Stay ( Working out the Kinks 1) by K.M. Neuhold

Title: Stay Word Count:205 pgs
Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance/ Puppy play

Blurb:What happens to a couple when one of them discovers a new kink that he’s not sure his partner will be into?

Dear Art,
I’m sure you get messages like this all the time, but I feel like I don’t even know who I am anymore. I suppose I should start from the beginning… Three weeks ago, I saw puppy play for the first time, and now I can’t stop thinking about it. Wait, no, that’s not really the beginning… Ten years ago, my best friend who I’d been in love with my entire life told me he loved me too.
For ten years, I’ve been living in complete bliss with Lars, the man of my dreams. Don’t get me wrong, we have our fights and disagreements (mostly because I do irritating shit, and every once in a while, he reaches the end of his patience), but he is my other half in every way. I didn’t know I could love someone the way I love him.
Then, the puppy thing happened. It’s not so different from when I realized I was gay; there was a moment where everything sort of clicked into place, and my whole body was like “Yes, that’s what we’ve been trying to figure out all this time.” At first, I thought maybe I should just let it go because it’s not the kind of thing I can imagine my partner being into. But last week I went into a kink shop and ended up walking out with a puppy hood. I stashed it in our guest bedroom closet and haven’t even had the courage to take it out and try it on again, let alone show it to Lars. I don’t know what to do. How do I bring this up to him? And what if he isn’t into it? I feel like I don’t recognize myself anymore, and I don’t know where to turn. Please help.

Sincerely,
One Lost Puppy

My Review: Jonah and Lars have loved each other from the moment they could walk. First as friends and in the last ten years as lovers. They have the kind of relationship where even after ten years,the flame still burns bright and they are more in love now than ever. Nobody is perfect, but their love comes pretty close. The chemistry between the two men is off the charts and watching their love story unfold will leave you smiling from ear to ear.

Jonah and Lars know everything about each other, or at least that’s the thought. When they decide to venture to the pride parade for the first time, something pings Jonah’s curiosity. Watching a group of men dressed up as ‘puppies’ strangely illicits a sense of longing in Jonah. Jonah feels bereft when Lars mentions how weird the puppy kink seems. That is the very first time that Jonah hides his true feelings from Lars, because he disagrees. Jonah thinks the ‘puppies’ are cute and wonders what it would be like to be so carefree.

For the next few weeks, Jonah secretly delves into the world of puppies. He browses websites and reads all the articles he can get his hands on. He is guilty of soaking up all the info he can get and he is convinced that this is the path for him. There is just one problem, how does he explain that he wants to try puppy play to Lars? Lars have noticed the slight changes in Jonah, seeing how secretive and withdrawn he has become. He is at a loss and grasping to figure out what’s the problem.

Lars stumbles on the answer to his internal questions when he gets home unexpectedly early one day. He catches Jonah trying on his new puppy hood. Jonah is clearly embarrassed and extremely nervous about Lars’ reaction, waiting for his rejection. Seeing the vulnerability on his lover’s face, Lars calmly opens up the conversation. Lars doesn’t reject Jonah, he gives him the comfort that he needs. Lars is just so happy to have his lover back, instead of the secretive, distant man that Jonah was becoming. Jonah explains everything and why he feels so drawn to puppy play.

Lars being the ever supportive , loving partner that he is plunges right in. He vows to be the best master to his pup. Lars lets Jonah know that this journey will be one that they will take together. Jonah is overjoyed, but obviously he is still a little shy and uncertain in some aspects. There is now a new dynamic to their relationship that they are both willing to explore. Jonah lets Lars know he wants to play a more submissive role in their everyday life. Lars relishes being more dominant and cottons to the idea of being able to organise Jonah’s daily routines to alleviate some of his lover’s stress. Being a doctor Jonah already has a lot to deal with at work. He is ready to relinquish that control to Lars when he gets home. There is definitely a newfound freedom to Jonah’s personality.

Lars has loved Jonah through many different seasons. This is certainly a never-ending love. Jonah’s commitment to being the best master pushes them both to go to a trainer who helps them to navigate this new world. They both gain a lot of insight from their lessons. Lars learns commands and boundaries as a way of communicating with his new pup. Puppy play is definitely a freeing time for Jonah where he turns into this over-exuberant pup named Lucky. Seeing Jonah so ecstatic and at peace makes Lars falls even deeper in love with him. They are both gaining confidence in their respective roles and Lars is surprised at how well he has acclimated to being a master. This dominant and possessive side is one they have never explored, but Lars finds that he really enjoys it.

For their upcoming eleventh anniversary, Lars decides to ‘put a ring on it’. He presents Jonah with a ring and collar with a lock. Jonah is overjoyed and hands over his gift which turns out to be a cock cage. This takes their sex lives to new heights. The thought of truly being the master of Jonah’s erections and orgasms more than revs up Lars. Jonah loves seeing his man so dominant and possessive.

They can no longer wait to be married so they decide to elope to Niagara Falls. It is a beautiful ceremony where they become lifelong partners and husbands. They culminate their wedding night with the hottest sex ever after a week of Jonah being in a cock cage. He loves that feeling of being owned by his master. I really enjoyed the beauty of the love between Jonah and Lars. It is proof that true love can survive mostly anything. It shows an all encompassing love that allows for individuality. Most of all it allows for changes that come with growth when two people share their lives together and become one. I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.

PS: I must admit that I still don’t fully get the whole ‘puppy play’ aspect, but I certainly will not bash it. Love is love and everyone should feel free to be who they are and love who they want.

Teddy and his Bear(Oh My! 1) by Andi James & Lila Wilde

Title: Teddy and his Bear    Word Count: 286 pgs
Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:At twenty-four, Teddy should be used to feeling abandoned and unwanted. After all, he’s been dealing with it most of his life. But a recent breakup takes him completely by surprise and now he’s on his own again. Nursing new and old hurts, he leans on his makeshift family and finds solace in a growing and unexpected friendship with an older man.

Forty-two-year-old Barrett has successfully ignored his biggest need for years. His last boy left him questioning everything he knew, and he is determined to lead a vanilla life, no matter how much his friends try to convince him to be true to himself. When he learns his favorite barista needs a new place to stay, he offers a solution that leads to spending more time with the younger man.

A change in circumstances brings both men together and their buried feelings to light. Teddy knows he’s attracted to Barrett but isn’t sure if he’s ready to risk his heart again, and Barrett is losing the struggle against his dominant nature. Will learning Barrett’s sexy secret be too much for Teddy, or is it just the thing he never knew he needed?

Teddy & His Bear is a 90K word slow-burn, May/December, Daddy kink MM romance featuring
one hot Daddy, his sweet new boy, coffee, and unicorns.

My Review: Teddy is devastated when his two boyfriends sit him down and tell him they no longer want to be a triad. Teddy is flummoxed , when they explain that they would rather be a pair. They say it’s easier to explain to people. Teddy’s heart shatters when they let him know they’ve been considering it for a month. Teddy leaves feeling as if his whole world has imploded. His best friend Tony and his boss/ friend Claudette help him to pick up the pieces.

Teddy pushes himself to work, but the questions keeping swirling around in his head. What did he do wrong? Most importantly, he wonders why he wasn’t enough for them. This is the thought that really brings him to the brink of tears. Teddy is so distracted by these thoughts that he almost fell off a stool at work. His life is ultimately saved by one of his customers,who happens to be a traveling doctor Barrett. The concern in Barrett’s eyes and being in strong arms causes everything to overflow. Barrett holds Teddy while he cries and he pours out his heartbreak in his story.

Needless to say, Teddy is embarrassed to see Barrett the next time.Barrett is just sad to see Teddy so heartbroken. He wishes he could make Teddy’s world right again. Barrett knows deep down that he sees all the perfect qualities of a ‘boy’ in Teddy. These qualities are the siren song to his repressed ‘Daddy’ persona. There is just one problem, Barrett has put away his ‘Daddy Dom’ after his last boy left him years ago. Barrett has forced himself to live a vanilla lifestyle after his last ‘boy’ accused him of being a smothering daddy. Barrett is scared of making the same mistake again.

Knowing that Teddy needs a place to stay, Barrett offers to rent him a room over his garage. An easy friendship forms between this unlikely pair. Their friendship fills a void in both of them and goes a long way to piecing back together Teddy’s shattered heart. They cook dinner together, binge watch tv with Teddy being the voracious snuggler. Teddy shows Barrett the fun side of life, a part that’s been missing in him for so long. He receives the nickname Bear from Teddy , who sees just how much of a cuddly teddy bear Barrett can be.Barrett enjoys taking care of sweet Teddy, even though he knows it’s not his ‘boy’.

Things change between them at a Halloween party. Teddy acts on his crush for the sexy silver fox Barrett. Their heat reaches combustible levels and they both get exactly what they need. Once the sun comes up though, they both decide that they should remain friends only. That doesn’t work out too well as they can hardly resist each other. When Teddy hurts his ankle at work, Bear steps up as a Daddy Dom taking care of his ‘boy’ unofficially. Teddy enjoys Bear taking care of him, especially when Bear slips and calls him baby boy. Teddy doesn’t understand the significance until his best friend Tony explains that Barrett is a Daddy Dom.

Teddy starts doing his research about the Daddy/ boy dynamic. The more he learns, the more he sees this is the connection he’s been missing. Teddy makes the decision to get his Daddy to see him as the perfect boy. Bear can no longer resist, once he sees his boy’s acceptance of their power play. He falls right back into his Daddy role with such ease. Sparks ignite between Daddy and his boy, their connection is effortless and they fall into their roles seamlessly.

Teddy adapts to the Daddy/ boy lifestyle as if he was living it forever. It definitely doesn’t hurt that he has the most amazing Daddy, who always puts his boy’s needs first. They continue to build their relationship and it grows exponentially with the time they spend together. They hit a bit of a snag, when Teddy finds out that his exes are in the process of adopting a child. This brings about all of Teddy’s insecurities and feeling unworthy. Barrett is sad to see his boy so tormented. He decides to show him how grateful he is to have Teddy in his life, by officially asking him to move in.

They enjoy the newness of their relationship and explores the lifestyle by visiting Barrett’s old kink clubs. This opens up a new world of possibilities for Teddy. He indulges in new experiences and being more open with his sexuality and his exhibitionist side. He revels in belonging to his Daddy and finds a newfound joy in being a Daddy’s boy and taking his punishment spankings and orgasm denial when necessary. This was certainly a feel good story that had me smiling the whole way through and very emotional at times. Barrett, the ever patient Daddy Dom was always there to soothe Teddy’s fears and insecurities. In the end , Teddy’s confidence and happiness was unshakeable because of his Daddy’s love. I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.

No Angel ( No Shame 5) by Nora Phoenix

Title: No Angel Word Count:167 pgs
Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:Indy and his chosen family are celebrating the holidays…in true No Shame style.

It’s time to say I do, and Indy couldn’t be more excited. Side by side with Noah, Josh, and Connor, he’s proud to take his vows with their friends watching.

But his post-wedding bliss is rudely interrupted when his past once again comes back to haunt him. And not just him, Connor gets some shocking news as well that leaves him reeling.

Before they can all share the best Christmas ever, they’ll need to come together as one family.

No Angel is the fifth book in the No Shame series, a continuing series that needs to be read in order (start with No Filter). You can expect the usual sexy shenanigans, some suspense, and a whole lotta love and emotions as we reconnect with all characters from the previous books.

My Review: The boys are back and even hotter than before. It starts out with Indy and Josh having wedding jitters. They are both about to marry the men of their dreams, Noah and Connor. To the world this looks like a joint wedding of two couples. It really is a melding of 4 souls joining together to form one whole. Connor is no longer jealous of the special relationship that Indy has with Josh. To them, it’s as natural as breathing and they come together seamlessly. Both Connor and Noah are finally understanding that they all need this connection and bond that keeps growing for all of them. Instead of dividing, it has actually brought them closer together, they are now a family. This also includes the trio that they have let into their lives , Charlie, Brad and his ‘daddy’ Miles. Although unconventional, all of these relationships are being fostered in a safe environment that has allowed them to flourish.

News that there is a contract out on Indy’s life once more threatens to shake their foundation. Connor, Noah and Miles who are the ‘man’ of the house decide to hire private security to ensure their ‘boys’ are safe. They all agree that the security needs to be kink friendly so that they won’t need to curtail their lifestyles. They find a Dom named Wander who is very open minded, but it is still an adjustment and causes some embarrassment for some members of the household. This tests the true strength of the triad relationship when it comes to light that Miles is a bit embarrassed of his relationship. Brad is deeply hurt that his ‘daddy’ would deny the special part of their relationship…. his need of his consensual use and debasement. Miles knows he needs to atone for his mistakes so he asks Connor to dole out his punishment. Although unconventional for a Dom to ask another Dom for punishment, this is his way to prove his worthiness to his ‘boy’.

Even more earth-shattering is when Connor’s mom calls him out of the blue. She says her final goodbyes and tells of the end of her affiliation with the mob. Connor takes this as a premonition of bad things to come and he is indeed right. After giving herself over to police custody, she confesses to her crimes of murdering the remaining Fitzpatricks and then some. This is her last act of protecting Connor and proves her unfailing love in her own way. She later commits suicide. This is heart-rending for Connor, but his men are there to pick him up. Connor is shattered and he doesn’t do well with grief. It is Noah who pulls him in the right direction to express his feelings.

Indy comes up with a game where everyone in the house gets their ultimate sexual fantasy. It is through these sexy times where Connor and Noah finally become intimate with each other and boy was it intense. Intense in a good way and cathartic at the same time. It was definitely a balm to soothe Connor’s hurt and put him back together again. Blake and Aaron was also featured and they also get their happy ending. Aaron proposed to his master who accepts. They have a winter wonderland wedding on Christmas eve where Blake gets the chance to officially collar his ‘puppy’ with a diamond encrusted pink collar. This was certainly the best Christmas holidays for all these men who’ve come together and formed this beautiful family. I give this my ratings of 5- bring out the vibrators cause there is lots of hot sex. I absolutely loved the perfect end to a perfect series.

New Beginnings (Second Chances 2) by Megs Pritchard

Title: New Beginnings Word Count: 244 pgs
Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb: Ben Parker
After the murder of his friend and a failed suicide attempt, Ben is left grief stricken and struggling to cope with his guilt.
Living with someone he barely knows, he lashes out and eventually leaves unable to accept the positive changes in his life after spending time on the streets.
When he realises that he can’t go back to his old life, Ben returns to the new home he’s been provided, hoping Geoff will let him return.
Accepting help, Ben begins to process and come to turns with everything he’s been through and also his developing feelings for Geoff, the man he is now living with.

Geoff Foster
Having taken in a broken young man, Geoff struggles to help him and control his growing attraction. When his offers of help are thrown back in his face, Geoff is horrified when Ben walks away, leaving with no intent to return.
Geoff, never expecting to see Ben again, is shocked when he discovers that Ben wants another chance and is willing to accept his help to move forward from his past.
As their relationship develops and deepens, each discovers emotions they didn’t know they were capable of feeling. When Ben’s past comes back to haunt him and threaten what they are building together, will it break them or make them stronger?

This books contains homosexual relations, swearing and historical abuse.

My Review: Ben Parker has been living a rough life. He is a homeless prostitute who has just lost his best friend Adam to a violent death. He feels guilty for not protecting Adam from his untimely demise. Being a rent boy on the streets of Manchester is not without its dangers, but before his death Adam was taking excessive risks that could have been avoided. They usually work in pairs so one can watch the other’s back while he’s busy with a customer. Ben takes Adam’s death to heart and has attempted suicide. He was lucky enough to be found by his other friend Tom who just got out of the lifestyle.

Geoff Foster has a lot on his plate. He has recently taken over his father’s law firm where he is one of the solicitors. To top it all off, he has acquired a new houseguest. Geoff offered to help Tom and his boyfriend Seb to take care of Ben when he was released from hospital. It’s been 2 months though and Ben doesn’t seem to be getting better. Geoff thinks that he has bitten off more than he can chew and he now realizes that he doesn’t have the tools to help Ben. It is becoming clear that Ben is not only dealing with his failed suicide attempt, but also his time spent on the streets and the horrors he lived through.

Ben is in a very dark place in his mind. He is almost catatonic and refuses to eat. He just lays around wishing he was dead. He is plagued by the ghosts of his past. Ben keeps on reliving the horrific abuse both physical ,verbal and emotional that his mom and step father doled out. The main thing that’s been embedded in his brain is that he is useless and not worth the air he breathes. He is starting to believe his stepfather’s words. Especially now he thinks that he has failed Adam in letting him die.

Geoff is at his wits end and calls in the help of a professional psychiatrist. She comes in and explains the 5 stages of grief to him. She doesn’t get much out of Ben, but he does agree to see her again and she suggests a journal. Before she leaves she reminds Geoff not to push too hard with Ben. It doesn’t take long for that to happen with Ben being in such a volatile state of mind. Things go downhill fast when he is introduced to Geoff’s brother who let it slip he knows about Ben’s past. Ben is furious and feels betrayed by Geoff. He stormed out into the night and Geoff worries he has gone back to his old life. Geoff finds out he is not wrong, when he finds Ben going into a stranger’s car. Geoff muscles him away from the car and takes him back home. He gives Ben two choices: stay with him or go back to the streets. Sadly, Ben packs a bag and leaves.

Geoff is disappointed, but he knows he has to let Ben go. He understands that there is no helping someone if they don’t want it. Geoff is worried about Ben and he hardly sleeps. It isn’t until a week that Geoff comes home to the sound of the shower running. He is shocked to see Ben, but he is so relieved. According to Ben, even though he knew that staying would be his best option, he needed to go back to the streets. He felt that was what he deserved, but being homeless again was an eye opener for him. Ben knows now that he no longer wants to live like that. He hasn’t the will to fight to survive anymore on the streets. He wants to fight to live now. Ben started writing in his journal and its as if a dam has broken. It helps him to process his pain. He explains the horrors of his childhood to Geoff, the reasons that led him to living on the streets. It is clear that Ben is ready to accept the assistance and move forward.

Ben and Geoff slowly get to know each other. The attraction that has been simmering from day one, is finally revealed when Ben kisses Geoff. Geoff puts a stop to it before things get too far , there are things he needsto explain to Ben. Geoff lets him know that he would love to be in a relationship with him, but he needs Ben’s submission. Ben is wary, but Geoff explains the aspect of the BDSM lifestyle he adheres to is dominance/ submission rather than pain. Geoff gives Ben time to come to terms with the lifestyle and gives him some websites to research. Ben is nervous, but he knows deep down inside he would relish giving total control to Geoff. When he finally hands over his submission to Geoff , it is a beautiful experience. Geoff cherishes Ben and shows him that through his submission, he is actually freeing himself. It is all about Ben and his gratification.

For the first time, someone takes the time to give Ben pleasure.He is overwhelmed with Geoff’s lovemaking and the care he takes. Ben is still worried, because he is yet to reciprocate. Geoff proves to him how much he wants him the next night. All that pent up passion and dominance overflows when Geoff ravishes him. This unleashes something within Ben, causing him to be so desperate and scream for his lover. It is utter bliss for them both. They are perfectly suited.They go over a contract together outlining things that they want to try and their hard limits.

Ben knows he needs to move forward with his life in all aspects. One of the things he needs the most is closure after Adam’s death. Geoff suggests that they need to bury Adam whose body is still left unclaimed. Ben also come to the conclusion that if he wants to feel like an equal to Geoff, he needs to finish up his education so that he can pursue a career. They continue their explorations of the physical side of their Dom/sub contract. Geoff schools Ben on being the perfect submissive for him. Kinky handcuffs come in play while Ben addresses Geoff as Sir. It is such a turn on for both of them and Ben ascertain that this is what he has been missing all along.

Their relationship enters into another realm when Geoff decides he wants to introduce Ben as his partner. They go to one of Geoff’s high class work functions and Ben is remarkably nervous. It is clear how proud of him Geoff is, so that soothes his frazzled nerves a bit. That peace soon shatters when one of his former regular customer recognizes him. The man corners Ben in a bathroom and try to blackmail him into sex and Geoff into selling his business. As hard as it is for Ben, he acknowledges that he needs to trust and believe in Geoff’s love for him. They have both professed their love for each other and there will definitely be challenges. They just need to face them together and they can conquer anything. I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.

One Man’s Trash (The Heretic Dom’s Club bk 1) by Marie Sexton

Title: One Man’s Trash              Word Count: 343 pgs

Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:After four tours in Afghanistan, Warren Groves couldn’t settle into civilian life. For the last twelve years, he’s survived by working odd and often illegal jobs for some of Denver’s less fortunate. His personal life is equally unsatisfactory. He can barely remember the last time he had sex, let alone the last time he got to use somebody hard and rough, the way he likes. Fate intervenes when a favor for a friend leads him to a pretty young rentboy named Taylor Reynolds.

Taylor’s spent the last few years on his own, working as a hustler, going home with anybody who’ll give him a warm meal and a place to sleep. He enjoys having a bit of force used against him, and he makes Warren an offer he can’t refuse — all the sex he wants, as rough and dirty as he likes, in exchange for room and board.

At first, Warren thinks he’s struck gold. Taylor’s the perfect roommate — he cooks, he cleans, and he’s dynamite in the sack. But Taylor has some dark demons in his head and some even darker cravings. Falling for somebody as volatile as Taylor is dangerous enough, but when Taylor’s urges turn truly self-destructive, it’ll be up to Warren to decide just how far to let things go.

My Review: Nobody knows more than Taylor how messed up his life is. Taylor lives each day bouncing from guy to guy, trading his body for his next meal and a roof over his head. Taylor engages in a lot of self destructive behaviors. When Warren, ex army vet finds him at his friend’s Phil request Taylor he is standing at a glory hole servicing a bunch of guys at the same time. He seems to be in utter bliss. When Taylor gets a good look at Warren , he offers him the same deal he had with Phil before – sex on demand for room and board.

 Warren is not traditionally handsome, he has a few scars and he has a rough look about him. In short, he is big and scary, but that’s certainly a part of the appeal for Taylor. Taylor loves rough sex, it’s usually the only way he can find sexual gratification. Warren hesitates their first time together, but he can’t deny the fact that he’s very attracted to the sexy little twink. Warren is very dominant and Taylor is definitely not afraid to be submissive. He is instantly aroused when Warren ties him down and get a bit rough with him. They embark on a very tumultuous journey, where they live as roommates with Taylor keeping house while Warren gets to slake his lust after a hard days work. Warren’s job is a bit unconventional, but he feels useful working security for a few hookers. He is usually very worked up after listening to them have sex all night. Taylor has the benefit of being the one he comes home to.

They have a great few weeks where they each know what they are both getting out of their deal. However, Taylor has a dark side and when he gets bored that dark side seeps in until it takes over. Taylor becomes uncontrollable and the only thing that seems to fill that void is copious amounts of hardcore sex with faceless strangers. He becomes quite violent and breaks Warren’s tv during his first episode. Warren is shocked to see the state Taylor is in , he is begging for Warren to hurt him. It is intense, but Warren refuses to give him exactly what he needs. Warren punishes him with a flogger and ties him down and penetrates him roughly. It puts Warren in an uneasy state but he can see that it eases Taylor’s tension a bit. Taylor is blissed out and he feels guilty for his behaviour. 

Taylor confesses some of his deep dark secrets to Warren about the incestuous relationship that he had with his older brother. Warren sees how troubled Taylor’s life has been. He sees the ‘relationship’ for the abuse that it really was, but Taylor associates it with love and safety. Taylor talks about some of the taboo acts that his brother James did to him, which he thought was done out of love. It is clear to see the act of sex and love is twisted and definitely tainted in Taylor’s mind.  

Things continue normal for awhile and the two confess their growing feelings for each other. Warren lets Taylor know how much he loves him, flaws and all. Charlie another one of Warren ‘s friends ask him to help take care of a drug addict called Riley who is ready to kick the habit. This takes up a lot of Warren’s time and Taylor soon becomes bored. Taylor wants to help and demand Warren take him along. Taylor proves to be more of a help than Charlie and Warren, because he actually holds Riley’s hands and helps him emotionally. Taylor tells Riley about his past activities of selling himself for a roof over his head . This draws them closer and they bond over their ‘flawed selves’. They become friends and Riley seems to be getting better. Warren warns Taylor that Riley might relapse, but Taylor chooses to believe in Riley and have faith.

Taylor soon realizes that the easy camaraderie and friendship that they have is akin to what real brothers must be like. His subconscious can’t seem to handle this and the blackness overwhelms him again. The episode he has this time is much worse than the one before. This one leads him back to the place it all began. Warren finds him back at the glory hole servicing quite a number of men. The blackness causes Taylor to crave anonymous sex. He relishes pain and shame, it is the only thing that seems to fill that void for Taylor. Warren is shocked but he loves Taylor enough to give him what he needs.

Warren takes Taylor home and calls a few Doms and their friends over. He gives Taylor what he needs , albeit in a safe environment. Warren ensures that all the men wear condoms while he stands aside and watch. Taylor is insatiable and it doesn’t seem to be enough. It takes all the men having their turn to make Taylor feel almost at peace. In the end it is Warren who fills the void when he professes his love and gives Taylor his secret forbidden desire of a golden bath. Watersports is not Warren’s scene but he remembered when Taylor exposed his deep dark secrets he mentioned how loved he felt when one of the men peed in his anus while they had sex. 

Warren feels wreaked after this experience. He knows that the next time the blackness overwhelms Taylor he won’t be able to provide this. When Riley overdoses, Warren knows he needs to express his love to Taylor in a way that will fill that void inside of him. He claims Taylor’s body through his love, he allows him to see it as the temple that it is. Warren lets Taylor know that he will never give anybody the chance to abuse him ever again. This was enlightening, it was certainly dark and depraved in certain parts, but overall I really enjoyed this and surprisingly felt connected to both of these men. I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.

Sin & Saint ( Executioners 4) by J.M.Dabney

Title: Sin & Saint                           Word Count: 176 pgs

Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb: Eric and Ellison Gant, better known as Sin and Saint, were opposite sides of the same coin. They epitomized the nicknames given to them by their friends in the band Executioners. One thing Sin and Saint did well was fight, and being inseparable meant they had a lot of disagreements, but one thing they agreed on was that Sheriff Camden Pelter was theirs. The older, stoic man didn’t agree, yet they were determined to change his mind.

Camden Pelter had the daunting job of turning the Powers Sheriff Department around. The residents of the Georgia town didn’t have much faith or respect in the deputies serving them. That’s where he came in, and he was determined to do his job. That was easier said than done with two annoying brothers, Sin and Saint, who dogged his every step. No way in hell was he getting mixed up in the chaos that was the Gant Twins. Now if only he could get them to listen and realize they didn’t have a chance of changing his mind.

My Review: From the very first moment that Sheriff Camden Pelter laid eyes on the twin temptations of the Executioners band he has been leery. Cam has been running away from Eric commonly known as Sin and Ellison otherwise know as Saint for three long years. The twins bring out Cam’s protective instincts, but what he is even more scared of is his dominance that rears its head every time Sin & Saint are around. Cam also can’t get over the fact that they are way too young for him. Sin & Saint are more than 20 years his junior.

Sin is definitely the more outgoing flirty one of the two. It is Saint’s shy vulnerability that draws Cam in. It is a known fact that you can’t have one without the other. Cam knows how threesomes work, he has seen perfect examples of Scary’s relationship with Tank and Elijah. Scary is Cam’s cousin and he has never seen him happier than when he’s with his husbands.

It is certainly not surprising when Cam ends up in Scary’s office looking for advice on how to deal with his beautiful twin twinks. It doesn’t take long for the Twirled, Brawlers and Trenton Crews to place bets on what’s going down. Linus barges in and give Cam some advice as well. It all comes down to honesty, honesty is the key to making any relationship work. Cam listens intently to Scary and Linus, because both have not just one but two husbands. Linus is very happy in his triad relationship with his partners Wren and Hunter. It was great catching a glimpse of my favorite triads of all time.

Cam invites the twins over for dinner. They are both ecstatic, but Sin loves watching his shy twin with their man. Cam notices for the first time how Sin uses his brazen personality as a shield to protect both Saint and himself. Cam finds every opportunity to give them each one on one time. Their time together is very erotic and Cam ensures that all their kinks are taken care of. It comes natural for both his boys to call him ‘daddy’. Cam gets a thrill hearing his boys calling out his name. They all take care of each other and it’s clear that Cam is proud to call them his own. Soon , they are talking marriage and kids after meeting the twins’ mom . Cam proposes to his boys after professing his love. The boys are excited to getting started on moving their stuff to Cam’s home. All their plans are put on hold when the Trenton crew let’s them know that Cam is in danger.

It’s all hands on deck for this daring rescue mission. Saint pilots the chopper while Sin rappels out with a few of the Trenton crew to save their man. Cam is hurt but he will live. He wakes up fuming, hearing that his boys have put themselves in danger for him. When he thinks about all the possibilities he goes a bit crazy and shuts them out. It takes two weeks for him to come to his senses. All the crews are mad at him, It is Bull the patriarch of the Brawlers who talks to him, showing him the error of his ways and letting him see how short life is.

There is no hesitation as Sin & Saint welcomes Cam with open arms. They forgive their man effortlessly as soon as he promises to take them home. Their Christmas wedding goes off without a hitch with all the crews in attendance. Nine months after, Lou , the only surrogate for the crews gives them another beautiful addition baby Elisabeth. A truly enjoyable end to the Executioners series, I give this my ratings of 4-lose the underwear.

Consent by Bruce Rose

​Title: Consent                         Word Count : 40,510

Genre: Dark Gay Romance/ BDSM

Blurb:Only desperation could drive him to commit such a crime…

Lonely survivalist Travis Winslet has everything in his underground bunker, everything but a companion. Determined to get his needs met at any cost, Travis decides to hunt for a man the same way he does for food. When he spots a blond-haired, blue-eyed cutie who matches his requirements, he acts. Only to find his target wants to be tied up and abducted.

Kinkster Skye Randall paid his Dom for a kidnap scenario, never expecting he’d come through with a captor who was just the right combination of scary and sexy. But there’s more to his abductor than just a man willing to fulfill all of Skye’s darkest fantasies. When Travis asks for Skye’s consent, Skye realizes the true power of giving himself to his master and what it really means to be submissive.

But what will happen when Skye discovers Travis isn’t the man his Dom hired?

My Review:  Skye has been searching for most of his adult life for the perfect Dom. He yearns to have his kinky fantasies fulfilled. He goes on a camping trip with his friends, hoping that his part- time Dom who he pays will finally step up and do something intriguing.  Skye has suggested a role play where he gets kidnapped and used hard by his kidnapper.

Travis has been searching for something as well. He is overwhelmed by his need to kidnap someone without getting caught. His motive and plans for his victim are far from sinister. He just wants to push the boundaries of fear, knowing that his victims are his to control without hurting them. When he stumbles upon Skye camping, he has no idea that he has hit the jackpot  with this victim. Travis bides his time.

Skye realizes the futility of his hope of a kinky role play when his Dom Warren doesn’t show up.  Feeling rather dejected, Skye decides to relieve himself in the woods and then head off to bed. Skye is definitely  shocked and a bit nervous when Travis nabs him. His nerves come into play when he realize that the man behind him is not Warren. Skye is turned on by the grittiness and hint of danger he hears in his captor’s voice. When he is allowed to see the man’s face , he is surprised at the kind eyes that stare back at him. At this point Skye is definitely excited and elated, believing that all his dreams  are about to come true with this sexy mountain man.

Travis finds it strange that Skye is not putting up much of a resistance,  but the truth is revealed after talking to him. He realizes that Skye has mistaken his intentions as a part of his role play fantasy with Warren. Travis does not correct him. He can’t believe his luck on finding someone like Skye who is willing to play right into his fantasy. The more he talks to Skye is the more he sees how perfect he is for him.Travis shows Skye new perspective on  pleasure. He uses orgasm denial and this heightens their explosive chemistry. They talk about their wants and needs and Travis encourages Skye to live the life he’s  always wanted to live. Their connection is out of this world and they both fulfill each others fantasies. Travis feels so close to Skye , but he knows it can’t last because of his lie of omission. 

After 3 days of bliss,  Travis let’s Skye go. Skye is hurt and confused as he thought they had something that they could build on. Travis gives Skye a warning to value himself more and to be more careful. Everything is finally  revealed when Skye’s friends tell him that they thought he had died at a fire that broke out at the campsite. He realizes what a true snake Warren really is when he goes home and finds most of his stuff stolen by Warren. Skye puts all the pieces in his mind together  and acknowledges that the kidnapping was actually real. He combs through his time spent with his sexy mountain man and he doesn’t blame Travis for his actions. Skye understands the lonesome life that Travis must  lead living at his hidden bunker away from civilization. 

Skye tries to acclimate himself back to his old life, but all his routines feel tiresome. He decides to take Travis’ advice  and do things that make him happy. It takes 3 months for him to decide to try to find  Travis. He  misses him desperately . Skye experienced so much happiness , peace and contentment in 3 days than he ever did in his whole life. He sets out to find Travis’ hideaway. When Skye finds him , he offers himself up wholeheartedly to Travis. Travis knows that how he met Skye was very wrong, but it was also the most perfect unique circumstance for them. They both accept each other’s faults and foibles and love each other despite them. I really enjoyed these two characters and I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.

Stealing Innocents by Cari Waites, Lisa Henry

​Title: Stealing Innocents                        Word Count:70,700

 Genre: Gay Romance

Blurb:Those who dare to scratch the surface of ordinary, everyday life may be horrified to find a sick underbelly beneath—a nightmare world populated by villains and victims, predators and prey, where the rules of society no longer apply.

Where you’ll find people like Danny, the boy who sells himself to pay for his father’s gambling debts and ends up in a situation more twisted than he ever imagined. Or Troy, the cop whose obsession with saving a brutalized human trafficking victim turns deadly. Or Drew, the mental patient who begins to suspect his nightly delusions of abuse by his doctor are actually real. Or David, the cuckolded husband who decides the best way to get revenge is to seduce his wife’s barely legal son.

Stealing Innocents is an exploration of our darkest human impulses, where sex is power, love is horror, and there’s no such thing as a happy ending.

READER DISCRETION ADVISED.

This collection contains three edited second editions stories that were previously individually published, plus one all-new story, by Lisa Henry writing as Cari Waites.
 My Review: When Danny is sold to the man who his father owes insurmountable gambling debts, he learns how irrevocably his life has changed. From the very first moment he meets Archer, he understands the true meaning of ownership. The first thing Archer does is to place Danny in a cock cage  and demand that he be addressed as ‘ Sir’. Danny who is a 18 yr old virgin has never been  exposed to the world of BDSM. He is extremely confused when he is placed in a childlike room. He is further confounded when  Archer explains that it is for his own benefit since he had a horrible role model for a father. From night one Danny is made to understand that he won’t be eased into the lifestyle gently. Danny is forced to learn how to pleasure his master and is breached with an  anal plug without any gratification for himself. This is just a prelude for things to come.

Danny learns a fine lesson in humiliation and degradation on his second day in Archer’s household. He certainly can’t reconcile the changes he sees in himself in such a short space  of time. He yearns for the torture that his body undergoes when he is caned and simultaneously stimulated by the anal plug. Archer shows him that there is a thin line between pain and pleasure. Daniel submits to Archer and quickly fall into subspace where everything feels like an  out of body experience. Danny continues to learn harsh truths about his body and his tolerance. He is exposed to many unknown tools and practices such as enemas, sounds , fisting and orgasm denial that  causes humiliation but titillate his senses as well.

At first, Danny sets out to please his master only to avoid punishment. However, he soon realizes that in the nether recesses of his mind, he is embracing this part of himself that he has only just acknowledged. Danny meanders between feeling ashamed and dirty while reveling in the ‘special’ relationship he has with ‘daddy’ Archer. That is until he remembers this situation is not of his own free will. When Archer decides to share his new slave with his business associates, Danny becomes a little bit combatant.

Archer shows Danny how well and truly he is owned. Archer proves to him that he has no agency in their relationship and the more resistant he is, the harder it will be for Danny. Daniel experiences all forms of debauchery at the hands of his ‘daddy’ and he is denied all gratification. This is where he understands that the only pleasure  he will gain is by living vicariously through his master.

There is a juxtaposition between the old Danny and the new Daniel.Danny realizes that he is losing the will to fight. Self preservation kicks in and he decides to hide away that part of himself that makes him Danny. He cloaks Danny under the skin of Daniel, the one who thrives on being a good Daddy’ s boy. However, there are times when the spitfire Danny pushes through and this always leads to punishment. He shows resistance when Archer takes him to a tattoo parlour. Without knowing the plans that his daddy has for him, Danny defies him. This proves to Archer that Danny still has not learnt how to trust him wholeheartedly. Archer is very disappointed that his boy still does not believe that daddy knows what’s best for him. At that very moment, Danny glimpsed his biological father going into a well known gambling den. Danny is truly broken by this sight, because it means that all his sacrifice was for naught. He now has to reevaluate his arrangement with Archer and figure  out what is the true purpose of his debauched life. That night, Danny cries for a father that still has not learnt his lesson, but things are now clearer in his mind.

Everything comes to a head the next night when Danny is put on his knees to service Archer and his associates. The last guest arrives while Danny is taking care of his ‘daddy’s needs and it’s none other than his father Clyde. Clyde is disgusted by seeing Danny this way, but what is even more disgusting is when he suggests that he should have gotten more money for  basically selling Danny into this lifestyle. The true monster reveals himself and any love that Danny felt for his father in that moment was extinguished.

Danny’ s eyes have truly opened up and he now gains insight into the life he has been living with Archer. Archer treating Danny like a child was his way of giving Danny a rebirth for the childhood he knew Danny had lost at the hands of his father. Danny always had the responsibility of dealing with an addict for a father, rather than embracing a carefree childhood. Archer gave Danny a chance to be a child again in order to be the man he was always meant to be. Danny realized that he got a new identity by being  ‘daddy’s’ baby boy Daniel. For the first time, he thinks he is really ready to embrace Daniel and every nuance that comes with this persona.

Daniel regains his agency in the most unexpected way. He kills the man that he now sees was the poison in his life. Clyde is dead and Daniel is freed of all charges. He is also free to make the decision to be his daddy’s boy. Archer will allow him to be the man that will be his partner in everyone’s eyes, but at home Daniel will be the perfect daddy’s boy.

 I am still not sure how I feel about this book. It  was so horrific that it was good. This was very well written.It was nitely a page turner and not for the feint of heart. It is really heavy on the BDSM elements, violence and abuse. It was weirdly good and I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.  

P.S. This review was only for the first story. I found that the other short stories were too inhumane. I was not able to review them as they made me a little bit sick to my stomach.

Men in the Shadows 4: The Porn Star by Rain Carrington

Title : The Porn Star              Word Count : 382 pgs
Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : Sammy is looking for the man who could make him feel the way Neil had, and finding it impossible. A secret admirer starts to leave him roses and notes, stalking him. Sammy is intrigued, but with college, his job at his father’s garage and his new tutoring gig, he doesn’t have a lot of time to guess who it could be. Secretly, though, he hopes that it is Neil, who he couldn’t stop wanting.
He finds out and soon begins to explore his kink, to be watched. A video is uploaded to a website and attracts the attention of a porn producer. IS this Sammy’s big break, or will it end in heartbreak?
The student Sammy starts to tutor is a rich and difficult man named Andrew. Andrew disregards and berates anyone who crosses him, including the new personal assistant his father hired to “babysit” him.
Tom is a former Marine with a secret agenda, keeping him in the job with the privileged man he doesn’t know if he’d rather slap or kiss. Once Andrew’s parents announce their impending divorce, Andrew goes off the rails, only to find Tom there to catch him.
Through the last two years, Malcolm and Kirk have lived and loved, but when Sammy asks Malcolm to keep a secret from his big lover and his biker brothers, including Road Dog, Sammy’s father, Malcolm agrees, only to be found out and losing everyone who mattered the most to him. Can he and Kirk find their way back to one another, possibly with the help of the big Marine they met through Sammy?
Secrets, intrigue, murder and unspeakable acts abound in this final installment of the series. Three couples unite and are put to the test by family, friends and new jobs. Can three men come out stronger or end up another casually of their Men in the Shadows?

My Review : This book really showed how to bring the two halves of our ‘selves’ together and how to reconcile the disparity between the two. First of all, we meet Sammy who is a sweet young man who seems to be lost. Sammy has been hurt by a former lover and has decided to cure his pain by sleeping around. This helps him for a time, but lately he has realized that these encounters are leaving him unfulfilled. When Sammy starts getting notes from a secret admirer, he has to admit that he is somewhat intrigued. He tells his best friend Malcolm who seems to be worried for Sammy. He suggests that it could be the work of Sammy’s former lover Neil. Sammy agrees with Mal, but even though he still feels hurt over Neil’s betrayal, deep down he hopes the notes are from him. Sammy goes through his everday life as usual, going to college, working at his father’s garage and doing some tutoring to a spoiled brat named Andrew.
Things come to a head when Neil reveals himself as Sammy’s secret admirer. Sammy’s immediate reaction is to walk away from Neil as he knows no good can come from it. Neil persuades him and begs him for a chance to apologize. Neil is sorry for the way he betrayed Sammy. He knows that he messed up before and got Sammy’s friend Malcolm hurt, but he was also the one who helped find Malcolm when he was kidnapped. Sammy wants to forgive Neil and he realizes that he is still very much in love with him. He is in a quandary, because he knows that his family would definitely not appreciate him getting back together with Neil. Sammy’s father Road Dog, belongs to a biker gang, and he has forbidden his son to ever speak to Neil again after all the problems he caused the family .
Against his better judgement, Sammy decides to give Neil another chance and take things slowly . Neil is ecstatic that he gets to be with his sweet Sammy again. They agree to keep their relationship a secret for the time being. Things are going great with them and within no time they have totally reconnected. Neil is the only man that has been able to bring out Sammy’s kinky side, he is a bit of an exhibitionist. Neil caters to Sammy’s exhibitionism by filming their passionate lovemaking and uploading it to a porn site with Sammy’s approval. Sammy is beyond excited to see the thousands of views that their video has gotten. This sparks a flame within Sammy which can no longer be tamed.
In the meantime, another relationship is being formed between Sammy’s spoiled brat student Andrew and his live in bodyguard Tom. Andrew comes from a family of wealth and he is rude and disrespectful to everyone. He is over priveledged and his father has paid his way through life. He is failing his classes and Sammy realises that the true problem lays in the fact that he can’t read. Andrew goes through life ,covering his failings by being rude and not letting anyone get close to him. He pushes everyone to their breaking point, so that they will eventually leave him. This did not work with Tom, who he thoroughly pissed off with his attitude. Tom is a former marine and a Dom and he is absolutely fed up with Andrew’s disrespect. He is outraged and resorts to his natural inclination to discipline. It isn’t until he starts spanking Andrew and hears him screaming and sees the tears roll down his face , that he realize he does not have the right to discipline him. He starts to apologize, but he sees something in Andrew’s eyes and demeanor that appeals to him. Andrew thrives on punishment and their is a sparkle in his eyes that was never there before. Tom decides to hone Andrew’s submissive nature and turn him into the perfect slave . Tom wants to be his master so bad and soon sees the reality coming through.

It was truly an awakening for both of them to see the rich snobbish attitude taken over by the true mindset of what it means to be a perfect slave to his master. Andrew knows that his true purpose in life is to service Tom in all aspects of his life. Tom initiates Andrew to the life of a slave surrounded by like minded friends. Andrew endures a lot of pain with all the devices used by master Tom and his mentor, but he relishes it and receives pleasure as well. Andrew’s lessons in submission is definitely not for the feint of heart. Tom is a hardcore Dom and there is a lot of pain play , hot wax play amongst other things that I couldn’t fathom. However , the one thing that resonates with me is the open love that these two men experienced once both of their dreams are fulfilled.
Sammy’s feelings for Neil are becoming overpowering and he feels he can no longer hide his relationship from his family. To say his father was upset is a true understatement. Road Dog walks away without speaking to his son. His confession also opens a can of worms when it is revealed that Malcolm kept his secrets. Malcolm’s husband Kirk who is a member of the same biker gang as Road Dog believes that keeping secrets from his biker brothers is a true breach of trust. This causes a rift in their marriage and Malcolm walks out on Kirk. I was really sad to see this as they are my favorite characters.
They have been through a lot and they are really a solid couple.
They all have to pull together when trouble comes in the form of Andrew’s rich daddy. He is the head of a pharmaceutical company that developed a drug that can ‘cure the gay away’. Finding out that his son is gay would definitely cast a shadow on his wonder drug causing him to lose money, so he decides to have his son killed. This is where Malcolm comes up with the brilliant idea that the members of the biker gang could protect Andrew for a fee. It was very interesting to see the different kinds of friendships that were formed amongst these three couples. They all faced the dangerous ordeals with the support of their friends. They endured and came out victorious as three devoted couples. Tom was able to find his perfect slave in Andrew. Neil was able to cater to Sammy’s kinky side and this allowed Sammy to appreciate the man he knows and loves. Kirk was able to reaffirm the strength of the bond that he has with Malcolm.I give this my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear.

Rent Me 2: Own Me by Brina Brady

Title : Own Me                Word Count : 344 pgs
Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : Russian mobster Dmitri Dubrovsky married ex-rent boy Bren. Jealousy is still a big issue for both of them. They fear that the other will find someone better and leave. Dmitri’s ex-boyfriend Viktor is still in love with him and hates Bren. Viktor sets out to cause problems and make Dmitri and Bren question their love and commitment to each other. Bren tries to be the best sub, but feels Dmitri doesn’t take him seriously. Some BDSM elements.

Dmitri gets even more possessive when Bren works with his favorite ex-client from Forbidden Desires Escort Agency. To complicate matters, Russian mobsters threaten the Dubrovsky family.
New Cover on this book.

My Review : It would seem that Brennen and Dmitri still have a lot of kinks to iron out , even though they are newly married. Their kink level is extremely high and Brennen spends most of his time enduring some form of corporal punishment or another. Dmitri is even more controlling and possessive than ever. When he finds out that Bren will be associating with his former favorite client from his rentboy days, Dmitri is uncontrollably jealous. He places Bren in a cock cage and a locked anal plug.
Bren becomes infuriated when he thinks that Dmitri might me cheating on him with his ex boyfriend Viktor. They have a long standing rivalry over the sexy Dmitri. Brennen goes after Viktor with guns blazing, literally. Bren goes all crazy on Viktor, and it takes the two brothers Mischa and Dmitri to calm Bren down. Mischa is as confused as ever about Dmitri and Bren’s relationship, he doesn’t understand the BDSM element to their love and he doesn’t condone it especially when Bren is being punished.
Bren’s past comes raring it’s ugly head in the form of his former abuser who happens to be Dmitri’s older brother Adrik. All their lives seem to be entangled and Dmitri is forced to have a relationship with Adrik as danger threatens to strike close to home. Bren is also forced to reconnect with Adrik in order to help out a newfound friend.
The master / slave dynamic becomes more pronounced in Dmitri and Bren’s relationship . It produced some very intense, very hot sexual situations. Also, it brought them closer in a way that nothing else did. It is clear that Bren not only needs discipline, he thrives on it and it solidifies their union causing bonds that are unbreakable. However, Bren’s quicksilver temper and Dmitri’s overbearing possessiveness soon leads them into another fight.

There is absolutely no doubt about it that Dmitri and Bren are oh so hot together, but it gets a bit exhausting watching them fight and make up so many times. Their makeup is almost instantaneous when Bren gets in trouble and has to ask Dmitri to bail him out. Dmitri does that without even blinking an eye , because at the end of the day he loves Bren like no other. Things really start heating up and after a kidnapping attempt on Bren, Dmitri makes the decision to move all of his family members to Germany for awhile. Bren and Dmitri have a lot of issues, but they stand strong in the face of adversity and their love seems truly invincible. I give this my ratings of 3 – it was ok, give it a try.

Favorite Quotes : 1. “That’s it, boy,” Dmitri said. “Stick that cute little ass in the air. I’m going to smack my big balls against those tight round cheeks. I could fuck you till you pass out and I’d still be shoving my big dick into your wet hole.” ( Nothing like a bit of dirty talk to get Bren’s engine revving.)

2.“Good boy. Now come on, open up more for me. I want to get in deeper. Swallow my cock with your wet boy lips. I’m going to come deeper inside your ass.” Dmitri wrapped his arm around Brennen, stroking his cock faster. Dmitri twisted Brennen’s nip rings with his other hand, bringing moans of pleasure from him. He shifted hands, holding his hairless balls while pulling his foreskin back as far as possible. The pain and pleasure caused Brennen to moan in delight. He spread his legs wider, allowing Dmitri fuller access. “Ahh—I’m coming,” Dmitri shouted. Dmitri flooded him with his cum, igniting Brennen to spill his load in five quick spurts. Brennen made animal grunting sounds as his cum landed in Dmitri’s hand. He milked Dmitri until he pulled out. Both rolled into each other’s arms. ( These two were meant for each other, they are soooo hot together.)