Only With You ( Only Colorado 1) by JD Chambers

Title: Only With You Word Count:248 pgs
Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:“I guess if the worst thing I’m doomed to in life is mediocre sex, my life isn’t too bad.”

Self-starter and business analyst Zach Keller is living his dream life. He spends his days working from home in his favorite Tolkien t-shirts and pajamas while mothering his best friend-slash-roommate. The fact that his sex life is a bust and his love life is nonexistent? Unimportant. After his college boyfriend berated him for his unconventional desires, Zach doesn’t plan on sharing that part of himself ever again, anyway.

“I’m tired of feeling like I missed out on something by not going to college.”

Craig Pela isn’t lonely. He has tons of friends and weekends packed with activity. He hasn’t needed anyone since he left home at eighteen and never looked back. But everyone around him is moving forward in life, while he still works the same retail job at the same video game store, and it’s making him question his life choices. After all, he doesn’t want to be the loser still playing video games at fifty, does he?

As their relationship develops, Zach’s shy nature melts away to reveal an irrepressible geek that charms the pants off Craig. And Craig’s kind patience and ability to match him obscure quote for quote leaves Zach wondering if he’s finally met the man he can be his true self with. After all, how can someone else love you when you keep a part of yourself hidden?

My Review: From the moment Craig lays eyes on the quirky little nerd with curly hair , he is intrigued. When the guy opens his mouth and word vomit comes out ,he is even more endearing. Craig soon finds out that the guy Zach is his coworker Ben’s roommate. Craig is a bit disappointed when he thinks Zach might be nervous, because he has a crush on Ben. Their second meeting doesn’t go very well, when Craig’s smart mouth gets him in trouble for teasing Zach. Craig pleads with Ben to allow him to apologize to Zach by setting up a lunch date for them.

Craig sees a totally different side of Zach with the way he opens up around his best friend Ben. It is now Craig’s mission in life to get Zach to respond to him in that same carefree manner. Especially, when he realizes that Zach may be nervous because of him. Surprisingly, even with all the social awkwardness and overthinking on Zach’s part, they hit it off really well. They end their first date with a hot frottage session, but Zach ends up running off not knowing how to act after the hot sex. Craig is slightly confused , but decides to pursue Zach because he believes there is a connection between them.

They are getting on really well and Craig knows he is starting to have feelings for Zach. Although Craig is seen as this sexy pierced Adonis, he is plagued by his own insecurities. He struggles with the idea that he may not be good enough. Craig feels like he has no prospects since he just works at the video game store and have no college education. Zach also has his own insecurities that he will be rejected for his true self. Zach is a freak in bed, he gets off on being called a slut and being used thoroughly. He fantasize about gangbangs and random strangers using his body while his boyfriend watches. He’s always hid this part of himself, because his last boyfriend was totally disgusted when he found out.

In the heat of passion, Zach uncontrollably lets his freak flag fly high. Craig is so turned on watching his sweet shy boyfriend, turn into such a little slut and he certainly enjoys the ride. The only problem is when he starts processing what Zach wants, he knows he is not interested in an open relationship. When Zach sees that Craig is ignoring him, he is hurt but figures that it was inevitable. Craig is torn by his decision, because he really misses Zach. His friend Mal encourages him to talk it through with Zach.

Zach is surprised when Craig texts him a few days later to meet up. Craig apologizes for being a dick and they talk about the kind of relationship they do want. The way Zach explains it becomes clear that he doesn’t want an open relationship. He just needs to feel wanted and for his boyfriend to be proud to be with him. Craig acknowledges that he is not averse to the idea of Zach living out his fantasy if he is there by his side. Craig gets a thrill at being in control of Zach’s pleasure. He sets up a trip to a gloryhole where he watches his boy’s blissful face as he pleasures a stranger. Craig is on a high hearing the utter satisfaction the man feels at his lover’s mouth. As slutty as Zach acts, Craig also sees a vulnerability in the way he waits to see if he will be rejected. Craig reassures him as they leave and show him how precious he finds him.

They continue to forge their relationship and get to know each other better both in and out of bed. However, there are still facets of Craig’s life and family history that Zach knows nothing about. When Zach is tasked to host an obnoxious ‘baby announcement’ party for his overly pretentious relatives, everything goes to shit. Craig is snubbed by Zach’s mother and father who only tolerates Zach being gay. For the first time , Zach stands up for himself and gives his mother a proper dressing down for her being ungrateful and her ungracious manner in dealing with his boyfriend. As soon as they leave Zach gets a call saying that the mother to be Shelby has been rushed to the hospital where she has a miscarriage. When he turns up, Zach is repudiated for being gay and his family blames his ‘sinful’ sexual orientation as the bad omen that resulted in the miscarriage. Craig and his best friend Ben are left to pick up the pieces as their words shatter Zach’s heart.

Craig feels like his presence has caused this rift with Zach and his family. He takes himself out of the picture, thinking that Zach should find someone who has more of an educational background to match his. On the other hand, Zach believes that his lover has left him, because of his crazy homophobic family and he doesn’t blame him. When Zach sees Craig out on the town with a redhead, he believes he has moved on. Zach runs away with his heart broken in two. Seeing Zach again makes Craig acknowledges how much he missed his sweet shy boyfriend. The redhead Kieran encourages Craig to go after the man he clearly loves. Craig knows it’s going to take some grand gesture for their reconciliation. He forms an elaborate plan and by the end of it truly opens up to Zach about his own family drama. Zach finally sees that all Craig is used to is being rejected by the people he loves. Zach plans to change those negative feelings and shows Craig how treasured he is. Craig now sees what he brings to the table. The fact that he accepts Zach for who he truly is , makes up for all he thinks he lacks.

They are settling as a couple, knowing that their trust and love for each other is their strongest bond.For his birthday, Zach gets an orgasmic treat from Craig. Craig takes the time to set up an orgy where Zach can really indulge in his fantasies. Zach is in heaven taking 4 men including Craig. He knows his loving partner will take care of him and he trusts his choices implicitly. He can finally be the cumslut, he has always dreamed of being. By the time he is done, he is in a blissful stupor. I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.

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No Limits ( No Shame 2) by Nora Phoenix

Title: No Limits                         Word Count: 309 pgs

Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb: This is NOT a stand alone novel. See end of this description for details) Josh is convinced he’ll never find someone who’ll love him the way he is. He’s not exactly a catch with his PTSD, which has transformed him into a homebody most of the times. Sweet, maybe, but also boring as hell. Plus, there’s that submissive tendency he recently discovered and is dying to explore. His complicated relationship with Noah and Indy doesn’t make it easy, either. When Connor shows interest in him, he can’t believe the sexy cop would look at him twice, let alone make an effort to get to know him. When he does, Josh discovers they have more in common than he’d ever thought possible.

Connor had survived the ordeal that left his best friend and fellow Marine dead, but that survival came at a price. He’s a robot, going through the motions, but barely alive. Until fate intervenes when he meets Josh. The vulnerable man triggers all kinds of protective and dominant urges in Connor, but what would a cute guy like Josh want with an inexperienced, closed-off, bossy steamroller like Connor?

When Connor discovers his past endangers Indy, all hope for a future between him and Josh seems lost. After all, there’s no way Josh will ever choose Connor over Indy’s safety and Noah’s lifelong friendship. When a crisis hits, can Connor prove he’s strong enough to deal with everything that’s thrown his way?

No Limits is a steamy M/M romance that ends with a HFN, but has a continuing storyline as well. It’s the second book in the No Shame Series, and IS NOT A STAND ALONE NOVEL, so make sure to read the first book (No Filter) first. It contains hot sex, a little BDSM kink for beginners, more hot sex, and a beautiful friendship that transcends labels. Also: trigger warning for mentions of sexual abuse and sexual violence, including rape.

My Review: Joshua doesn’t think that he will ever lead a normal life. Between his severe PTSD and the sexual trauma he experienced while in the army, he has constant flashbacks. His best friend/ fuck buddy Noah keeps him grounded. Watching Noah in his newfound relationship with his boyfriend Indy causes Josh to yearn for something more. He is not exactly sure what that is, but he knows he feels attracted to the sexy as sin cop O’ Connor.

Connor is confused at the relationship between Noah and Josh. However, it is Noah who has given him the green light to pursue Josh. Connor is in the closet, but he knows he’s never felt the way he does about Josh. When Josh finds out that Connor is interested he is elated, but definitely shocked that such a dominant macho man could be his. Connor has a few sexual hang-ups about his size that has held him back from being with a guy. Josh is only too happy to show him that there is nothing called ‘too big’. Josh likes a little pain with his pleasure, he thrives on rough sex. He is certainly coming to terms and willing to explore his submissive tendencies with the right person.

Things become explosive when they come together for the first time. Josh feels like he has truly found someone he can belong to. He feels safe in the comfort of Connor’s arms. Connor is still a bit perturbed about the dynamics amongst this trio involving Josh, Noah and Indy. When certain secrets are revealed, he admits to feeling left out and a bit jealous that Josh stands with Noah and Indy. Even though their relationship is new , he wonders if he will ever be a number one priority with Josh. Josh needs both Noah and Connor to learn how to be comfortable around each other, because he can’t live without one man or the other.

Josh schedules a fun filled day of paintball for all of them. Noah and Connor set aside their alpha posturing to work together and it pulls them all a bit closer. Their time together is soon ripped asunder when Noah has to be rushed to the hospital for an infection in his stump. Indy panics and vanishes. He can’t face losing Noah, it is clearly a dick move on his part, but understandable given his past. Josh is devastated, but he tries to keep it together since he has the medical power of attorney over Noah. The doctors decide to operate and cut off more of his stump to save Noah’s life.

Connor knows that he has to step up and take care of his man before Josh loses his mind. He takes Josh home and they delve further into the BDSM lifestyle. Connor gives him a spanking which sends Josh into subspace, one of the best releases he has ever had. They profess their love for each other shortly after. Connor makes the decision to get educated in being the proper Dom to his sub Josh. Josh has made up his mind that he already belongs to Connor and he is only too happy to engage in lessons. It is an exhilarating experience watching these men solidify their D/s relationship and learn their limits.

Indy finally shows up and explains to Noah that he needs to sort things out in his head before he could come back. When Noah is released from the hospital, he is happy to see that the dynamics have changed. He sees Connor taking control and realize that for the first time Josh’s needs are being met. Connor proves his love for Josh by providing a solution for their living situation that will work for all of them. They decide to buy a bigger ranch style home where each couple can have privacy while still maintaining their closeness. Finally , Indy comes back after taking care of some issues that would hurt his little family. I really enjoyed watching these two couples come into their own. The unhealthy sexually codependent relationship between Josh and Noah is broken. Now their respective relationships will have a fair chance of flourishing with some mutual exhibitionism and voyeurism on both couples part. I give this my ratings of 5- bring out the vibrators.

Men in the Shadows 4: The Porn Star by Rain Carrington

Title : The Porn Star              Word Count : 382 pgs
Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : Sammy is looking for the man who could make him feel the way Neil had, and finding it impossible. A secret admirer starts to leave him roses and notes, stalking him. Sammy is intrigued, but with college, his job at his father’s garage and his new tutoring gig, he doesn’t have a lot of time to guess who it could be. Secretly, though, he hopes that it is Neil, who he couldn’t stop wanting.
He finds out and soon begins to explore his kink, to be watched. A video is uploaded to a website and attracts the attention of a porn producer. IS this Sammy’s big break, or will it end in heartbreak?
The student Sammy starts to tutor is a rich and difficult man named Andrew. Andrew disregards and berates anyone who crosses him, including the new personal assistant his father hired to “babysit” him.
Tom is a former Marine with a secret agenda, keeping him in the job with the privileged man he doesn’t know if he’d rather slap or kiss. Once Andrew’s parents announce their impending divorce, Andrew goes off the rails, only to find Tom there to catch him.
Through the last two years, Malcolm and Kirk have lived and loved, but when Sammy asks Malcolm to keep a secret from his big lover and his biker brothers, including Road Dog, Sammy’s father, Malcolm agrees, only to be found out and losing everyone who mattered the most to him. Can he and Kirk find their way back to one another, possibly with the help of the big Marine they met through Sammy?
Secrets, intrigue, murder and unspeakable acts abound in this final installment of the series. Three couples unite and are put to the test by family, friends and new jobs. Can three men come out stronger or end up another casually of their Men in the Shadows?

My Review : This book really showed how to bring the two halves of our ‘selves’ together and how to reconcile the disparity between the two. First of all, we meet Sammy who is a sweet young man who seems to be lost. Sammy has been hurt by a former lover and has decided to cure his pain by sleeping around. This helps him for a time, but lately he has realized that these encounters are leaving him unfulfilled. When Sammy starts getting notes from a secret admirer, he has to admit that he is somewhat intrigued. He tells his best friend Malcolm who seems to be worried for Sammy. He suggests that it could be the work of Sammy’s former lover Neil. Sammy agrees with Mal, but even though he still feels hurt over Neil’s betrayal, deep down he hopes the notes are from him. Sammy goes through his everday life as usual, going to college, working at his father’s garage and doing some tutoring to a spoiled brat named Andrew.
Things come to a head when Neil reveals himself as Sammy’s secret admirer. Sammy’s immediate reaction is to walk away from Neil as he knows no good can come from it. Neil persuades him and begs him for a chance to apologize. Neil is sorry for the way he betrayed Sammy. He knows that he messed up before and got Sammy’s friend Malcolm hurt, but he was also the one who helped find Malcolm when he was kidnapped. Sammy wants to forgive Neil and he realizes that he is still very much in love with him. He is in a quandary, because he knows that his family would definitely not appreciate him getting back together with Neil. Sammy’s father Road Dog, belongs to a biker gang, and he has forbidden his son to ever speak to Neil again after all the problems he caused the family .
Against his better judgement, Sammy decides to give Neil another chance and take things slowly . Neil is ecstatic that he gets to be with his sweet Sammy again. They agree to keep their relationship a secret for the time being. Things are going great with them and within no time they have totally reconnected. Neil is the only man that has been able to bring out Sammy’s kinky side, he is a bit of an exhibitionist. Neil caters to Sammy’s exhibitionism by filming their passionate lovemaking and uploading it to a porn site with Sammy’s approval. Sammy is beyond excited to see the thousands of views that their video has gotten. This sparks a flame within Sammy which can no longer be tamed.
In the meantime, another relationship is being formed between Sammy’s spoiled brat student Andrew and his live in bodyguard Tom. Andrew comes from a family of wealth and he is rude and disrespectful to everyone. He is over priveledged and his father has paid his way through life. He is failing his classes and Sammy realises that the true problem lays in the fact that he can’t read. Andrew goes through life ,covering his failings by being rude and not letting anyone get close to him. He pushes everyone to their breaking point, so that they will eventually leave him. This did not work with Tom, who he thoroughly pissed off with his attitude. Tom is a former marine and a Dom and he is absolutely fed up with Andrew’s disrespect. He is outraged and resorts to his natural inclination to discipline. It isn’t until he starts spanking Andrew and hears him screaming and sees the tears roll down his face , that he realize he does not have the right to discipline him. He starts to apologize, but he sees something in Andrew’s eyes and demeanor that appeals to him. Andrew thrives on punishment and their is a sparkle in his eyes that was never there before. Tom decides to hone Andrew’s submissive nature and turn him into the perfect slave . Tom wants to be his master so bad and soon sees the reality coming through.

It was truly an awakening for both of them to see the rich snobbish attitude taken over by the true mindset of what it means to be a perfect slave to his master. Andrew knows that his true purpose in life is to service Tom in all aspects of his life. Tom initiates Andrew to the life of a slave surrounded by like minded friends. Andrew endures a lot of pain with all the devices used by master Tom and his mentor, but he relishes it and receives pleasure as well. Andrew’s lessons in submission is definitely not for the feint of heart. Tom is a hardcore Dom and there is a lot of pain play , hot wax play amongst other things that I couldn’t fathom. However , the one thing that resonates with me is the open love that these two men experienced once both of their dreams are fulfilled.
Sammy’s feelings for Neil are becoming overpowering and he feels he can no longer hide his relationship from his family. To say his father was upset is a true understatement. Road Dog walks away without speaking to his son. His confession also opens a can of worms when it is revealed that Malcolm kept his secrets. Malcolm’s husband Kirk who is a member of the same biker gang as Road Dog believes that keeping secrets from his biker brothers is a true breach of trust. This causes a rift in their marriage and Malcolm walks out on Kirk. I was really sad to see this as they are my favorite characters.
They have been through a lot and they are really a solid couple.
They all have to pull together when trouble comes in the form of Andrew’s rich daddy. He is the head of a pharmaceutical company that developed a drug that can ‘cure the gay away’. Finding out that his son is gay would definitely cast a shadow on his wonder drug causing him to lose money, so he decides to have his son killed. This is where Malcolm comes up with the brilliant idea that the members of the biker gang could protect Andrew for a fee. It was very interesting to see the different kinds of friendships that were formed amongst these three couples. They all faced the dangerous ordeals with the support of their friends. They endured and came out victorious as three devoted couples. Tom was able to find his perfect slave in Andrew. Neil was able to cater to Sammy’s kinky side and this allowed Sammy to appreciate the man he knows and loves. Kirk was able to reaffirm the strength of the bond that he has with Malcolm.I give this my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear.

Jock Auction by Alex Pendragon

Title :  Jock Auction               Word Count : 87,359

Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : Sexy high-school footballer Kyle has two big blind-spots: first, he assumes he’s straight, and second, he doesn’t know quite how much his shy, geeky classmate Craig lusts after him. When the two are thrown together after a charity slave auction, however, how incredible the sex is turns out to be hard to miss. Problem is, Kyle’s awakened sexuality is on a collision course with his hot teammates, and not everyone in his conservative Midwestern town is quite so open-minded.

When Kyle unexpectedly gets up close and personal with another closeted jock, and realizes in the process that there’s more than just teenage hormones between himself and Craig, he’s faced with a choice: walk away, or fight for what until now he didn’t know he wanted. Meanwhile, Craig is learning that there’s more to his appetite for athletic guys than playing the meek submissive, and Kyle’s mea-culpa arrives right on time for him to explore some of the kinks he never knew he had.

Hard bodies meet even harder truths as two very different guys discover that, while you can buy someone’s time, you still have to win their heart.

My Review :  How far would you go for charity?  Kyle has just been bought in the Jock Auction for a worthy  cause. The only difference with him and his buddies is that they were bought by cheerleaders while he gets picked by the shy geeky gay guy Craig.  Kyle shows up at Craig’s house in old jeans expecting to do some cleaning. When he gets there, Craig takes him to his room where he immediately lands a scorching kiss on the unsuspecting Kyle. Kyle is stupefied before he pushes Craig away in anger. Craig is devastated and crumpled to the floor in tears, trying to protect himself from the beating he expects from a straight jock. Seeing his fear, Kyle pushes down his anger and let Craig know that he doesn’t swing that way and he won’t hurt him.

Craig apologizes and bares his soul to Kyle telling him how drawn he is to him. He has had a crush on him for a long time and he just wanted to get to know Kyle a little bit before they graduated. Kyle is flabbergasted and extremely flattered that someone male or female would go to such great lengths to be with him. There is something about Craig that makes Kyle want to comfort him and put a smile on his face. What starts out as a joke turns into an inferno. Kyle starts an impromptu lap dance to tease Craig.  Oh what a tease!! He teases Craig and himself into a rip roaring erection. One thing leads to another and before he knows it he is getting the ultimate blowjob from Craig.  He is definitely not passive either, he is reciprocating with a hand job for Craig. A part of Kyle revels on letting loose and engaging in this illicit foray with Craig. They both plan to make the most of the situation,  as it might be their one and only time together. 

As much as he would like to stay away, Kyle realized that there is something so primal that being with a man brings out in him. Craig is definitely not offended by Kyle’s rough treatment. He is exhilarated by their baser instincts coming to the fore. They have great chemistry together and they are so not afraid to push the boundaries into a bit of rough sex. Kyle becomes experimental and goes for broke by delivering a killer blowjob and delving into the world of anal sex. They get down and dirty and the aggression pouring off Kyle in waves totally escalates  Craig’s libido to the breaking point .  They have a whole lot of dirty fun.

Kyle’s attraction to Craig opens up his exploratory spirit and leads to certain revelations about himself. He gains an unlikely friend and ally in one of his teammates,  a big black guy. Louis makes it somehow easier to talk about his conflicted feelings and help him to put things in perspective. Louis has inside knowledge of the turmoil he is going through after witnessing his gay older brother go through the same. Things really heat up when Louis comes over to Kyle’s house to talk, bringing backup in the form of his older brother Ty. It soon becomes obvious that there is an underlying tension between the two brothers. It seems Ty has been trying to get his brother to admit his true nature.  He has an inkling that Louis is not as straight as he adamantly professes. Ty takes charge by making out with Kyle , revving  up Louis’ curiosity and jealousy . Its very hard for any red blooded male to resist their erotic play. Soon Louis takes over and Kyle is initiated in the receiving end of anal sex while the voyeuristic Ty watched.

Kyle’s conscience kicks in shortly after his tryst with Louis and he starts to worry about Craig finding out. He feels guilty and he  goes over the situation in his mind over and over since he has been hooking up with Craig exclusively for a few weeks. Kyle feels emotionally wrecked with all these thoughts floating in his mind. He works out his conflicted feelings on Craig by punishing him with his body. It is very intense and the truth comes out in the heat of the moment. Needless to say Craig is heartbroken and even though they hadn’t defined their relationship,  he feels betrayed. Kyle goes home feeling devastated,  realizing that he might have messed up his chance before it even began.

Kyle can’t stop thinking about Craig. When an egotistical jerk on the team constantly bullies Craig, it  makes Kyle want to come out and stand up proudly and protect his boyfriend. Kyle ends up at the nurse after an altercation with the bully. Although he has been choked, he feels great because the little incident showed him that he still had the support of his team and not everyone would hold his sexuality against him. His teammate Jake really made him feel comfortable. When Kyle’s parents have an unfavorable reaction to him being gay, Kyle opts to stay at Jakes house.

Kyle is upset by his parents reactions and Jake’s twin Jackson gives him a shoulder on which to cry. Jackson talks about his own experiences being gay and he is really supportive of Kyle. He suggests that Kyle invite over Craig. The camaraderie amongst the four boys is great and it just goes to show that not all jocks are close-minded.

I truly liked the feel of this book, not too angsty, really funny, very erotic and I loved the Jock falling for the geek. This was definitely a voyeuristic delight with Kyle and Craig being caught with their pants down on more than one occasion. This book gave me all that I wanted and then some. It really pushed all my hot buttons. I give this my ratings of 5 – bring out the vibrators. 

Favorite Quotes : 1. Tighter,” I told him, and felt him clench down on me. Slowly, holding his pelvis steady, I pulled back and dragged my dick out of his body. His hole gaped for a brief moment, then closed again until I pushed myself back through. He moaned then as I worked his ring over some, pulling myself free and then popping the broad head of my glans inside again, over and over. “Give me your arms,” I told him, and he did, folding them across his back. I pinned his wrists together against his spine, pushed down so that Craig’s torso dipped more, tilting his ass farther up and letting me drop my weight down onto it. Then my dick was buried in him again, and I was fucking him, hard, unrelenting—slamming my dick home as I trapped him underneath me. (Everyone loves a little bit of rough sex. Craig brought out Kyle’s dominant side.)

2. “Look at you,” I growled in his ear, lips close, nose buried in his sweat-damp hair. “Down on the floor like a fucking dog in heat, desperate to get filled.” He looked back at me with an expression of mixed lust and frustration, eyes trying to focus on my face. “Would it have mattered if it was me that came in through the door, you dirty little whore?” Craig glared at me. “You’d have just let anybody breed your little hole.” (Hot, hot, hot, love role-playing and dirty talk. … the fantasy of the unknown, a little stranger danger ☺.)

3. Then it was farther up, and I was licking his taint, the swollen saddle of flesh behind his nuts. I realized he was still going, and the taste on my tongue was myself. I tried to sit up, to twist my head, but he gripped me with thighs on either side of my face and, tilting his pelvis, ground his hole on it. I looked up at him, staring past his dick, as he bucked and writhed on me. I should’ve been disgusted, but I knew I was hard again, and that—straight or whatever, labels be damned—I was going to end up buried in this as far as my fledgling lusts would ask of me. The next time he bore down, I stuck out my tongue, letting it rasp across his glistening flesh. He purred with pleasure and rocked himself again on me, fucking his hole with the roughness of my mouth. I could smell his musk, the hot tang of sweat, and my own juice as it oozed out of him and across my face. Craig’s hands were gripping my head now, holding me still so that he could grind his ass onto my tongue, his balls tight and nudging against my nose, his breaths coming in short, staccato pants.( The best kinds of sex is messy, the messier the better 😉. This is truly raw and primal.)

4. He tensed on me. I felt his ass clench as he came across my nose, my eyes, my forehead. Long, heavy slaps of cum that slowly dripped down my cheeks. The feel of it, landing wetly, drove me to my own climax, a smaller puddle but no less satisfying. Craig slid his body down mine, brought our lips together, and kissed me, our faces sliding from the shared juices. ( Very erotic,  there is something so exhilarating to be marked by your lover.)

Gemini by Clancy Nacht & Thursday Euclid

Title :  Gemini                          Word Count : 67,865

Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : Cass Manning is a serial monogamist, grad student, and identical twin to Paul, a drug-addicted prostitute. Fleeing his unfaithful boyfriend, Cass returns to Houston after years away only to be drawn into danger before he’s out of the airport.

When Paul dies under suspicious circumstances, Cass must rely on one of Paul’s clients, Kilo, a mercenary willing to protect Cass in exchange for sex. Together they have a chance to bring justice to the corrupt heart of Texas’s political power structure, but Kilo’s mysterious past may tear him from Cass when he needs him most. Even if they outlive their untouchable adversaries, how does a polite academic find lasting love with a soldier of fortune?

My Review : Kilo the mercenary and Cass the scholar met at a very turbulent time in Cass’s life. Cass runs away from England after finding his boyfriend having sex with his female best friend.  After he steps off the plane, Cass is accosted in the airport’s washroom  by someone who calls him by his twin’s name. Cass runs off to warn his brother about the incident. What he is faced with when he sees his twin brother is a washed up mirror image of himself. His twin brother Paul is a belligerent junkie prostitute who seems to have an axe to grind with Cass. Feeling nostalgic and very lonely, Cass reaches out to Paul trying to reclaim the closeness that they once had in utero. Paul is very messed up and seems to be embroiled in some life threatening drama. 

Paul seems frightened and  calls the only person he knows who can  protect him, Kilo. Kilo is one of his clients who is also a hired mercenary. Paul decides he needs a hit of heroin before he can explain the situation to Cass. It is very unfortunate that as soon as the heroin reaches his veins, he starts having convulsions and dies in his brother’s arms. Cass is paralyzed with fear until he hears a banging on the front door.  Before he can get to it, the door opens and their stands this sexy dangerous stranger who is none other than Kilo. 

Kilo scoops Cass up in his arms and before he can grasp what is happening,  they are in a liplock so scorching, all he can do is feel. Kilo sets Cass’s blood on fire and he doesn’t try very hard to resist. He is at the lowest point in his life after so much loss and he really needs the passion to make him feel alive again. Kilo is rough and crude and treats him like the experienced prostitute that he thinks he’s dealing with. It’s exactly what Cass needs, something different that he’s never had before, a walk on the wild side.

They enter in a bargain where the use of Cass’s body offers him Kilo’s protection. It soon turns into more when they embark on dangerous missions to find out the truth about Paul’s death and to maintain Cass’s safety. Coming together for them is a meeting of two lonely, desperate souls. Cass pushes and prods until he sparks certain emotions in Kilo that has long been buried.

Cass and Kilo have a symbiotic relationship where they affirm their need body and soul for each other. The plot thickens and they realize they might be in over their head. The truth leads them to government corruption and ghosts from Kilo’s past collides with the nightmare within which Cass is embroiled. There are life threatening scenarios where Cass has to be the aggressor and do unspeakable things to protect the new love of his life. Cass knows that Kilo is well worth it. A new identity is reborned for Kilo where he can embrace the pure , innocent, intoxicating love that Cass has bestowed upon him. This was a well written,  intriguing storyline that had me on  the edge all the way to the end. The chemistry between Kilo and Cass was extremely volatile and explosive. I give this my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear. 

Favorite Quotes : 1. His straining legs trembled in the confined space, and his lungs burned for oxygen. He shuddered and tapped Kilo’s side frantically. Kilo kept sucking, lips moving swift and determined along Cass’s shaft as he pulled his cock from Cass’s mouth. One of Kilo’s legs shifted, knee pinning Cass’s chest. He took Cass deep into his throat, sucking like his life depended on it. Cass hit him again, one last warning, but he couldn’t hold back. He filled Kilo’s mouth, hips jerking helplessly as Kilo’s fingers milked Cass from the inside to force out every drop in Cass’s body. Kilo’s guttural moan as he swallowed was almost as satisfying as release itself. (We don’t always know what we can handle sexually,  until the right person comes along and pushes our boundaries.  I would definitely let Kilo push my boundaries. I’m a sucker for bad boys 😉.)

2.A moment later, Kilo’s entire frame convulsed above Cass. His meaty cock twitched in Cass’s hand, pulsing as semen shot from its tip. Cass shut his eyes as he had in the alley and aimed Kilo’s cock to spend all over his face. Rain dripped down his cheeks and chin, and he basked in the warmth as it dribbled over his lips and down his neck. Cass tried to control his breathing, but he couldn’t still his trembling and twitching. Once the bliss faded and he began to recover, Kilo turned and kissed away his cum, cleaning Cass’s skin tenderly. Only then did Cass open his eyes and process what they’d done.( Sex can get messy, the messier the better 😉.)

3. When Kilo turned Cass around, he could process only the chill of his neglected erection. Then Kilo pried his cheeks apart and gently nibbled Cass’s opening. It felt experimental at first—quick, darting flicks of tongue and soft little kisses. Then Kilo shoved his entire face hard against Cass’s ass and forced him open with his tongue. Cass grabbed the sink for balance and spread his legs, giving Kilo room to move. No one had ever done this to Cass; he’d never even asked. Bliss overwhelmed his embarrassment. (Kilo opens up a new world of sexual delights for the sweet innocent Cass.)

4. Cass spit on his fingers and reached behind him. He brought up one leg and eased a finger inside, biting his lip as he tried to relax. The position was awkward and he was sore, but Kilo’s lusty gaze motivated him. Cass added another finger, closing his eyes as he eased onto it…… Kilo spread Cass’s cheeks and worked his tongue around Cass’s fingers. It felt dirty, but Kilo treated instincts as pure, natural instead of wrong. When Cass was with him, it was hard to remember why he’d ever thought otherwise. (Cass has become enlightened and is now embracing his sexual side with great pleasure.)

Collars & Cuffs 3: Someone to Keep Me by K. C. Wells and Parker Williams

Title : Someone to Keep Me          Word Count :83,608

Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : Eighteen-year-old Scott Keating knows a whole world exists beyond his parents’ strict control, but until he gains access to the World Wide Web, he really has no idea what’s out there. In a chat room, Scott meets “JeffUK.” Jeff loves and understands him, and when he offers to bring Scott to the UK, Scott seizes his chance to escape his humdrum life and see the world. But when his plane touches down and Jeff isn’t there, panic sets in.

Collars & Cuffs favorite barman and Dom-in-training, Ben Winters, drops his sister off at the airport and finds a lost, anxious Scott. Hearing Scott’s story sets off alarm bells, along with his protective instincts. Taking pity on the naïve boy, Ben offers him a place to crash and invites him to Collars & Cuffs, hoping his bosses will know how to help. Scott dreams of belonging to someone, heart and soul. Ben longs for a sub of his own. And neither man sees what’s right under his nose.

My Review : Scott is a lonely teenager who is constantly put down by his parents. They look at him as a disappointment and deny his sexuality.  Scott feels so alone and cut off from the world, he meets Jeff online and he fills a void in Scott’s life for companionship.  Scott is easily susceptible to Jeff ‘s charms and quickly falls head over heels for him.  Shortly after , Jeff sends Scott a plane ticket to come live with him in Manchester.  Scott is a little naive, gullible and desperate enough to accept this offer of ‘freedom’. 

When Scott arrives at the airport on the other side of the pond, he waits anxiously for Jeff for a few hours. Pretty soon it becomes clear that Jeff has stood up Scott. A handsome passersby Ben sees the lost look on Scott’s face. He intervenes and all his protective instincts are brought out by Scott. Ben takes Scott to a hotel room after speaking on the phone with his boss Leo who has charged the room in his name. They are able to give Scott a peaceful night’s rest. The next day they go to the BDSM club Collars & Cuffs where Ben is a bartender. Ben’s two bosses Leo and Thomas try to help Scott out of his current situation which they suspect might have been orchestrated by an Internet predator.

They all come to the decision to place Scott with Ben for the time being until they can figure out other living arrangements.  There is  only one problem, Ben is not as affluent as Leo and Thomas, and he is too proud to accept financial help from them. This is an issue from the very beginning and poses a problem for Scott’s and Ben’s relationship.  It is clear to see that Scott is submissive and he longs to be owned by a master who can take care of him.

 Scott takes care of Ben by taking care of his home and cooking delicious vegetarian meals.  When Scott is introduced to the other subs Alex and Peter,  he immediately forms a bond with them. He is intrigued by the relationship that they have with their Doms Leo and Thomas. Scott becomes really interested in the lifestyle and his interest is piqued.  His interest skyrockets when he stumbles upon some homemade sex tapes of Ben dominating a young man in a harness. Ben’s dirty talk about fucking his sub in public really turns him on. Scott realizes that he wants Ben to be his Dom. He petitions Leo to help in finding him a Dom. 

Ben is interested but he keeps waffling with indecision, due to all his other financial burdens. He knows that as much as he wants Scott, he doesn’t feel it’s fair if he can’t take care of  all his ‘ boy’s’  financial needs. Although he is constantly shown the error of his ways when he allows his boy to slip through his fingers twice, Ben remains too stubborn and proud to take Leo’s money.

Scott is happy for a time and gifts his virginity publicly to his master Ben on his birthday. They are extremely happy after leaving their scene of public exhibition.  However,  that bliss is torn to shreds when Ben gets run over by a drunk driver.  Scott is beside himself with grief and he is desperately hopes that Ben will pull through unscathed. Ben pulls through but his legs are broken and he is bruised. This results in him taking time off of work, and seeing as how he doesn’t have any disposable income, this pushes him to the decision to give Scott up yet again. 

Poor Scott is constantly left broken hearted by Ben , and his love for his master never wavers. As much as I like Ben  I think he is way too fickle snd buckles under financial pressure. Ben needs to learn a sense of family that is provided by Leo and Thomas at the club and he needs to learn how to accept help graciously.  Ben was a little bit too rigid in his pride to the detriment of Scott’s feelings of self worth. Overall , I really enjoyed this and I look forward to reading the next in the series. I give this my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear. 

Mission: X by Kim Alan

Title: Mission: X      Word Count:19,230               Genre: Gay Romance, BDSM

Blurb: Xander like things simple. He tried to keep up with the big boys, and failed disastrously. Now, he’s sworn off the bad boys he’s always been drawn to so irresistibly. But he’s finally forced to admit that his determination to play it safe has resulted in nothing but a string of bad (read: boring) dates.Luckily, his friend Lara knows what he really needs. Losing to her strategically played bet sees Xander stepping into a whole new world.

Paul is on a mission: Make Xander his. After months spent quietly falling for him from a distance, Paul is a more than willing pawn in Lara’s hands. He’ll pull out all the stops — sexy kilt and all — to introduce Xander to the beauty of submission at a loving Dom’s feet. But even if the sting of deceit is deemed forgivable, Xander can’t imagine what a sexy powerhouse like Paul wants with a quiet, unassuming boy like Xander.

Contains BDSM themes: mild D/s, mild bondage, exhibitionism

This story was originally published as part of the Goodreads M/M Romance Group’s ‘Love Has No Boundaries’ event.

 My Review: In the second book we are reintroduced to Dom Paul who administered Wren’s punishment in book 1. Paul is the epitome of what it means to be a great Dom. He is uber sexy in his kilt and i wouldn’t mind getting  a spanking from him. Sign me up for 50 lashes;). I loved how persistent he was in order to get the attention of the skittish Xander. X was trying to overcome his fear after being gay bashed a year earlier.He was saved by his best friend’s boss Dom Paul. After numerous attempts of trying to hook up X with Paul, his best friend came up with an elaborate plan to finally get both X and Dom Paul to hook up at Paul’s club. X didn’t want to be hooked up with Paul because he was embarrassed at Paul witnessing what he considers to be the lowest point of his life after being bashed. I really liked seeing X open up and trust Paul. That level of vulnerability and ultimate trust with another person is touching. Of course my favorite character Wren was there to help X, by showing him how he submitted to his ‘Daddy’ Charlie. I loved it. I would definitely give this one my ratings of 4- you’ll be losing the underwear for this short read.