts.

They get along great after Pax plies Elijah with some alcohol which certainly loosens him up. They banter about Star Wars causing Pax to reminisce about his hidden geeky side. He thoroughly enjoyed himself and decides to bring over hangover breakfast for Elijah. This is the beginning of something fresh and new for both of them. Both find themselves enjoying their renewed friendship. It doesn’t take long for Pax to make the first move with an exploratory kiss. This opens the door for Elijah who attacks with a voracious appetite. Having never been kissed before causes Elijah to be a mixture of innocence and heat all rolled in one. This is an intense pull for Pax and before they know it, they culminate in a hot frottage session. By the time they finish and Elijah is fast asleep, Pax already knows he’s made a mistake.

Based on prior experience Pax knows he isn’t boyfriend material. He knows someone as innocent as Elijah deserves so much more than him. Pax breaks it down gently, but Elijah is definitely hurt. His insecurities make him feel at fault. Things become strained between them. Surprisingly, it’s Pax who breaks the ice when he can’t seem to stay away from Elijah. They fall into a no strings attached arrangement that works for both of them. Everything is fun and exciting for both men. Pax sees a new side to hooking up and starts feeling emotions he’s never felt before. Their arrangement sees them through Thanksgiving and Christmas. Pax knows for sure that he has fallen in love with his ‘Nerdlet’.After one of their intense lovemaking sessions that’s always earth-shattering, Pax makes a declaration.
Not knowing how to respond, Elijah pretends to be asleep.

Pax’ vulnerability shines clear through when he goes to see Elijah after ghosting him for a week. He gets straight to the point confessing to Elijah that he would make a horrible boyfriend. Already forewarned with advice from his friend Alex, Elijah has made up his mind to be vulnerable with Pax and not let him go. After telling Pax how much he is in love with him, they get down and dirty to have some hot makeup sex. They both realize they are ready to traverse the tides of a relationship together.The love that they feel for each other is out of this world. Pax asks Elijah to move in with him right away. Four years down the road finds him getting down on one knee asking his shy Nerdlet to marry him. I loved, loved, loved this one. I give this my ratings of 5 – bring out the vibrators.

Second Wind by Aimee Nicole Walker

Title: Second Wind Word Count:236 pgs
Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:Second wind: a new strength or energy to continue something that is an effort. After an amicable divorce, Lincoln Huxley is ready to embrace the sexuality he repressed for more than two decades. Rush Holden is no longer willing to settle for closeted men or those who don’t share his dreams of marriage and fatherhood. A chance encounter on a lakeside pier is the second wind they both need. Or will it just be a painful reminder of all they had lost?

Second chance: an opportunity to try something again that failed one time. Rush and Lincoln have shared a lot of firsts—friendship, young love, and heartbreak. Cruel reality forced the two men to choose paths that took their lives in different directions. Twenty-six years later, they get a second chance to fall in love with each all over again. Can it really be that simple, or will the same issues ruin their happiness a second time?

Happily ever after: to live happily for the rest of one’s life. Rush and Lincoln know that love and life can’t be defined by words alone. Patience, commitment, and the determination to do whatever it takes will be the only way the two men achieve their happily ever after.

Second Wind is a funny, sexy, and endearing standalone romance novel about love, loss, and rediscovery. It contains sexually explicit material and is intended for adults 18 and older.

My Review: This story has been told many times before, but this one really hit me in the ‘feels’ from the very beginning. We are introduced to two young boys who are inseparable from a very early age. They champion each other on the playground and make grand plans of what they want to be in the future. They start feeling the tingles during their preteen years, not really sure what it means. By the time they hit the teen years Rush Holden has pretty much figured out what it means for him. Rush Holden knows he’s totally and irrevocably in love with his best friend Lincoln Huxley. Linc has the same feelings but fear has him resisting the urge and he pulls away from Rush. Linc the jock is certainly afraid of the stigma that comes with liking a boy. He knows it hurts Rush , but he just can’t topple the social hierarchy of which he’s been made the king. Rush stays in the shadows alone with his camera, with only his passion of photography keeping him sane.

A glimmer of hope appears when Rush had to help tutor Linc for his classes. They regain some of their closeness, but their true relationship remains a secret. They share secret kisses and explore the physical side of their relationship with a few stolen moments. These special moments have been indelibly imprinted in both their minds. Rush and Linc lock these treasured moments in a vault that’s kept safely in their hearts. They part ways at the end of high school. On prom night, Rush and Linc enjoy one final heartbreaking dance in the confines of a photographer’s dark room. All their dreams for the future are left in the dark.

Fast forward 20 yrs in the future,here we have Rush stuck in a relationship that seems to go nowhere. It is clear to see that he has been shaped by his past. He’s with a man who doesn’t value him, he forgets their anniversary and tries to turn it around by blaming Rush. Everyone around him knows that Rush deserves better. When he finally gets a proposal Rush is ecstatic, but their is an underlying sadness he knows should not be there. On the morning of the wedding Rush is left standing at the altar, he’s devastated but sadly not overly surprised. His family and friends help him to pick up the pieces of his life.

In the meantime, somewhere in another place Lincoln is also picking up the pieces of his life. Becoming empty nesters has forced Linc’s wife to ask for a divorce. She knows that even though their life has been good, they are more best friends than lovers. They come to a mutually amicable agreement without any drama. For the first time in over 20 years, Linc admits to being gay.Linc cries in his ex wife’s arms for the love of the boy he lost. It is wonderful seeing the support that the ex couple give to each other for the sake of love.

It was certainly inevitable that these star crossed lovers would meet again. This becomes true when Linc goes to Chicago to reveal to his kids, his deepest darkest secret. Linc can’t believe his luck when he runs into the love that he thought he had lost. Their reunion is a joyous affair where everything fades in the background. Their passion is combustible and Rush and Linc realize that nothing has changed in the twenty years they have been apart. What they feel for each other is even more concentrated and pervasive than the puppy love that they felt in their teens.

They spend a blissful week together, making up for lost time, exploring each other’s bodies. They experience a brand new range of emotions like never before. After coming out to his children Linc decides to introduce the love of his life.Rush gets a warm reception from Linc’s kids who are grateful to the man that’s made their dad so happy. However, all good things must come to an end or just a pause.

In their case, they’ve both decided to pursue a long distance relationship for the time being. They do this for a few months with both of them visiting each other for a week here and there. Linc and Rush experience the glorious wonder of the internet, using Skype which affords them the opportunity for some kinky sexy fun. In the end, Linc makes a grand gesture by uprooting himself and moving in with Rush. They are both ecstatic to finally be together, enjoying all the little nuances of everyday life. It doesn’t take them long to take the plunge into married bliss. They decide to complete their family by adopting a beautiful baby girl. All their dreams are finally coming true. This is a love that was carved out throughout space and time for only these two incredible souls. I give this my ratings of 5- bring out the vibrators. This one is truly hottt!!!

P.S. This story has a bomb playlist. Each chapter is associated with the most perfect song. This definitely added to the feelings of the character in my opinion. Check it out.

Tank ( Ballsy Boys 2) by K.M. Neuhold & Nora Phoenix

Title: Tank Word Count: 306 pgs
Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb: A fake relationship with the guy I hate more than anything. Kill me now.

Shallow pretty boy, conceited fuckboy, immature assclown. Take your pick, they all apply to Brewer. The world is his ass buffet, and we’re all on the menu.

I’ve never hated anyone like I hate Brewer. But when Rebel pairs us to do a scene together, I have to admit I’m looking forward to taking all my irritation out on his…well, you get the picture. When one scene turns into a whole fake relationship, I’m not sure we’re going to make it out of this without some bloodshed.

But then something weird happens. The more time we spend together, the more I see a different side of him…and dare to show a different side of me. What the hell is happening?

** Tank is the second book in the sexy, emotional Ballsy Boys series. It can be read as a stand-alone, but it’s more fun reading the series in order. Expect plenty of laughs, a whole lotta steam, and all the feels as you get to know these Ballsy Boys.

My Review: It is certainly true that there is a thin line between love and hate. Porn star Tank, Ballsy Boys illustrious ‘top’ hates Brewer with a passion. All he sees when he looks at Brewer is a carefree playboy who believes that the male specimen is his personal buffet. There is a perpetual smile always on Brewer’s face, he is a veritable class clown and he lives to annoy Tank. In all their years working together , the boss man Bear has never put them in a sex scene before. It isn’t until Rebel(former porn star now turned assistant director)decides to shake things up that things get real interesting.

The two porn stars balk at the idea of doing a scene together, but they both need the money too much to turn down the gig. Their sex scene literally breaks the internet with how explosive the action gets. Tank ‘tops’ Brewer with all he’s got and Brewer takes it like a champ. To them , its just them doing their jobs, but everyone around them sees the chemistry that cannot be denied. They are so sexy together and the directors decide to capitalize on their success by turning it into a series. They are now slated to do 10 more movies which will force them to be continually in close quarters.

Working together has not necessarily made them closer, but what it’s done is allow a glimpse into each other’s lives. They are both extremely private, outside of them working together they know absolutely nothing about each other, not even their real names. They are both extremely shocked when they end up in an English Lit class at their college. Tank certainly has to revise the airhead playboy image that he has of Brewer who he now knows as Micah , doctor in training. Brewer didn’t think that Tank was dumb, but he would have never thought that behind all that brute strength was an architectural genius named Peter. They decide to pair up on a class project and this gives them even more access to their personal space. They start hanging out, eating meals together and enjoying each other’s company watching old movies.

It isn’t until after awhile that they even realize they have formed a tentative friendship and that they no longer hate each other. When their producers suggest that they engage in a fake relationship for more ratings and more money, it isn’t the hardship that it would have been prior.Tank lets Brewer know that they have to be mutually exclusive for their farce to work. Their fake relationship segues into a real relationship without them even noticing.

Micah opens up to Peter about his childhood trauma of losing his twin. Peter heart twinges when Micah suggests that the wrong twin died. This internalized behaviour stems from how his parents always made him feel for living when his other half was dead. Tank knows that Brewer feels vulnerable, but he gives him comfort in his big sturdy arms. Tank realises that his feelings are not one-sided when Brewer makes his birthday special. Its the first time anyone has made him feel special. His insecurities peek through and Brewer is the only one that’s ever seen him as more than a big brute of a man.

Peter doesn’t hesitate to open up his home to Micah when his roommate kicks him out. Their relationship is still not defined, but there are certain nuances that are painting a clear picture. Tank has made himself Brewer’s self-appointed caretaker. He finds simple pleasure in making sure he eats properly and gets enough sleep in between bouts of sweaty man sex. They continue to grow together in real life and on set. Brewer tackles Tank’s vulnerability at bottoming. He makes it spectacular for his big grizzly bear. There isn’t a part of Tank’s body that wasn’t loved on. It is obvious that Brewer is well acquainted with physical love. However, he could have been knocked over by a feather when he realizes that he has fallen for Tank. Micah is so in love with the sweet Teddy bear that is Peter.Nevertheless, he is also very afraid of this emotion. After suffering from unrequited love all his life, hopelessly waiting for his parents to love him, Micah decides that Peter has to make the first move.

It all comes down to the last mini movie in the series. They have to make some sort of declaration and it just flows naturally. Their words are geared to the movie , but it’s also fitting for their roles in real life and they both understand that this is raw and truly authentic. Their lovemaking is slow and tender bringing forth all their pent up emotions. They forget about the cameras and just focus on each other. They are explosive together. After the scene finishes and they move on with their regular life, Peter knows he needs to do a grand gesture. Micah deserves the words and the world is his platform as he turns to his Instagram to lay it all on the line. Peter’s declaration of love is well received by Micah and returned tenfold. Their final act is to open up to the Ballsy Boys family, allowing them to meet the true personas behind the facade. Ballsy Boys have quite a few secrets we can’t wait to uncover and explore. I’m definitely looking forward to the next installment. I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.

Rebirth of his Omega( The Outcast Chronicles 4) by Christa Crown & Harper B. Cole

Title: Rebirth of his Omega Word Count:155 pgs
Genre: Paranormal Gay Romance/ Mpreg

Blurb:Fire is death.

Ryan lost his family to a fire when he was young, and its haunted him ever since, especially while chasing the arsonist who has been kidnapping gifted shifter kids. Now that they’ve captured the man and his phoenix accomplice and rescued the kids, Ryan thinks maybe life will be able to get back to normal…

But when the phoenix, a creature born of fire, turns out to be Ryan’s true mate, life becomes suddenly even more complicated.

Fire is life.

Phoenix is horrified when his memories return to him and he realizes the pain and suffering he has caused in his new life. His true mate wants nothing to do with him, but he’s determined to hold on to his mate no matter what. He’s never lost his chance with him in any other life, he’s certainly not going to start now.

Rebirth of His Omega is a 38k word novella featuring a lion with a fear of fire and the phoenix who has loved him for many lifetimes. It is the fourth book in the Outcast Chronicles, and it is recommended to read them in order for maximum enjoyment. This book contains mpreg, knotting, and too many kids for our lion to handle. Trigger warning for past infertility.

My Review: The story continues with the phoenix and Ryan the lion who loves to cook for the pack. At first, no one was sure what happened to the Phoenix after the dragon burnt the ancients and releases Wamp, the coyote shifter who caused so much destruction. The Phoenix returns to his senses with jumbled fragmented pictures. Putting those pictures together creates a really morbid consciousness for him. The Phoenix is a true Ancient and he has been reborn countless amount of times. He has lived many lifetimes, but he is shattered by what he has allowed himself to become through loneliness and the lies of a demented man. The man Wamp who he looked to as his master has used him to cause unspeakable destruction. Once his consciousness is fused together, the Phoenix is reconciling to all the damage he has done.

This is how Ryan finds him and his lion pounces. Ryan would love nothing more than to destroy the vulnerable looking man he sees before him. However, there is an unexplained tether that draws them together. Before he knows what’s happening, he’s balls deep in the Phoenix who already recognizes Ryan as his fated mate, a man who he’s known as his, throughout his many lifetimes. Ryan is surrounded by this fog of lust and comes to when they are rudely interrupted by Ryan’s pack alpha Asher. It is disconcerting for Ryan to see his mating mark on their enemy the Phoenix. He is disgusted when he thinks he is mated to a monster.

Their mating is certainly a convoluted mess. It is going to take a lot for everyone to see the Phoenix as someone other than the fire demon they have come to see him as. When Casper the seer reveals that the Phoenix is already pregnant with Ryan’s cub, it makes the situation even more difficult. Even though it is not fully sorted out in his mind, Ryan’s lion has already acknowledged the Phoenix as his mate and is ready to treat him as such. As a pack, they have even more responsibilities now that they have freed so many kids from under Wamp’s control. They all have to learn how to work with Phoenix. The burden is on Phoenix to prove that he is no longer a danger to the pack.

Phoenix who has had problems with infertility in his past lives is adamant that he is not pregnant. Ryan believes in what Caspar the seer has seen. As much as Phoenix would love to be connected to Ryan through a child, he just cannot believe that he is pregnant and give himself false hope. The pregnancy causes a barrier for the two of them, because every time Ryan mentions it, Phoenix shuts down.This is a very painful issue for Phoenix and the weight of his sadness is almost crushing. It soon becomes clear that all cannot be forgiven or forgotten. Ben comes face to face for the first time with Phoenix. All Ben sees is the man who killed his former mate in a fire and the kidnapper of his son Liam. Ben tries to attack and Phoenix flees.

There is definitely a dichotomy between Phoenix’s two personas in everyone’s mind, especially Ryan’s. On one hand , he is the Phoenix who brings death and destruction. On the other hand, the person that shines through right now is Phoenix, his vulnerable, saddened mate who is hurting by the circumstances of his nature. Caspar encourages Ryan to give Phoenix some space. Ryan wars with his lion, but he knows he needs to think. It is at this moment that Ryan realizes that he has gotten to know Phoenix’s true nature and he holds no ill-intent towards the pack. Ryan also sees the error of his ways, he tries so hard to push Phoenix away. How can he expect his own pack to embrace Phoenix if he ,Ryan the man has not fully embraced his own mate, only the lion has. He knows now what is in his destiny, to be one with his mate.

It has not been an easy road for these too. They will have to learn to navigate this new lifetime together. There is one thing that is sure, the spark between them will ignite a flame that will certainly burn forevermore. Their problems are far from over, but they will stand as one united front against all the dangers that they will face as a pack. When the kids are kidnapped again by one of their own, many answers are revealed. Ryan dies but is soon reborn by the power of the Phoenix’s tears.Ryan and Phoenix are now immortal.

Another Ancient is awakened, a dragon named Ryeth who uses pack member Simon as a conduit to communicate. Ryeth/ Simon sheds light on the war they will be facing and the true powers of the phoenix. Ryeth plays a big part as he is the only one able to deliver Phoenix’s twins since he is engulfed in flames during the process. Ryan and Phoenix are Both ecstatic to meet their twins Cassia and Michael. I really enjoyed this one and I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.

Born Again Sinner by Daryl Banner

Title: Born Again Sinner       Word Count: 410 pgs
Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb: “Cody Davis is gonna make a sinner out of me.”

Yes, I know exactly who he is.
The wounded soldier at the end of Willow Street. Intimidating. Devastatingly handsome. Muscular body chiseled from stone. Deep dark eyes that dare you to come near. Attitude for days.

And I just became his caregiver.

Everyone warned me to stay away from him – including my father, the respected minister of our small town of Spruce. But clearly I’m too stubborn to heed good advice, especially when Cody Davis is as frustratingly attractive – and persistent – as they come.

As the preacher’s son, I have strict morals I must live by. But each day spent with that aggravating hunk makes me question them. My safe and fragile world is turning upside-down, and I’m not sure I have the strength to stop it.

And even worse: I’m not sure I want to.

Temptation this bad never looked so good.
This soldier is gonna make a sinner out of me.

* This is a standalone male/male romance set in the same fictional small town as “Football Sundae”. Steam, humor, and a whole lot of southern sass guaranteed. *

My Review: The whole town of Spruce knows that Cody Davis has been injured and back home from the army. Most of the town gossips that he is a crazy recluse. Cody’s mom has been doing the best she can by hiring caregivers to take care of her son. She’s at her wit’s end after losing all the previous caregivers for one reason or another. As a last resort she hires Trey Arnold, the preacher’s son who is also a nurse’s assistant.

The first time Trey meets Cody he realises that Cody is ill-mannered and has a lot of unresolved anger issues. Cody makes it quite clear that he doesn’t need any help and he is happy living in his slovenly mess. Cody is very resistant the first few visits and tries to intimidate Trey at every turn. Trey persists and puts on a brave face and strong stance so that he can give Cody the help he needs.

Things come to a head when Trey pushes too hard and Cody lashes out by bringing up Trey’s dead mother. Trey tries hard not to cry but it is clear when he left how hurt he was. Cody knows right away that he has gone too far. He feels guilty for the way he has hurt Trey. This guilt intensifies when Trey doesn’t return for three days. Cody knows he has to make amends.

Cody shows up to church on Sunday and he can feel all eyes on him. People stare and watch him with pity. He is about to turn around and leave when he finally sees Trey. He gives Cody a smile and make room for him. Cody limps his way to the front and squeezes in beside Trey. This means the world to Trey and he knows this is Cody’s way of atoning for his harsh words. They are moving into another realm of the caregiver/ patient relationship that they have.

Trey and Cody goes out to eat and after Trey takes Cody to a nice little private lake. When Trey starts helping Cody with some water exercises for his injured leg, Cody’s body reacts to their physical closeness. Cody is trying to clue Trey in to the fact that he is very attracted to him. It isn’t until a few days later when Cody seeks him out at work that Trey realises that they are developing a stronger connection. One outside the cocoon of Cody’s home where prying eyes can see them now.

Cody is brash and he doesn’t beat around the bush. He shows Trey his attraction without flowers and subtle seduction. For once, Trey gives in to his secret wishes and his long repressed heart’s desires. Cody reveals to him the world of carnal pleasures and it doesn’t take long for Trey’s long held repression to turn to an overzealous passion. Cody finds it adorable and allows Trey to explore.Trey is torn between the morals he grew up believing and this newfound world where passions rules his every decision. When he unwittingly falls asleep at Cody’s , he panics. Trey lies to his father for the first time to cover where he has been. Immediately, he is ashamed of his actions.

Cody is trying to be a better person. He likes the person he is when he is around Trey. Cody feels worthy of all the attention and caring he receives from the ‘well -loved upstanding’ citizen such as Trey. When Cody shows up to the 50th anniversary at the church as Trey’s companion,people definitely take notice. By the time they get to the after-party at the prominent Strong ranch,tongues are certainly wagging.

We are revisited by previously loved characters Tanner and Billy Strong. They are living happily in wedded bliss. Cody finds that he is actually enjoying himself talking to Trey, Tanner and his husband while reminiscing about high school. The atmosphere is relaxed and he is enjoying being himself around other gay men. By the end of the night , Cody ends up staking his claim on Trey, revealing to Tanner their newfound relationship.

Trey tries to leave Cody to go home, because he doesn’t want his father suspicious. Half way there , he realizes that Cody has unlocked his true nature. He can no longer be the pious, self righteous puppet that he projected before. Trey is ready to give himself over to the passion unfurling inside him. He knows for sure that he is in love with Cody, but he doesn’t think Cody is ready for that kind of commitment. Trey knows that what they have will be worth the fight. After a wondrous night together, Trey goes home feeling high on life and ready to confess to his father about his relationship.

Everything goes to hell when he walks through the door. His father starts quoting scriptures about the prodigal son.Trey runs off, going to the only place he feels close to his mother who he knows loved him unconditionally. He has a bit of a come to Jesus moment, where he actually has a heartfelt conversation with the spirit of his mother. He falls out of a tree and hurts himself. Cody is surprised and worried when he gets a call from Trey’s father who is heartbroken and ashamed that he has run off his only son. He is apologetic and desperately needs Cody’s skills in finding Trey.

For the first time in his life, Cody truly knows what it means to be in love. Cody is hopelessly in love with Trey and he knows he need to find him at any cost. When Cody finds Trey , he is thankful that he is not too late. He struggles and stumbles through a vicious storm with the unconscious form of the love of his life. By the time they get to the hospital, they are both in need of medical attention. When they are reunited, they profess their love for each other, knowing that through their love they can conquer everything. I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.

Take A Chance ( Second Chances Bk.1) by Megs Pritchard

Title: Take a Chance Word Count: 225 pgs
Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb: Can a chance encounter change your life?

Tom Carter
Kicked out at fifteen for being gay, Tom survived by selling his body on the streets. Four years later, Tom, now nineteen, doesn’t know how long he can continue living this life.
One night while out working, Tom sees a face from his past, one he had long forgotten. One he had used to fantasise about.
Seb Banks
Afraid of the reaction he will receive, Tom runs away hoping never to see him again. But Seb had other ideas.

Sebastian Banks
At twenty-five, Seb’s life is going exactly the way he had wanted. Having worked hard at University, Seb has been offered a permanent contract at a local solicitor.
While driving to a friend’s house to celebrate, Seb is shocked to find Tom, someone he hasn’t seen in years, on the streets, selling himself.
Feeling an overwhelming need to help Tom, Seb tracks him down and offers him a way out.
Is Tom willing to take a chance on Seb and accept his offer, or will his distrust of everyone from his past cause him to push Seb away?
Includes a sneak peek of book two, New Beginnings, Ben and Geoff’s story.

My Review: Tom has been existing and trying to survive on the streets of Manchester since he was 15 and his parents kicked him out. Like so many gay teenagers, he has been tossed out like yesterday’s trash by the people who were supposed to love and protect him. It’s been 4 long hard years, but through his wits and strong will Tom keeps on surviving.Tom has developed a system that gives him and his friends a modicum of security. They go out in pairs and one always looks for details of the cars that the other works.

It is on a night out that Tom recognizes someone from his past. Seb is the older brother of Tom’s former best friend. Tom is embarrassed and runs off. Seb is perplexed to see Tom and It is obvious that he is a prostitute now. Seb is out celebrating his full time position he has just secured. However, It is hard for him to enjoy his achievements, due to his worry for Tom. He can’t let it go and he goes out looking for Tom on another night. When he catches up with Tom, Seb questions him about his lifestyle choices. Tom laughs with derision telling Seb of how his parents threw him out for being gay. He also tells of how Seb’s own parents looked at him with contempt and disgust before slamming their door when he asked for their help.

When Seb confirms Tom’s story with his parents, he is dumbfounded by the vitriol and hate that they are spewing. He is sickened by their views on homosexuality and he knows he made the right decision in not owning up to his bisexuality. He finds Tom once again and tries to apologize. Tom is scared to open up past connections as he is afraid to reopen the wounds left on his soul by his past family and friends. Tom puts on a cloak of impudence that he knows will repel all of Seb’s offers of friendship.Seb is saddened by Tom’s reaction to his benevolence, but he has no choice but to let him walk away.

Seb is very persistent and he doesn’t want to leave Tom to pursue this dangerous path he is on. Tom is at an all time low and now that he’s seen Seb again, all the memories of the past and unfulfilled future dreams comes pouring in. Seb convinces Tom to come home with him for a warm bed and something to eat. It is hard for Tom to trust, but he gives in just this once. He rests peacefully that night, but as day lights he knows he can’t allow himself to get too comfortable. This is not his life. Tom leaves while Seb pleads with him not to go.

His first night back on the streets shows Tom how dangerous is the life he leads. He tries to walk away from a john who won’t take no for an answer.He is beaten, bruised and almost raped. He shows up at Seb’s who unquestionably helps to patch him up. Tom does the unthinkable by stealing from Seb’s wallet the next morning. From the moment he does it he feels physically ill, but he knows he needs to help the others get some food. Seb is disappointed, but moreover he is wrecked that Tom didn’t trust him and couldn’t be trusted himself.

Tom is waiting for Seb on his doorstep a few days later. Seb is furious, but he almost admires the strength it took to come back and apologize. Tom decides to trust in Seb’s offer to help. They have an idyllic few days where they get to know each other and Seb takes Tom shopping for some clothes amid protests.By the end of the day Tom feels almost normal, Seb makes him feel worthy. Things move from being platonic when Seb confesses that he is bisexual and Tom was his first crush.Seb goes slowly, not wanting Tom to be wary of his intentions. Tom feels precious and for the first time he receives pleasure just for himself.

As fun as it’s been Tom knows he needs to check on his housemates. He returns ,only to here that one has been missing for days. He is worried and asks for Seb’s help in searching some of the further places. He finds his friend Adam beaten and stabbed to death. He pulls away from Seb blaming himself for not being there for Adam. When his other housemate Ben points the finger and blames Tom as well, Tom regresses. What Seb finds is a drunken Tom who tries to use his body as a shield. He tries to seduce Seb treating him like a john and belittling his concerns.

Seb is upset and pushes him away. Their relationship seem to be a cycle of hurt/comfort. Tom continuously hurts Seb emotionally and Seb continues to forgive and comfort Tom. Tom shows up at Seb’s house to apologize. The dam breaks and he lets it all out. Tom rants about being soiled goods and allows himself to feel all the pain and humiliation he’s carried over the years. He cries for his friend but most of all for his fifteen year old self that never had a chance. Seb reassures Tom that he’s is not tainted or stained by his past. Seb sees him, not as a whore or a victim, but rather as a survivor. When they come together their passion ignites and it’s incendiary. Seb gives him back the power by handing over control of their pleasure to Tom. Seb opens up a new world for Tom where he is on the receiving end of pleasure for the first time.

Seb asks Tom to move in and tells him how much he loves him. To prove how serious he is , Seb calls his parents and tell them about Tom being in his life. They disown him right away, but Seb knows that Tom is definitely worth it. Before they can start settling in , Tom finds out that another friend Ben has gone missing. He goes to Seb’s work and Seb infers that Ben might have gone to the place where they found Adam’s body. Seb’s boss Geoff is very compassionate and decides to help. After they find Ben and take him to the hospital, Geoff suggests that Ben stay with him. In the meantime, Seb has asked the other two friends Matt and Luke to move in with them.They are all very skeptical, but they know this is a chance they can’t pass up.

It has been a long hard road for all these young men, but with the love of a strong man gateways are now opening up for them. Tom decides to open his heart to the one man who cared enough to pursue him , even when he didn’t want the help or believed in happily ever afters . Seb was the only one who ever looked at him without judgement. Tom gives himself over to the pleasure that Seb can provide. He experiences so many emotions, but the ones in the forefront are love and forgiveness. Love for Seb and forgiveness for himself, for all the things he believes has tainted his soul. I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.

Guns N Boys 7: Gilded Agony by K.A. Merikan

Title: Guns N Boys: Gilded Agony Word Count:257
Genre:Contemporary Gay Mafia Romance

Blurb: “We are two halves of the same rotten apple.”

Deep in the Amazonian jungle, there is a mansion with a rose garden and a hen house where juicy tomatoes are the perfect shade of red, and marble countertops glisten. Inside, where even the shadows don’t reach, something is rotting, and the perfect facade can only hold the stench for so long.

Domenico promised his husband that he would keep him safe, keep him away from the bloodshed and the brutal world of cartel violence. But when a guest arrives to help retrieve a stolen transport of guns, something sinister sneaks into his home, something more dangerous than his enemies. Or has it been there all along, and he just hasn’t noticed?

Seth’s life is what others dream of. Endless leisure time filled with cocktails, a kitchen stocked with anything he wishes for, and a private pool in the sunshine. What’s missing is the man he shares it with, the man he fell in love with. If being cut off from the mafia business was what he wanted, then why is it so painfully lonely in paradise?

Desperate to be the supportive husband Domenico needs, Seth buries his rage, his violent urges, and the anger that simmers inside of him. But he can only hide in plain sight for so long, and when a guest invites him to play with fire, one misstep, one wrong move, could burn their safe haven to the ground.

POSSIBLE SPOILERS:
Themes: mafia, cartel, assassin, organized crime, family ties, domestic violence, inequality, betrayal, revenge

Genre: Dark, twisted M/M romance / crime thriller

Length: ~92,000 words (Book 7 in the series)

WARNING: Adult content. If you are easily offended, this book is not for you.
‘Guns n’ Boys’ is a gritty story of extreme violence, offensive language, abuse, and morally ambiguous protagonists as well as scorching hot, explicit love scenes. Behind the morbid facade, there is a splash of inappropriate dark humor, and a love story that will crawl under your skin.

My Review: The glorified title of ‘house husband’ has never been one coveted by Seth Villani- Acerbi, but that is exactly what his everyday life has turned into. Looking in from the outside, he has everything at his disposal. He has chickens, his own little garden and whatever else he doesn’t have ,there is money enough to buy it. Seth feels unfulfilled in his life and certain subjects are off limits between him and his husband Dom. Seth feels the tension in their relationship and drinks his loneliness away. When Dom seems to have forgotten their anniversary, Seth drinks until he passed out right after he puts away all the awesome food that he prepared for their intimate private dinner.

Domenico Acerbi feels like he is protecting Seth. He keeps his business dealings away from him and doesn’t talk about work. Taking over Toro’s operations has left a heavy burden for him to carryout. He needs to gain the respect of the people and he needs to prove that he can be a bigger badass than Toro, particularly to the Morenos who are even bigger drug kingpins. Not being able to unload his burdens has created a slight divide between him and Seth. Dom notices that Seth drinks more now and this leaves him feeling disappointed, especially when he comes home late on their anniversary to find his husband passed out . He doesn’t understand why his husband seems so ungrateful with the life of luxury he leads.

It soon becomes clear that Dom isn’t the only one who looks at Seth as his indolent trophy husband, so does Mark and Miguel. Mark is no longer a boy and has since taken on a more active role in the business as Dom’s right hand. This gives him the sense that he can mock Seth’s position as his resentment grows. Things boil over when a 5 million dollar gun shipment is stolen from right under their nose. Domenico is furious and certainly stressed. He feels two inches tall when he has to explain to the Morenos. When Dom feels as if Seth keeps bothering him with inconsequential party preparations, he blows up. Seth feels humiliated and like a stranger in his own home. He definitely sees the ‘fragile’ position he has been relegated to, especially when one of Toro’s men makes a slur comparing Seth to his wife.

Nero Moreno and one of his men Diego rolls into town for the party and also to search for the missing shipment. Diego can’t seem to take his eyes off Seth and corners him in the kitchen , making passes at him. Seth is dumbfounded by Diego’s interest mainly because he knows his husband is Dom. It’s obvious that Diego has a death wish, this titillates and piques Seth’s interest. It reminds him of how Dom was when they first met. Seth likes to flirt with danger, but he knows he can’t take it too far because he is very much devoted to his husband. It’s just his way of testing his appeal.

When Diego makes a disparaging comment about Seth’s lips to Dom, Dom shows him why he is now called Toro. Dom gives him a good thrashing, while barely even blinking. Going home to a darkened home, Dom is slightly worried when he sees movement by the pool. Seth chooses that night to draw Dom in with a sexy role play about him cheating with the pool boy. With his anger still simmering so close to the surface from his fight with Diego, Seth is unknowingly playing a dangerous game with Dom. Dom devours his sexy husband voraciously and unleashes his dominance over him. Dom plays around with breath play by pushing Seth’s head in the pool.He goes at him with such intensity and Seth loves it. The needy part of Seth demands this rough side of his lover. They both are in heaven, reconnecting in this most carnal way. Dom through out the idea of Seth wearing a cock cage and he is certainly intrigued.

Things are going great between the loving couple for a few days before everything goes to shit. They come home from a party to find their son Mark in their bed with an underage girl Lilli who Dom has said is off limits. Dom is infuriated at Mark’s stupidity. He gets really rough and punches him in the face. Seth jumps into the fray to stop Dom who pushes him hard causing him to hit his face. Seth is now incensed at his husband’s lack of self control. Now his face is swollen and bruised. Dom is apologetic, but the damage is done.

Seth is slowly stewing about all his mistreatment lately. He’s restless with the life he leads. When Diego comes by , Seth is surprised. He has enough sense not to let him into their home, but he still entertains him and feeds him cake. Diego take things much too far when he masturbates in front of Seth. Seth knows that a line has been crossed and he immediately shuts it down. He knows he can never let anything happen again. Seth feels really guilty and he treats Dom like a King when he gets home. Little does Seth know the events he has set in place through his actions.

Their lives are impacted by tragedy when Diego claims to have a tip on the missing shipment. Their world is about to implode. Diego throws Mark over a cliff after an argument ensued. By the time Mark comes out of the hospital , he has lost an eye. Seth is devastated that his son is hurt. Dom tries to understand what happened and questions Mark. Mark reveals that Diego said he was sleeping with Seth. Dom sees the guilt written all over Seth’s face. Unbeknownst to him , Seth has somehow led on this madman in believing that he is interested. Domenico is enraged and feels utterly betrayed. This time he doesn’t even think before he punches Seth, because he wants to pound him. His heart feels like it’s been ripped out with every revelation of his husband’s near infidelity. He doesn’t even care that Seth didn’t sleep with Diego, the intent was there.

Things get messier when they set a trap for Diego, using Seth as bait. Nothing goes as planned. Diego gets Lilli to get Seth to open the gates and then kills her. Seth tries to lure him away from his unprotected family in the house. Diego believes Seth is his and he is ready to collect. Domenico is blinded by rage when he witnesses his husband’s infidelity with Seth kneeling before Diego pleasuring him. He doesn’t realize that Seth is only doing this to survive. In the end its Seth who ends up killing Diego while Dom is severely injured.

Seth knows his life of complacency has ended. It was time for him to remember the man he was and accept all consequences of the life they lead. No longer could he pretend to be the ‘house husband’ cooking and cleaning. Their foundation has been rocked to the very core, which was built upon trust. Dom is disoriented as he doesn’t know what to believe of Seth anymore , a man who was his everything. A man who he thinks is ungrateful for the luxurious life he had. Dom put another nail in their coffin when he shoots all of Seth’s chickens, the only thing that gave him peace in recent times.Dom cannot see that somewhere along the way he stopped giving of himself, the most important thing that Seth craved. They have both made mistakes and it will be very hard to come back from these events.

It takes almost losing Seth when he boards a boat, for Dom to come to his senses. He realized that throughout the years, Seth has always remained faithful to him no matter how many men have tried. They have a serious talk and Seth explains the despair and how truly stifled he felt in their relationship in the last two years. Dom is saddened that his overprotective personality has led them down this road. They know that it’s going to take hard work to rebuild the trust on honesty that they one had. They need to re-engage and become attuned to each other feelings like they once was. They end up in Buenos Aires feeling more like themselves than in El Encanto. Seth has reclaimed agency in their relationship and Dom allows his man to flourish and appreciate all that entails. I give this my ratings of 4-lose the underwear. I love catching up with Dom and Seth, but I’m ready to delve into Mark’s story. Can’t wait!!!

Hearts in Chaos (Phoenix Club 2) by CJ Bishop

Title: Hearts in Chaos        Word Count: 105 pgs
Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:Devastated after learning his abuser (and the man he killed in self-defense) was Dr. Devlin Grant’s much beloved brother, Abel feels he can no longer have anything to do with the man because of his secret.

Now locked into his agreement with Horatio Kaplan – and suffering heart break over Devlin – Abel finds no purpose in his life except taking care of Savannah. When Devlin refuses to be put off and insists Abel tell him the truth of why he is suddenly pushing him away, Abel must make the hard decision of whether or not to expose the hideous acts of Devlin’s brother – and shatter the man’s heart.

Warning: This book contains homosexual relations and language not suitable for readers below 17yo.

NOTE: For those coming across the ‘Phoenix Club’ series sporadically, they were written in this order, and if possible, should be read accordingly, due to story lines that run through all the books :

ABEL
CALEB
ANGEL
GABRIEL
MAXWELL

My Review: Abel tries to outrun his demons and finally ends up at home where Cole is waiting for him. Cole is perplexed by the state that his friend is in, he watches helplessly as Abel sobs brokenly. Devlin is left reeling from confusion. He is dejected not knowing how to pick up the pieces or why Abel ran away. This goes on for days without any explanations on what is going on. There is something niggling at Devlin, but he can’t put his finger on what.

When Abel returns to work, Devlin shows up and refuses to leave without an answer. Abel is devastated, because he knows the truth will wreck this sweet man whose declarations of love is so profound. Abel also acknowledges to himself that he is head over heels in love with Devlin. The passion that he feels for Devlin is overwhelming and he can’t resist one more chance at intimacy with his soul mate that he can never claim. However, this changes nothing and Abel closes the door with a finality when he tells Devlin he is no longer welcomed at the club. Abel leaves with his heart in pieces, on his way to commence his arrangement with Kaplan.

Abel is about to taint his soul with yet another man determined to exploit his body. His time with Kaplan isn’t horrible, but the parallels to his past abuse is too real in his mind. Kaplan forces him to open his eyes and be in the moment with him. The hardest part for Abel is when Kaplan arouses  him and pleasures him. For Abel it is just  a sensory reaction, but he feels worse for it because he doesn’t want to enjoy an act that he has no choice but to do.

Abel’s friends Cole and Gabe are very worried about him, but Abel pushes them away. An unusual sort of detachment comes over Abel’s persona, but that’s his way of coping.Cole and Gabe find comfort in each other and continue to navigate the complexities of their own budding relationship. When Devlin overhears Abel paying twenty thousand dollars on his sister’s hospital bill, he knows something is very wrong. Devlin approaches Abel at the club and demands answers. Abel knows the only way to get rid of Devlin and his declarations of love is to give him a part of the truth. He tells Devlin how he played some rich man’s whore. Devlin is shattered as he still doesn’t understand why Abel would rebuff his help to continue on this unsavoury path. Abel thought he would feel a sense of relief, but instead he feels wrecked.

Abel is surprised to see Devlin at his doorstep a few days later. It seems like Devlin just won’t give up, but Abel knows that will all change if he finds out the truth. Cole and Gabe come over and encourage  Abel that its time to lay it all on the table. Abel tells the horrific tale of the abuse he experienced for years at the hands of Devlin’s brother and how he eventually killed him in self defense. Devlin is appalled and disgusted, but most of all he doesn’t believe Abel. He can’t reconcile the upstanding brother he knew to the monster that Abel describes. Although Abel knew what the outcome would be , he is still crushed and defeated when Devlin calls him a whore and storms out. Luckily, Cole and Gabe are there to pick up the pieces of Abel’s fragmented soul. But even that won’t be enough to help him regain what he has lost, his innocence but most of all the love of Devlin Grant. To be continued….. this one was filled with heartache and pain , but such tender moments as well. I give this my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear.