Resilient Love: Unquiet by Melanie Hansen

​Title : Unquiet                         Word Count: 103,129

Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance
Blurb: Loren Smith has been in love with Eliot Devlin almost his entire life. During their turbulent childhood and teen years, Loren didn’t always understand Eliot, and sometimes he could be a challenge, but Eliot was the only one to ever truly ease Loren’s deep loneliness and accept him. When Eliot’s increasingly erratic and self-destructive behavior culminates in a suicide attempt at seventeen, Loren is devastated.

Upon meeting again by chance nine years later, Loren is enjoying a successful career as a police officer while Eliot’s life has been a constant struggle for stability. In and out of mental hospitals, with a rap sheet a mile long, he continues to be buffeted by the twin storms of mania and depression. Loren’s love and protectiveness for Eliot are deeply ingrained in him, however, and their feelings for each other are quickly rekindled.

Loren has issues of his own he’s dealing with, and trying to understand and cope with Eliot’s bipolar disorder isn’t easy. They believe they’re meant to be, and Eliot brings a fulfillment to Loren’s life that no one else will ever match. But as they both come to realize, love by itself can’t cure all.
My Review: This is one of the most heartbreaking romances I’ve read in a long time. It was my first from this author and it definitely will not be my last. It was very well written and quite informative about a very sensitive subject, Mental Illness. From the very first moment Loren and Eliot meets at the age of 6, they’ve been inseparable.  According to Loren, Eliot is the one that took away his loneliness. Loren was a bit of a loner when he was a kid since he was chubby. Eliot always seemed very hyper always jumping from one subject to the next. They were both latch key kids and they often spent their time at each others house. Eliot was always there to support Loren as they were growing up. Loren was always there to hold Eliot and listen to him even when he acted weird. 

It was during their teenage years that they both became more than friends as they came out to each other. They professed their love for each other and talked about  their futures together. Throughout this all, Loren noticed that Eliot was acting more and more strange day by day. He suggested that Eliot get some help when he realized how depressed he was getting. Before he knew it Eliot seemed to be back to his normal self. 

One day at school Loren goes looking for Eliot and finds him on his knees pleasuring one of the football jocks. Loren is devastated and confronts Eliot with his accusations.  When Eliot tries to brush it off  Loren gets really upset and says some really hurtful things to Eliot and walks away. If isn’t until the next day that Loren finds out that Eliot attempted suicide and failed. After this their lives move in different directions without them speaking again.

It isn’t until 9 yrs later that Loren and Eliot meet up again. Loren is now an  undercover cop meeting an informant in a gay strip club when he sees ‘Angel’  dancing on stage and recognized him as none other than Eliot. Eliot doesn’t even seem to know who he is after giving him a lap dance. Loren is horrified to see Eliot in this way and decides to use his resources to get in touch with Eliot’s mother to get some answers.  The answers are definitely not what Loren expects. Eliot has since been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder 1 where he goes between manic episodes and depression. Eliot’s mom Rebecca has all but given up on him, she  is all burnt out and doesn’t know how to help him anymore. Eliot drinks way too much and does drugs in order to keep the demons away, but it’s obviously not working. Loren feels so much guilt and wants to try to help the boy he once loved.

When Loren knocks on Eliot’s door for the first time after so much time has passed, Eliot thinks he is in a dream.  They come together like they’ve never been apart.  Loren asks Eliot to date him, but he soon realizes that El is even more sick than he was before. It isn’t long before he truly sees what El looks like during a manic episode and it’s definitely not pretty. El is almost thrown in jail and has racked up quite a few charges. They are able to get him into a mental institution after his mother pays a hefty fee. Loren stands by El supporting him the whole way and El gets a little more stable and does his 3 mths. stint successfully.  

El and Loren realize that sticking to a regimen will definitely aid in El’s recovery. El tries to stay on the straight and narrow path and he does well , but it’s not long before he becomes manic again. All of his worries over Loren’s dangerous job as a cop culminates into him having a severe break with reality. This time his manic episodes affect Loren’s professional life when  El outs him at work and causes him embarrassment. This takes a little bit longer to get  over for Loren but  he finally acknowledges in the end that he has to change his thought process about El’s illness. Loren comes to the realization that El’s illness can’t fit into the expectations and dreams that he always had for his future.  He decides to change his dreams to be all encompassing by taking joy from Eliot being a part of his life. This was definitely not the last time that Eliot would hurt Loren.

Three years into their future, El once again tries to  commit suicide and almost succeeds. Loren becomes very bitter and it almost cost them their relationship,  but somehow they persevered. I can only imagine how exhausting it must be to love someone with a mental illness, but what comes through in Loren and Eliot’s journey is unconditional love.  I really enjoyed these characters despite all the adversities that they will face, most of which will be beyond their control. They make me want to believe in a love that is resilient,  one that will stand against the tests of time. I give this my ratings of 4- the sexual chemistry was definitely amazing between these two, but I fell in love with them because of their all encompassing resilient love story. 

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Guns N’ Boys 5: Chokehold  by K. A. Merikan

​Title: Guns N’ Boys 5: Chokehold       Word Count:336 pgs

Genre: Dark Gay Romance

Blurb:The ugliest truths blossom into the prettiest lies. —

A year into the relationship with Domenico, Seth still wants him as desperately as ever. Nothing is better than being intoxicated with lust for his deadly man and feeling his steady hands all over. 

No matter the misunderstandings, the fights… The crash. The burn. 

Crossing the Mexican border has been a goal for Seth and Domenico for a few months, but the trip couldn’t have ended in more of a disaster. While Domenico is stuck at home, for Seth each passing day becomes more difficult. Desperate to keep his family afloat, he accepts a job offer from Los Sepultureros. The Gravediggers. 

When Domenico’s need for control starts eroding their trust, Seth is sure their love can conquer all. But when Domenico rips open the wound left after the violence at the beginning of their relationship, it gushes blood all over their cozy lies and this time, there may be no way to seal it. 

POSSIBLE SPOILERS: 

Themes: mafia, cartel, assassin, organized crime, trust issues, religion, love 

Genre: Dark, twisted romance / crime thriller 

Erotic content: Explicit scenes 

Length: ~110,000 words 

WARNING: Adult content. If you are easily offended, this book is not for you. 

‘Guns n’ Boys’ is a gritty story of extreme violence, offensive language, abuse, and morally ambiguous protagonists. Behind the morbid facade, there is a splash of inappropriate dark humor, and a love story that will crawl under your skin.
My Review :  It is always great to get in the lives of Seth and Domenico and see what they are up to. When we catch up with these two lovers, they are still on the run from their mafia family. Dom is waiting for his connections to set up things so they can have safe passage to Mexico.   The chemistry between these two virile men is oh so hot and nothing really changes now that they are faux- parents. Dom continues to show is softer, more caring side by adding someone new to their little family. Mark is a teenager who has had a rough start in life. They rescued him from their jaunt in Louisana and it’s Dom’s aim to turn Mark into a great man.

Dom’s connections are finally granted and they are led to the sewers where they escape to Mexico. There is a fissure of fear when Domenico realizes that they will be locked in from the American  side of the tunnel and have to make their way  in the dark. An unexpected trap is set for them, but Dom being the former hit man is ready for mostly anything. He kills the three men who were about to hurt his family but not before a grenade is detonated. A part of the ceiling caves in which causes Dom to be hurt. Seth is panicked but he knows he has to find a way to get Dom and Mark to safety. Seth as usual steps up to the plate and gets Dom to a hospital. They are in an unknown territory with hardly any money . Luckily, Mark knows a little Spanish and finds them a place to stay with an old lady in the little rundown town.

Seth being the only able-bodied provider of their family tries to find work.His insecurities rise up when he feels utterly clueless after  his futile search. He stumbles on a bar and realized that he might be in trouble when he meets the owner Miguel. Seth plays the clueless tourist and Miguel gives him a job working close to the tunnel that caved in on them. It’s his hope that he can recover Dom’s suitcase filled with all their money and get them out of the mess they are in.

Dom hates being laid up and feels very neglected when Seth goes to work. He feels guilty for not being able to provide for his family and not being able to pamper the man he loves. We see a different side of Dom when he gets in touch with his Catholic religion.  His close brush with death leaves him thinking what would have happened to their love if they had died in that tunnel. Dom thinks that they would have been torn apart to forever be alone in the afterlife since they are not married. He tries to push for them to get married but Seth rejects him on the basis of him being still married in his former life. Seth argues that he would rather not be a bigamist since he believes that his former wife is still alive. 

Domenico is on the mend  and he acquires some money for them from his old acquaintance Santo. He becomes aware that Seth might be hiding something from him , but he is not sure if it’s just his insecurity talking. Dom doesn’t realize that Seth has become embroiled in a very dangerous situation at his ‘job’ working for Miguel who seems to be a cartel boss.They have a big fight when Seth refuses to quit his job. This deteriorates into a shouting match where Dom says some really hurtful things to Seth making him feel inadequate.Dom does irreparable damage to their beautiful relationship  when he cuffs Seth to their bed to keep him from going to work for his dangerous boss.As usual , Dom’s heart is in the right place but his methods are way off base. It doesn’t take long for Dom to acknowledge the error of his ways and he understands that maybe he has pushed Seth too far. Seth is humiliated , furious and feels utterly betrayed by the man he thought he loved above all else. Seth throws back Dom’s signet ring , the main object of their commitment to each other.

They are each devastated and wrecked in their own way, but they have vipers surrounding them that they have to deal with first. They have to work together to protect each other , but there is a great divide and disconnect that was never there before. This goes on for weeks and the distance seems greater day by day. Dom reforms some connections with Santo and try to set things in motion for their uncertain future. Also, things are revealed to them when they find out that Seth’s ‘wife’ Lucrezia is actually married to Santo after getting an annulment. This is one less thing hanging over their head. However, it’s hard to rejoice in this news when their own relationship is in shambles.No matter how hard they try , they can’t seem to get beyond  their fight this time.  The truth finally comes out when Dom discerns that Seth’s anger is steeped in memories of fear when Domenico onced raped him at the beginning of their relationship . Their dirty laundry is aired in front of Mark who unbeknownst to them has been secretly learning Italian. Seth is extremely ashamed and Dom sees how his past actions will haunt him forever. The one thing he regrets the most is the one thing he cannot fix in their relationship. 

Seth recognizes that the  only way to move forward with their relationship is to leave the past where it belongs. It is a step in the right direction and it goes a long way in repairing the rift between these volatile men. Dom appears very vulnerable during this time and it’s that vulnerability that gets through to Seth. After facing  some more dangerous situations together in Mexico, they start moving in sync once again. Finally , Seth asks Domenico to marry him and Dom is only too happy to accept. It’s definitely what he wants to feel more complete and secure in their relationship. I really enjoyed this new addition to the series. It is best to read from book 1 to understand fully the intricacies of the characters. I just can’t get enough of Seth and Dom, I’m eagerly awaiting Book 6. I give this my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear.

Consent by Bruce Rose

​Title: Consent                         Word Count : 40,510

Genre: Dark Gay Romance/ BDSM

Blurb:Only desperation could drive him to commit such a crime…

Lonely survivalist Travis Winslet has everything in his underground bunker, everything but a companion. Determined to get his needs met at any cost, Travis decides to hunt for a man the same way he does for food. When he spots a blond-haired, blue-eyed cutie who matches his requirements, he acts. Only to find his target wants to be tied up and abducted.

Kinkster Skye Randall paid his Dom for a kidnap scenario, never expecting he’d come through with a captor who was just the right combination of scary and sexy. But there’s more to his abductor than just a man willing to fulfill all of Skye’s darkest fantasies. When Travis asks for Skye’s consent, Skye realizes the true power of giving himself to his master and what it really means to be submissive.

But what will happen when Skye discovers Travis isn’t the man his Dom hired?

My Review:  Skye has been searching for most of his adult life for the perfect Dom. He yearns to have his kinky fantasies fulfilled. He goes on a camping trip with his friends, hoping that his part- time Dom who he pays will finally step up and do something intriguing.  Skye has suggested a role play where he gets kidnapped and used hard by his kidnapper.

Travis has been searching for something as well. He is overwhelmed by his need to kidnap someone without getting caught. His motive and plans for his victim are far from sinister. He just wants to push the boundaries of fear, knowing that his victims are his to control without hurting them. When he stumbles upon Skye camping, he has no idea that he has hit the jackpot  with this victim. Travis bides his time.

Skye realizes the futility of his hope of a kinky role play when his Dom Warren doesn’t show up.  Feeling rather dejected, Skye decides to relieve himself in the woods and then head off to bed. Skye is definitely  shocked and a bit nervous when Travis nabs him. His nerves come into play when he realize that the man behind him is not Warren. Skye is turned on by the grittiness and hint of danger he hears in his captor’s voice. When he is allowed to see the man’s face , he is surprised at the kind eyes that stare back at him. At this point Skye is definitely excited and elated, believing that all his dreams  are about to come true with this sexy mountain man.

Travis finds it strange that Skye is not putting up much of a resistance,  but the truth is revealed after talking to him. He realizes that Skye has mistaken his intentions as a part of his role play fantasy with Warren. Travis does not correct him. He can’t believe his luck on finding someone like Skye who is willing to play right into his fantasy. The more he talks to Skye is the more he sees how perfect he is for him.Travis shows Skye new perspective on  pleasure. He uses orgasm denial and this heightens their explosive chemistry. They talk about their wants and needs and Travis encourages Skye to live the life he’s  always wanted to live. Their connection is out of this world and they both fulfill each others fantasies. Travis feels so close to Skye , but he knows it can’t last because of his lie of omission. 

After 3 days of bliss,  Travis let’s Skye go. Skye is hurt and confused as he thought they had something that they could build on. Travis gives Skye a warning to value himself more and to be more careful. Everything is finally  revealed when Skye’s friends tell him that they thought he had died at a fire that broke out at the campsite. He realizes what a true snake Warren really is when he goes home and finds most of his stuff stolen by Warren. Skye puts all the pieces in his mind together  and acknowledges that the kidnapping was actually real. He combs through his time spent with his sexy mountain man and he doesn’t blame Travis for his actions. Skye understands the lonesome life that Travis must  lead living at his hidden bunker away from civilization. 

Skye tries to acclimate himself back to his old life, but all his routines feel tiresome. He decides to take Travis’ advice  and do things that make him happy. It takes 3 months for him to decide to try to find  Travis. He  misses him desperately . Skye experienced so much happiness , peace and contentment in 3 days than he ever did in his whole life. He sets out to find Travis’ hideaway. When Skye finds him , he offers himself up wholeheartedly to Travis. Travis knows that how he met Skye was very wrong, but it was also the most perfect unique circumstance for them. They both accept each other’s faults and foibles and love each other despite them. I really enjoyed these two characters and I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.

Guns N’ Boys 2 : Homicidal Instinct by K.A. Merikan

Title : Guns N Boys : Homicidal Instinct  Word Count : 268pg Genre : Dark Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : Seth wants is to live free with the man he loves. But escaping death at the hands of the mafia is just the beginning of an uphill struggle. When Domenico wakes up from his impromptu surgery and doesn’t even remember Seth’s name, Seth’s world falls apart. Suddenly it’s him who has to plan an escape from New York City and navigate their way to Mexico. All that without even knowing if the man of his life will ever love him again.

Domenico doesn’t know who to trust and what to believe. The man who introduces himself as his brother seems to hide dark secrets behind a cheerful smile. With the mafia breathing down their necks, there is no time to piece together the puzzle of Domenico’s life, and each time he thinks he’s solved it, a new part appears to be missing. Dom needs to find out who he really is, what he’s capable of… and what is the real story hidden behind Seth’s intense eyes.

POSSIBLE SPOILERS:
Themes: mafia, homophobia, assassin, organized crime, amnesia, road trip, chase

Genre: Dark, twisted erotic romance / crime thriller

Erotic content: Explicit gay sex

Length: ~88,000 words

WARNING: Adult content. If you are easily offended, this book is not for you.
‘Guns n’ Boys’ is a gritty story of extreme violence, offensive language, abuse, and morally ambiguous protagonists. Behind the morbid facade, there is a splash of inappropriate dark humor, and a love story that will crawl under your skin.

My Review : The roles were reserved somewhat in this book. Seth became the caretaker and the one doing all the planning, while Dom is recovering from his injuries which brought on amnesia. It was weird to see the self assured Domenico in this position where he wasn’t aware of anything that was going on around him. This was good in a way though, because it brought about a softer side to Dom’s personality, a more human side. Having to rely on Seth for everything was hard on Dom even though he had no idea of the caliber of man he was before. There is so much dominance that is poured into Dom’s DNA , that even when he has amnesia, snippets of his self assurance comes through in the very fiber of his being.
Seth did a great job manning up and keeping them both safe, but it is obvious that he just doesn’t have that killer instinct that is needed when running from the mafia. He is more of a nurterer and a lover. More than one argument was sparked by his feelings of inequality when stacked up against Dom’s virility. It took him awhile to realize that being submissive and being the bottom to Dom’s dominance in their relationship is not a bad thing , it’s just a way of life. He had to relinquish the claims of what it means to be manly in the Italian way of life. Most of all he had to embrace and revel in being Dom’s bottom.
It was great to see these two men living a semi normal life albeit being on the run from the mafia. Dom losing his memory provided a landscape where they were able to be ordinary men falling in love with each other all over again. Their bond was strengthened and the connection they have was thoroughly reinforced with all the things they had to endure. Secrets were revealed and there were many scrapes and hijinks that kept this story incredibly interesting. Seth ended up being hurt by his own brother when they are found. It pains Dom to see his sweet lover hurt and he feels like he failed in his self appointed job as protector. In the end of it all, Dom was able to regain his memories and this made him love and cherish Seth even more. They are hoping to live out the rest of their lives in peace. I give this my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear.

Guns N’ Boys Part 2 by K.A. Merikan

Title : Guns N’ Boys  Part 2         Word Count : 278 pgs

Genre : Dark Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : — Love is sour like a Sicilian lemon. —

The Family is always right.

The Family doesn’t forget.

The Family pays for blood in blood.

Domenico Acerbi grew up in the shade of Sicilian lemon trees ready to give his life for the Family. Ready to follow orders and exceed expectations. A proud man of honor.

When Seth, the younger son of the Don is kidnapped, it’s Domenico who is sent to get him back. The man he finds though, is not the boy he knew all those years ago. Lazy, annoying, spoiled, and as hot as a Sicilian summer.

Seth Villani wants nothing to do with the mafia. Unfortunately, he doesn’t get a say when the Family pulls him right back into its fold after his mother’s death. Thrown into a den of serpents otherwise known as the Villani Family, Seth has to find a way to navigate in the maze of lies. But when Domenico Acerbi, the most vicious snake of them all, sinks his fangs into Seth, the venom changes into an aphrodisiac that courses through Seth’s veins.

Domenico knows his life is about to change when he gets the order to train Seth up to the role of future Don. Seth isn’t made for it. He isn’t even made. But a man Domenico knows he would never have to fear might just be someone he’s always needed.

If Seth is doomed to follow in his father’s footsteps, he might as well enjoy himself–with the most intoxicating man he’s ever met. Maybe he can even fool himself into believing that Domenico isn’t a handsome sociopath who kills for a living.

POSSIBLE SPOILERS:

Themes: Enemies to lovers, mafia, homophobia, assassin, organized crime

Genre: Dark, twisted erotic romance / crime thriller

Erotic content: Explicit gay sex

Length: ~110,000 words (part 1), ~90,000 words (part 2)

WARNING: Adult content. If you are easily offended, this book is not for you.

‘Guns n’ Boys’ is a gritty story of extreme violence, offensive language, abuse, and morally ambiguous protagonists. Behind the morbid facade, there is a splash of inappropriate dark humor, and a love story that will crawl under your skin.

My Review :  The story continues when Dom and Seth goes back to Italy. It’s time for Seth to prove to everyone that he has the makings of a ruthless mafioso Don. His father arranges for him to meet his future bride. Dom has a hard time watching their interaction,but he is forced to hide his true feelings. Seth is called to task to deal with a traitor within their midst. It overwhelms him to be so vicious, but when it comes down to it, he kills the traitor in order to protect Dom from his father’s scrutiny. Dom comforts Seth and helps him clean himself up. This restores some of the previous closeness that they felt for each other in Berlin. The closeness dissipates just as quickly when in a passing conversation Seth finds out that Dom has a girlfriend that he had no knowledge about. In his jealousy he corners a waiter in the pantry and gets him to give him a blowjob.  Dom walks in on the act and becomes enraged. He roughs up Seth sexually, something he promised he would never do again after their time in Berlin. He is disappointed and hurt that Seth would cheat on him. It pains Seth to see what his actions have done to their relationship,  but he is not sure if he wants to forgive Dom for taking him back to that place of humility and inadequacy and feeling stripped of his manhood.

It is clear to see that Dom is a very volatile man with a temper. He is very jealous and crazy in his  possessiveness of Seth. I guess it’s true what they say about Italian men, that they are passionate in all aspects of their life. Dom apologizes to Seth and they make up in the best way possible with irresistible hot sex. Seth bares his soul to his sexy domineering stud expressing how much he loves him by giving Dom his signet ring. It just so happens that the very same day is his wedding day to the beautiful Italian girl his father picked out. It is obvious that their love story is a little bit tainted and definitely doesn’t follow the pattern of traditional romances. This somehow makes it hotter , their illicit affair is intriguing. The very next day Dom and Seth take off to New York to  continue Seth’s training to be head of the crime family. However,  they use this time as an impromptu honeymoon to celebrate their newfound love.

 For two months they enjoy the simplicity of domesticity. Their relationship is definitely not smooth sailing, but they try to live a seemingly normal life with Dom’s overt possessiveness sparking arguments every now and then. Their idyllic bliss is soon interrupted by Seth’s brother Vincente. Vincente’s appearance arouses suspicion in Dom’s mind as he is aware that he covets the title of Don. Dom’s senses is on high alert and it soon becomes apparent that treachery is afoot when Vincente recruits Dom to kill Seth. Dom plays the part of the willing henchman, but decides to  double cross the  mafioso in an attempt to protect and save the life of the man he loves. Dom gets them out safely by killing a few of the mafia, buy he gets severely hurt in the process. Seth has to now step up to the plate and carryout the plans to safety that Dom had set in place. This was definitely a spellbounding, intense read and I can’t wait to see how they will make it out alive now with a target on both of their backs. I give this my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear.

Guns N’ Boys Part 1 by K. A. Merikan

Title : Guns  N’ Boys  Part 1        Word Count : 323 pgs

Genre : Dark Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : — Love is sour like a Sicilian lemon. —

The Family is always right.

The Family doesn’t forget.

The Family pays for blood in blood.

Domenico Acerbi grew up in the shade of Sicilian lemon trees ready to give his life for the Family. Ready to follow orders and exceed expectations. A proud man of honor.

When Seth, the younger son of the Don is kidnapped, it’s Domenico who is sent to get him back. The man he finds though, is not the boy he knew all those years ago. Lazy, annoying, spoiled, and as hot as a Sicilian summer.

Seth Villani wants nothing to do with the mafia. Unfortunately, he doesn’t get a say when the Family pulls him right back into its fold after his mother’s death. Thrown into a den of serpents otherwise known as the Villani Family, Seth has to find a way to navigate in the maze of lies. But when Domenico Acerbi, the most vicious snake of them all, sinks his fangs into Seth, the venom changes into an aphrodisiac that courses through Seth’s veins.

Domenico knows his life is about to change when he gets the order to train Seth up to the role of future Don. Seth isn’t made for it. He isn’t even made. But a man Domenico knows he would never have to fear might just be someone he’s always needed.

If Seth is doomed to follow in his father’s footsteps, he might as well enjoy himself—with the most intoxicating man he’s ever met. Maybe he can even fool himself into believing that Domenico isn’t a handsome sociopath who kills for a living.

POSSIBLE SPOILER: Themes: Enemies to lovers, mafia, homophobia, assassin, organized crime

Genre: Dark, twisted erotic romance / crime thriller

Erotic content: Explicit gay sex, coercion

WARNING: Adult content. If you are easily offended, this book is not for you.

‘Guns n’ Boys’ is a gritty story of extreme violence, offensive language, abuse, and morally ambiguous protagonists. Behind the morbid facade, there is a splash of inappropriate dark humor, and a love story that will crawl under your skin.

My Review : Seth Villani and Domenico Acerbi are in a power struggle from the moment they meet each other when they are kids. It seems nothing has changed even though it is years after and they are now adults. Seth is set to inherit the title of Don in his mafioso family and Domenico is his personal bodyguard.  When Dom rescues Seth from the Chinese Triad who kidnapped him, they are both strangers to each other. Dom definitely doesn’t think Seth has what it takes to become a Don, but Seth’s future is cemented by his father. It is a death sentence to be gay in the mafioso, so Seth knows he has to hide his true nature. Seth is giving his last respects in the church at his mother’s funeral when he is alerted to a noise. He is definitely shocked when  he discovers Dom pounding their driver in a hidden corner. Dom is unashamed of his behaviour and continues to completion. Seth is furious,  but is also fiercely attracted to this powerful  dominant  man.

Dom whisks Seth away to Berlin in order to further Seth’s training to become the leader of the mafioso. They are very insulated in their one room attic and things soon heat up between them. Dom forces Seth to submit to his will and bottom for him. This creates all sorts of feelings within Seth, primarily shame,  confusion and inadequacy. However,  this doesn’t diminish the attraction he feels to Dom who he has recently learned is his half brother, his father’s  bastard child. Their relationship is a constant tug of war, it is tumultuous to say the least. 

Seth learns a lot from Dom and they become closer. Even though their relationship cannot be said to be a loving one, Seth sees Dom as a safe haven. It is clear to see that Dom has feelings for Seth and he  makes it clear that he will take a bullet for him as he is loyal to the Villani family. Dom does a lot to protect his lover from as much of the harshness of the mafioso world.  For now, any other proclamations are off the table,   because it is expected that Seth needs to do his duty by marrying a beautiful Italian virgin and begetting an heir. This was an interesting read for me. I like both men and I loved the chemistry between them and I can’t wait to see how it turns out in part 2 of this book. I give this my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear .

The Bent Zealots MC 1: A Dangerous Reality by Layla Wolfe

Title :  A Dangerous Reality          Word Count : 81,000

Genre : Dark Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : TURK. My club sent me to track him down. And when my mission was over, I never wanted another one again. When I found him, I kicked the crap out of Havelock Singer. I issued the mightiest beatdown of all time. Problem is, we’re evenly matched. We’re equals in every way, and when we finished whaling on each other, exhausted, we fell into each other’s arms.

I’ve never regretted it for an instant. It’s been the ride of my life. But loving another man in the MC world is a risky business. As if our business isn’t already brutal and ruthless enough, Lock’s homophobic sergeant-at-arms Stumpy gets an eyeful of our lovemaking and blackmails us into doing some of his dirty work, or be exposed for what we are—a couple of deviants.

This run into the Indian reservation is sleazy and beneath us, but now I’m cornered, and I’ll do anything to keep my sweet Master from being lynched by his club.

LOCK. When that kingpin Carmine Rojas got a load of my beautiful stallion Turk Blackburn, he’d stop at nothing to have him—and Rojas gets what he wants. It’s my fault we’re in this situation. I should’ve kicked Turk’s ass and sent him packing back to The Bare Bones. I wasn’t even close to being ready to come out, but now they’re forcing my hand.

I can hear my destiny calling me. Either I’ll slink back to my club like a hetero bounty hunter with no morals—and no respect from anyone in my own backyard—or I’ll step up to the plate and be the lion of the day.

Either way, my lover and I are screwed. Our clubs are going to hound us underground or into another country before we escape this mess—if we don’t die trying.

“Living off the grid and being an outlaw brings a dangerous reality.” –Ron Perlman

Publisher’s warning: This book is not for the faint of heart. It contains scenes of gay sex, consensual BDSM, illegal doings, dubious consent, and man-on-man violence.

My Review :   Turk and Lock start out as enemies and rivals from opposite motorcycle clubs. They have a big slap down drawn out fight when Turk recognizes Lock as the guy his cheating ex was having a tryst with in the back of a club. Turk feels betrayed and hurt by his boyfriend. All those feelings come to the fore when he sees Lock again. It is clear that they are evenly matched. There is an underlying sensuality during their fight that somehow reveals to them the thin line between hatred and passion. Their erections definitely expose their need for each other. Being the tough bikers that  they are and being in the company of other homophobic bikers,  they walk away. It is not long before they meet again. When it becomes obvious that someone from Lock’s group the  Assassin’s is infringing on Turk’s product,  they end up working together. Their passion ignites and they just can’t seem to resist each other as much as Lock denies that he is gay.

At times I felt as if I needed a biker’s dictionary to truly decipher what was being said. I liked the book, I just think that it would have been a whole lot simpler and more enjoyable without all the excessive slang and lingo to deal with. The darkness and the brutality of both characters was somehow tantalizing,  it kept me wanting more. I really liked how Turk was a power bottom, he did a whole lot of topping from the bottom. I really enjoyed Lock’s dirty talk, he is definitely crude and not everyone will appreciate his personality. Each man is exactly what the other needs in their life. Lock’s resistant nature is just what Turk needs. Turk enjoys cajoling and luring Lock who adamantly professes to be straight to the dark side .  

 Things become treacherous for them when they are found out by the vindictive sergeant of arms Stumpy who seem to have it out for Lock.  Before they can admit to themselves or each other, how special they are, Stumpy’s nefarious plans gets deeper. They become embroiled in a  mess which involves a drug cartel kingpin who seems fixated on Turk. Turk tries to go along with the kingpin’s plan to save their lives , but he finds out how truly in love he is with Lock when his body fails to respond sexually.

When they are let go, it becomes clear to both men that they would do anything to be with each other. A plan starts forming in Lock’s mind when he comes across another gay biker Ormond  who doesn’t belong to a club because of his sexuality. After dealing with their enemies,  they resign from their respective motorcycle clubs and welcomed the birth of their own gay motorcycle club, the Bent Zealots. This is raw and gritty and the perfect kind of love to showcase the passion these big , burly bikers have for each other. I give this my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear.