One Man’s Trash (The Heretic Dom’s Club bk 1) by Marie Sexton

Title: One Man’s Trash              Word Count: 343 pgs

Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:After four tours in Afghanistan, Warren Groves couldn’t settle into civilian life. For the last twelve years, he’s survived by working odd and often illegal jobs for some of Denver’s less fortunate. His personal life is equally unsatisfactory. He can barely remember the last time he had sex, let alone the last time he got to use somebody hard and rough, the way he likes. Fate intervenes when a favor for a friend leads him to a pretty young rentboy named Taylor Reynolds.

Taylor’s spent the last few years on his own, working as a hustler, going home with anybody who’ll give him a warm meal and a place to sleep. He enjoys having a bit of force used against him, and he makes Warren an offer he can’t refuse — all the sex he wants, as rough and dirty as he likes, in exchange for room and board.

At first, Warren thinks he’s struck gold. Taylor’s the perfect roommate — he cooks, he cleans, and he’s dynamite in the sack. But Taylor has some dark demons in his head and some even darker cravings. Falling for somebody as volatile as Taylor is dangerous enough, but when Taylor’s urges turn truly self-destructive, it’ll be up to Warren to decide just how far to let things go.

My Review: Nobody knows more than Taylor how messed up his life is. Taylor lives each day bouncing from guy to guy, trading his body for his next meal and a roof over his head. Taylor engages in a lot of self destructive behaviors. When Warren, ex army vet finds him at his friend’s Phil request Taylor he is standing at a glory hole servicing a bunch of guys at the same time. He seems to be in utter bliss. When Taylor gets a good look at Warren , he offers him the same deal he had with Phil before – sex on demand for room and board.

 Warren is not traditionally handsome, he has a few scars and he has a rough look about him. In short, he is big and scary, but that’s certainly a part of the appeal for Taylor. Taylor loves rough sex, it’s usually the only way he can find sexual gratification. Warren hesitates their first time together, but he can’t deny the fact that he’s very attracted to the sexy little twink. Warren is very dominant and Taylor is definitely not afraid to be submissive. He is instantly aroused when Warren ties him down and get a bit rough with him. They embark on a very tumultuous journey, where they live as roommates with Taylor keeping house while Warren gets to slake his lust after a hard days work. Warren’s job is a bit unconventional, but he feels useful working security for a few hookers. He is usually very worked up after listening to them have sex all night. Taylor has the benefit of being the one he comes home to.

They have a great few weeks where they each know what they are both getting out of their deal. However, Taylor has a dark side and when he gets bored that dark side seeps in until it takes over. Taylor becomes uncontrollable and the only thing that seems to fill that void is copious amounts of hardcore sex with faceless strangers. He becomes quite violent and breaks Warren’s tv during his first episode. Warren is shocked to see the state Taylor is in , he is begging for Warren to hurt him. It is intense, but Warren refuses to give him exactly what he needs. Warren punishes him with a flogger and ties him down and penetrates him roughly. It puts Warren in an uneasy state but he can see that it eases Taylor’s tension a bit. Taylor is blissed out and he feels guilty for his behaviour. 

Taylor confesses some of his deep dark secrets to Warren about the incestuous relationship that he had with his older brother. Warren sees how troubled Taylor’s life has been. He sees the ‘relationship’ for the abuse that it really was, but Taylor associates it with love and safety. Taylor talks about some of the taboo acts that his brother James did to him, which he thought was done out of love. It is clear to see the act of sex and love is twisted and definitely tainted in Taylor’s mind.  

Things continue normal for awhile and the two confess their growing feelings for each other. Warren lets Taylor know how much he loves him, flaws and all. Charlie another one of Warren ‘s friends ask him to help take care of a drug addict called Riley who is ready to kick the habit. This takes up a lot of Warren’s time and Taylor soon becomes bored. Taylor wants to help and demand Warren take him along. Taylor proves to be more of a help than Charlie and Warren, because he actually holds Riley’s hands and helps him emotionally. Taylor tells Riley about his past activities of selling himself for a roof over his head . This draws them closer and they bond over their ‘flawed selves’. They become friends and Riley seems to be getting better. Warren warns Taylor that Riley might relapse, but Taylor chooses to believe in Riley and have faith.

Taylor soon realizes that the easy camaraderie and friendship that they have is akin to what real brothers must be like. His subconscious can’t seem to handle this and the blackness overwhelms him again. The episode he has this time is much worse than the one before. This one leads him back to the place it all began. Warren finds him back at the glory hole servicing quite a number of men. The blackness causes Taylor to crave anonymous sex. He relishes pain and shame, it is the only thing that seems to fill that void for Taylor. Warren is shocked but he loves Taylor enough to give him what he needs.

Warren takes Taylor home and calls a few Doms and their friends over. He gives Taylor what he needs , albeit in a safe environment. Warren ensures that all the men wear condoms while he stands aside and watch. Taylor is insatiable and it doesn’t seem to be enough. It takes all the men having their turn to make Taylor feel almost at peace. In the end it is Warren who fills the void when he professes his love and gives Taylor his secret forbidden desire of a golden bath. Watersports is not Warren’s scene but he remembered when Taylor exposed his deep dark secrets he mentioned how loved he felt when one of the men peed in his anus while they had sex. 

Warren feels wreaked after this experience. He knows that the next time the blackness overwhelms Taylor he won’t be able to provide this. When Riley overdoses, Warren knows he needs to express his love to Taylor in a way that will fill that void inside of him. He claims Taylor’s body through his love, he allows him to see it as the temple that it is. Warren lets Taylor know that he will never give anybody the chance to abuse him ever again. This was enlightening, it was certainly dark and depraved in certain parts, but overall I really enjoyed this and surprisingly felt connected to both of these men. I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.

Stealing Innocents by Cari Waites, Lisa Henry

​Title: Stealing Innocents                        Word Count:70,700

 Genre: Gay Romance

Blurb:Those who dare to scratch the surface of ordinary, everyday life may be horrified to find a sick underbelly beneath—a nightmare world populated by villains and victims, predators and prey, where the rules of society no longer apply.

Where you’ll find people like Danny, the boy who sells himself to pay for his father’s gambling debts and ends up in a situation more twisted than he ever imagined. Or Troy, the cop whose obsession with saving a brutalized human trafficking victim turns deadly. Or Drew, the mental patient who begins to suspect his nightly delusions of abuse by his doctor are actually real. Or David, the cuckolded husband who decides the best way to get revenge is to seduce his wife’s barely legal son.

Stealing Innocents is an exploration of our darkest human impulses, where sex is power, love is horror, and there’s no such thing as a happy ending.

READER DISCRETION ADVISED.

This collection contains three edited second editions stories that were previously individually published, plus one all-new story, by Lisa Henry writing as Cari Waites.
 My Review: When Danny is sold to the man who his father owes insurmountable gambling debts, he learns how irrevocably his life has changed. From the very first moment he meets Archer, he understands the true meaning of ownership. The first thing Archer does is to place Danny in a cock cage  and demand that he be addressed as ‘ Sir’. Danny who is a 18 yr old virgin has never been  exposed to the world of BDSM. He is extremely confused when he is placed in a childlike room. He is further confounded when  Archer explains that it is for his own benefit since he had a horrible role model for a father. From night one Danny is made to understand that he won’t be eased into the lifestyle gently. Danny is forced to learn how to pleasure his master and is breached with an  anal plug without any gratification for himself. This is just a prelude for things to come.

Danny learns a fine lesson in humiliation and degradation on his second day in Archer’s household. He certainly can’t reconcile the changes he sees in himself in such a short space  of time. He yearns for the torture that his body undergoes when he is caned and simultaneously stimulated by the anal plug. Archer shows him that there is a thin line between pain and pleasure. Daniel submits to Archer and quickly fall into subspace where everything feels like an  out of body experience. Danny continues to learn harsh truths about his body and his tolerance. He is exposed to many unknown tools and practices such as enemas, sounds , fisting and orgasm denial that  causes humiliation but titillate his senses as well.

At first, Danny sets out to please his master only to avoid punishment. However, he soon realizes that in the nether recesses of his mind, he is embracing this part of himself that he has only just acknowledged. Danny meanders between feeling ashamed and dirty while reveling in the ‘special’ relationship he has with ‘daddy’ Archer. That is until he remembers this situation is not of his own free will. When Archer decides to share his new slave with his business associates, Danny becomes a little bit combatant.

Archer shows Danny how well and truly he is owned. Archer proves to him that he has no agency in their relationship and the more resistant he is, the harder it will be for Danny. Daniel experiences all forms of debauchery at the hands of his ‘daddy’ and he is denied all gratification. This is where he understands that the only pleasure  he will gain is by living vicariously through his master.

There is a juxtaposition between the old Danny and the new Daniel.Danny realizes that he is losing the will to fight. Self preservation kicks in and he decides to hide away that part of himself that makes him Danny. He cloaks Danny under the skin of Daniel, the one who thrives on being a good Daddy’ s boy. However, there are times when the spitfire Danny pushes through and this always leads to punishment. He shows resistance when Archer takes him to a tattoo parlour. Without knowing the plans that his daddy has for him, Danny defies him. This proves to Archer that Danny still has not learnt how to trust him wholeheartedly. Archer is very disappointed that his boy still does not believe that daddy knows what’s best for him. At that very moment, Danny glimpsed his biological father going into a well known gambling den. Danny is truly broken by this sight, because it means that all his sacrifice was for naught. He now has to reevaluate his arrangement with Archer and figure  out what is the true purpose of his debauched life. That night, Danny cries for a father that still has not learnt his lesson, but things are now clearer in his mind.

Everything comes to a head the next night when Danny is put on his knees to service Archer and his associates. The last guest arrives while Danny is taking care of his ‘daddy’s needs and it’s none other than his father Clyde. Clyde is disgusted by seeing Danny this way, but what is even more disgusting is when he suggests that he should have gotten more money for  basically selling Danny into this lifestyle. The true monster reveals himself and any love that Danny felt for his father in that moment was extinguished.

Danny’ s eyes have truly opened up and he now gains insight into the life he has been living with Archer. Archer treating Danny like a child was his way of giving Danny a rebirth for the childhood he knew Danny had lost at the hands of his father. Danny always had the responsibility of dealing with an addict for a father, rather than embracing a carefree childhood. Archer gave Danny a chance to be a child again in order to be the man he was always meant to be. Danny realized that he got a new identity by being  ‘daddy’s’ baby boy Daniel. For the first time, he thinks he is really ready to embrace Daniel and every nuance that comes with this persona.

Daniel regains his agency in the most unexpected way. He kills the man that he now sees was the poison in his life. Clyde is dead and Daniel is freed of all charges. He is also free to make the decision to be his daddy’s boy. Archer will allow him to be the man that will be his partner in everyone’s eyes, but at home Daniel will be the perfect daddy’s boy.

 I am still not sure how I feel about this book. It  was so horrific that it was good. This was very well written.It was nitely a page turner and not for the feint of heart. It is really heavy on the BDSM elements, violence and abuse. It was weirdly good and I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.  

P.S. This review was only for the first story. I found that the other short stories were too inhumane. I was not able to review them as they made me a little bit sick to my stomach.