Pixie ( Ballsy Boys 5) by K M Neuhold & Nora Phoenix

Title: Pixie Word Count: 264 pgs
Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb: Everybody loves Pixie.
Everybody wants Pixie.
But Pixie needs a Daddy, and his heart is set on me.

I’m determined to resist him, for more reasons than I can count.

He’s too young for me. He’s my employee. And he’s everything I’ve been avoiding for half my life.

He’s vibrant. He’s sweet. He’s absolutely perfect, no matter how much I don’t want him to be.

I want nothing more than to take care of him, to protect him and pamper him…but how can I start something with him when I know I’ll eventually break his heart? Can I really be the Daddy Pixie needs?

**Pixie is the fifth and last book in the Ballsy Boys Production series. It can be read as a stand-alone, but it’s more fun reading the series in order.

My Review: Pixie and Bear have been playing this cat and mouse game for far too long, things are about to get real interesting. Pixie is the lovable twinky imp that everybody wants to bubble wrap and protect. He is definitely a fan favorite of the Ballsy Boys. He portrays this innocence on camera that irregardless of him being a porn star comes through as genuine. Pixie just sparkles, he makes everyone think of stardust and unicorns. He is always happy and definitely has an eye for fashion. Pixie also has a hair- trigger when it comes to shopping. He loves the finer things in life and he wishes he had a daddy to take care of him. Pixie knows what he wants and he is certainly suited to a daddy/boy dynamic. From the moment he laid eyes on his boss, his heart is set on Bear being the perfect daddy for him.

From the first moment Bear laid eyes on the sweetest little imp, he knew he was in trouble. He knew that Pixie would be the perfect addition to the Ballsy Boys family. He resists the attraction that he feels for Pixie and stomps down on the wave of protective instincts that pull at him. He has a problem with their 20 year age gap and uses it as a shield to build up the walls around his heart. This doesn’t stop him from getting extremely turned on when he watches scenes that Pixie films. To him , this borders on being unprofessional, but Pixie is his secret obsession. For all that he is worth, he resists his attraction vociferously, but that all comes crashing down when they end up rooming together for a night when they go on a work trip. It was inevitable, Bear could no longer resist the forbidden feelings. Finally, being with his boy just gave him a taste of the happiness that he could have. It was such a memorable night that imprinted on both their brains.

Pixie is even more sure that Bear is the perfect daddy, but for Bear it is a mistake. One he knew , he could never allow to happen again without irrevocably damaging his heart. He rejects Pixie hard and the sweet young man endures a secret pain that he can’t share with anyone. Pixie spirals out of control with his spending habits , racking up credit card debt, basically shopping his feelings away. Soon, he becomes overwhelmed with living in LA.After having more than one late rent payment, he gets evicted. The only person he can think to turn to is Rebel. Rebel calls in the troupe to help Pixie out, the Ballsy Boys family is just what Pixie needs to soothe his sorrow for a bit. However, he begs them not to tell Bear. It isn’t long before Bear suspects that something is terribly wrong . He knows the boys are hiding something, Rebel cracks under the pressure and reveals Pixie’s problems.

Bear steps in and takes charge, informing Pixie that he will move in with him. Pixie is happy , but Bear makes it known that nothing has changed between them. He is just helping the boy get back on his feet. Being in such close quarters with Bear allows Pixie a look into the life of the man he wants more than anything. Like most people, Bear has certainly been shaped by his past. He is a former porn star who has managed to create the successful studio for Ballsy Boys. Bear has been around for a long time and he’s had his fair amount of trials and tribulations. He has been devastated and has lost quite a few loved ones during the AIDS epidemic. He’s seen first hand the persecution that gay men faced back in those days. It has made him stronger and smarter, especially with regards to how he runs his condom only porn sets. Safe sex practices is imperative for him. Bear lost the love of his life to AIDS and made the dying declaration to always help other gay men living with AIDS. Due to this promise, he has closed himself off to love and intimate entanglements.

Bear has volunteered at an AIDS shelter for most of his life. This is his way to give back to the community and keep his promise alive. This is where he meets Travis who is dying from AIDS. An unshakeable bond and an unlikely friendship forms between the two men. In a way, both have experienced unrequited love. Travis has been in love with his straight best friend for years, while Bear quietly pines for Pixie. Their conversations is a soothing balm on both their souls. Bear is devastated when the inevitable happens and Travis dies.Travis’ letter comes when his will is settled. He gets straight to the point, letting Bear know how grateful he was for his friendship. He finagles a dying wish from Bear as well, that he will live life to the fullest with his sweet boy Pixie by his side. The letter is very emotional for Bear causing him to fall apart in Pixie’s sweet loving arms. This is just what he needs, after so many years of bottling up his feelings, it is cathartic. It certainly puts things in perspective for Bear.

Once again another Ballsy Boy video breaks the internet. Bear has a business venture with a friend who plans on opening a porn studio that features all types of daddy kink. For their debut , they decide that a video with Bear and Pixie would showcase the daddy/ boy kink to perfection. Hot damn, their set is perfect. Pixie looks at his daddy with stars in his eyes and gets so hot when his daddy gives him an almost orgasmic spanking. Daddy Bear gives Pixie the full attention that his boy craves. Their scene is open and trusting for the whole world to see just how precious the daddy/boy dynamic can be.

This series ends perfectly with Campy and Jackson’s beautiful wedding. All the Ballsy Boys secrets are finally revealed. Troy has proposed to Rebel, he’s certainly gotten over his fear of commitment. Tank and Brewer quietly tied the knot in Vegas.Love shines sweet and clear with the triad that unites Heart, Mason and Lucky. Not to be outdone, Bear drops to one knee and bestows the most beautiful diamond ring befitting the sparkly imp Pixie. Cheers all around, I loved this series. I give this my ratings of 4 -lose the underwear.

Teddy and his Bear(Oh My! 1) by Andi James & Lila Wilde

Title: Teddy and his Bear    Word Count: 286 pgs
Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:At twenty-four, Teddy should be used to feeling abandoned and unwanted. After all, he’s been dealing with it most of his life. But a recent breakup takes him completely by surprise and now he’s on his own again. Nursing new and old hurts, he leans on his makeshift family and finds solace in a growing and unexpected friendship with an older man.

Forty-two-year-old Barrett has successfully ignored his biggest need for years. His last boy left him questioning everything he knew, and he is determined to lead a vanilla life, no matter how much his friends try to convince him to be true to himself. When he learns his favorite barista needs a new place to stay, he offers a solution that leads to spending more time with the younger man.

A change in circumstances brings both men together and their buried feelings to light. Teddy knows he’s attracted to Barrett but isn’t sure if he’s ready to risk his heart again, and Barrett is losing the struggle against his dominant nature. Will learning Barrett’s sexy secret be too much for Teddy, or is it just the thing he never knew he needed?

Teddy & His Bear is a 90K word slow-burn, May/December, Daddy kink MM romance featuring
one hot Daddy, his sweet new boy, coffee, and unicorns.

My Review: Teddy is devastated when his two boyfriends sit him down and tell him they no longer want to be a triad. Teddy is flummoxed , when they explain that they would rather be a pair. They say it’s easier to explain to people. Teddy’s heart shatters when they let him know they’ve been considering it for a month. Teddy leaves feeling as if his whole world has imploded. His best friend Tony and his boss/ friend Claudette help him to pick up the pieces.

Teddy pushes himself to work, but the questions keeping swirling around in his head. What did he do wrong? Most importantly, he wonders why he wasn’t enough for them. This is the thought that really brings him to the brink of tears. Teddy is so distracted by these thoughts that he almost fell off a stool at work. His life is ultimately saved by one of his customers,who happens to be a traveling doctor Barrett. The concern in Barrett’s eyes and being in strong arms causes everything to overflow. Barrett holds Teddy while he cries and he pours out his heartbreak in his story.

Needless to say, Teddy is embarrassed to see Barrett the next time.Barrett is just sad to see Teddy so heartbroken. He wishes he could make Teddy’s world right again. Barrett knows deep down that he sees all the perfect qualities of a ‘boy’ in Teddy. These qualities are the siren song to his repressed ‘Daddy’ persona. There is just one problem, Barrett has put away his ‘Daddy Dom’ after his last boy left him years ago. Barrett has forced himself to live a vanilla lifestyle after his last ‘boy’ accused him of being a smothering daddy. Barrett is scared of making the same mistake again.

Knowing that Teddy needs a place to stay, Barrett offers to rent him a room over his garage. An easy friendship forms between this unlikely pair. Their friendship fills a void in both of them and goes a long way to piecing back together Teddy’s shattered heart. They cook dinner together, binge watch tv with Teddy being the voracious snuggler. Teddy shows Barrett the fun side of life, a part that’s been missing in him for so long. He receives the nickname Bear from Teddy , who sees just how much of a cuddly teddy bear Barrett can be.Barrett enjoys taking care of sweet Teddy, even though he knows it’s not his ‘boy’.

Things change between them at a Halloween party. Teddy acts on his crush for the sexy silver fox Barrett. Their heat reaches combustible levels and they both get exactly what they need. Once the sun comes up though, they both decide that they should remain friends only. That doesn’t work out too well as they can hardly resist each other. When Teddy hurts his ankle at work, Bear steps up as a Daddy Dom taking care of his ‘boy’ unofficially. Teddy enjoys Bear taking care of him, especially when Bear slips and calls him baby boy. Teddy doesn’t understand the significance until his best friend Tony explains that Barrett is a Daddy Dom.

Teddy starts doing his research about the Daddy/ boy dynamic. The more he learns, the more he sees this is the connection he’s been missing. Teddy makes the decision to get his Daddy to see him as the perfect boy. Bear can no longer resist, once he sees his boy’s acceptance of their power play. He falls right back into his Daddy role with such ease. Sparks ignite between Daddy and his boy, their connection is effortless and they fall into their roles seamlessly.

Teddy adapts to the Daddy/ boy lifestyle as if he was living it forever. It definitely doesn’t hurt that he has the most amazing Daddy, who always puts his boy’s needs first. They continue to build their relationship and it grows exponentially with the time they spend together. They hit a bit of a snag, when Teddy finds out that his exes are in the process of adopting a child. This brings about all of Teddy’s insecurities and feeling unworthy. Barrett is sad to see his boy so tormented. He decides to show him how grateful he is to have Teddy in his life, by officially asking him to move in.

They enjoy the newness of their relationship and explores the lifestyle by visiting Barrett’s old kink clubs. This opens up a new world of possibilities for Teddy. He indulges in new experiences and being more open with his sexuality and his exhibitionist side. He revels in belonging to his Daddy and finds a newfound joy in being a Daddy’s boy and taking his punishment spankings and orgasm denial when necessary. This was certainly a feel good story that had me smiling the whole way through and very emotional at times. Barrett, the ever patient Daddy Dom was always there to soothe Teddy’s fears and insecurities. In the end , Teddy’s confidence and happiness was unshakeable because of his Daddy’s love. I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.