Troubled Waters (Pine Cove 2) by H.J.Welch

Title: Troubled Waters         Word Count:284 pgs
Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:Scout Duffy doesn’t know what’s worse. The fact that his scorching one-night-stand is his bratty new client, or the fact that he doesn’t even remember Scout. But beneath all the bravado, Scout can see Emery is terrified, and he’ll do anything to protect him from his attacker. If only he would lower his walls and let Scout into his heart as easily as he lets him dominate in the bedroom.

Being out and proud his whole life means Emery Klein has never been safe. But now his charity work and social media fame has put a target on his back from bigots, and his friends force him to hire a private bodyguard. Emery doesn’t need to be judged by some straight former-boxer , but his attraction to the gorgeous hunk is insatiable. When Emery finally recognizes Scout, they can’t keep their damn hands off one another, if only for as long as Scout’s in town.

There’s a reason Emery never looks too closely at the men he sleeps with, just like there’s a reason Scout lives out of a suitcase in motel rooms. Will two men hiding from hurt realize the love that could heal them both is right in front of them? Or will Emery’s attacker take everything before they have the chance?

Book Two of Pine Cove. Troubled Waters is a steamy, standalone MM romance novel with a guaranteed HEA and absolutely no cliffhanger.

My Review: Emery Klein is no stranger to having bathroom hookups at the gay hotspot ‘Aquarium’ in Pine Cove. His hometown may be small, but it’s very well rounded and has quite a few LGBTQ friendly establishments. Aquarium just happens to be one of his favourite places to blow off steam. He has his target locked and loaded once he spies the butch sexy looking marine type on the dance floor. Emery sashays his fabulous twinky Asian ass over and offers his proposition. ‘No means yes and yes means harder’ ,  when Scout Duffy hears these words from the magnificent cutie in front of him, he’s flabbergasted yet intrigued. Emery sees the spark of interest in the man’s eyes and pushes his game. He encourages Mr. Sexy to take him to the bathroom and have his kinky way with him. Before they get down and dirty, Emery gives him the safeword ‘guppy’ in case either of them want to stop their kinky fun. 

Scout realizes that they haven’t even exchanged names, but the little firecracker has him so hot and bothered he can’t think straight. Being an ex-boxer turned bodyguard is  a very demanding job for Scout. He decides to enjoy this gift that the beautiful sexy little twink has offered. They both come together in a fiery passion. For Scout , it’s his first time experiencing this exhilarating and fun side to sex. It is certainly a memorable moment for him. Emery is surprised that he’s found this specimen that exudes such dominance, but also handles his body with such care. Although this hookup proves to be orgasmic and all that he’s ever dreamed, Emery tries not to focus too much on the man or take in any details. He stares at the lone wolf tattooed on his partner’s arm , but that’s all he would possibly remember. As soon as their passion culminates, Emery gives his partner a kiss as a thank you and walks away. Scout is in orgasmic bliss and stupefied at their kinky encounter that he misses his chance to go after Emery.

After leaving the club, Emery goes home alone to find his door ajar. Emery is scared shitless and is ready to run, until he thinks of his poor defenseless little hedgehog being left behind. Emery is able to free the hedgehog, but he is left with a mild concussion when the stalker in his house gives chase. He ends up on his best friend’s Ava’s couch where she informs him she has hired him a bodyguard. Emery is left feeling vulnerable after his attack. There are rips in the armour that has always protected him. He is certainly not enthused to meet his bodyguard and refuses to curtail his lifestyle, no matter how many hate mail he receives.

Scout is ecstatic to be reunited with Emery, when he realized its the guy he can’t stop thinking about. All his protection instincts come to the fore when he thinks how scared Emery must be. This soon turns to devastation when Scout sees there is not even a flicker of recognition in Emery’s eyes. Scout is definitely hurt, but he knows it’s for the best since he needs to maintain a professional distance. Emery is such a brat, he takes out all his frustrations of the upheaval in his life on Scout. A man who Emery believes has lived an all American lifestyle and is the quintessential picture of machismo. He unfairly judges Scout on stereotypes and preconceived notions that he’s drawn based on his outward appearance. Scout sucks it all up until Emery pushes too far in his game of trying to seduce ‘the straight guy’.Scout has had enough and uses the safeword that Emery gave to him when they hooked up the first time. Emery is stunned silent as the pieces of random memories start to fall in place.

Emery has been primed by life to always enshroud himself in armour. His flamboyant ways proclaim him as loud and proud, but he uses it as a way to keep people at a distance. When he finds Scout, their encounter is not only passionate but meaningful.For the first time Emery is open and honest and letting someone in. He explains his insecurities that he’s always been plagued with concerning him being Asian and ‘fem’. He explains why he challenges gender binaries through non conforming. He embraces his ‘fem’ side and it sets his beautiful soul free.

There are unexplored depths to Scout, Emery soon finds out. When Scout talks about his father’s physical abuse against him as a child. How he was forced to become unnecessarily aggressive through boxing as a means to protect himself and his mother. He was never seen to be ‘manly’ enough for his father. Not ever really knowing his own self worth. This is one of the reasons he enjoys when Emery praises him as a Dom. Finally, he knows he’s doing a great job and it pleases him to know he’s taking care of Emery.

Emery and Scout have a fun loving, playful relationship with Emery usually being a brat. Scout loves this side of Emery and he truly embraces it wholeheartedly. They are a match made in heaven, turns out they are two halfs of a whole. Emery finally gets his fairytale ending with Scout spoiling his ‘princess’ with his bling bling. I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.

Livingston (Trenton Security 1) by J.M. Dabney

Title: Livingston Word Count:186 pgs
Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:He was the Beast without the escape clause.

Francis “Liv” Livingston was a beast. No matter if he wore a perfectly tailored suit or if he was in his tactical gear, people avoided looking at him. He was always first to volunteer for the jobs only a person with a death wish wanted. Tomorrows weren’t guaranteed. His boss had come to him and told him he needed him for a job. Linus knew the jobs he liked, but when he opened the file, it all went to hell.

Beauty was only skin deep.

Fielding Haskell made his way in the world on his looks. He’d earned his first film role before he could read a script. He didn’t want the fame. He wanted to go to college. He wanted a man who didn’t look at him and see how pretty he was. Unfortunately, a so-called fan only cared how attractive he was, and it earned him a personal bodyguard and a vacation. He looked forward to the break until he met the man in charge of his safety and wondered if the danger he left was worth dealing with a sudden attraction to a man who was colder than ice.

My Review: Liv has lived in the shadows, ever since he was a boy and his crazy cultish mother lit his bed on fire. He has burn scars on 75 percent of his body.Liv’s always stood apart from the rest of the Trenton Crew and the other Crews, even though they are a brotherhood in every sense of the word. He knows compared to his crazy handsome counterparts, he is the ‘beast’ of the lot. With all the Crews pairing up lately and raising families, he holds out no hope that will be his future. Liv takes all the suicide missions that his boss Linus hands out and he loves his solitude. From the moment he lays eyes on Fielding Haskell he knows he’s in trouble.

Fielding Haskell is an up and coming movie star who is in need of protection from a stalker. His parents want to protect their interests in their meal ticket. They try to control all aspects of Fielding’s life especially his weight gain. Fielding is practically half starved in Liv’s opinion. He is petite and androgynous and something in his demeanor calls to the dominant in Liv. Liv tries to be professional, because he knows there is no sense in an attraction between them. After all he is the ‘beast’. How could the most beautiful man love him or could he?

Fielding is intrigued with the man named Liv. He sees his scars and feels empathy for the pain he must have endured. Fielding is a very tactile person and all he wants to do is to touch the scars to feel the smoothness against his cheek. He wants to feel the hair that grows on only the one side of Liv’s body. Fielding feels an attraction to the big sexy gruff man who he knows is off limits. Being enclosed in Liv’s rustic cabin allows Fielding to feel a sense of freedom he has never known. He instinctively defers to Liv’s dominance and trusts him to do what’s best for him. Liv gets a taste of what it would mean having a ‘boy’ of his own for the first time. Can he have an ‘ever after’ like all his other paired up brothers?

When Liv goes on a mission and leaves Fielding alone , he gets a true understanding of the responsibility of being in a relationship. All he can think about is returning safely home to his ‘boy’. Having a gun shoved in his face, certainly put things in perspective for him. Once he gets home, in spite of his insecurities, Liv knows he needs Fielding for however short-lived it will be. Liv surprises Fielding with an induction to the crews on their Sunday bike ride. Fielding feels so free and safe with Liv. Liv opens up about his scars while Fielding talks about how he is a prisoner in his own everyday life. Fielding shares his dreams of wanting to be a normal person without restrictions on his diet or actions. Their idyllic bliss is interrupted when they receive a new note from Fielding’s stalker. Liv is furious and it drives him crazy to think he might have put his boy in danger. They come up with the ruse of faking Fielding’s death to draw out his stalker.

Liv knows this is the time to make Fielding his in every sense of the word. His daddy is certainly not gentle and he relishes the feelings and all the passion. Fielding embraces every bit of pain,because he knows he is seeing the true Liv. Fielding offers up his virginity freely , because he knows he’ll never find another Liv. It makes him sad his daddy doesn’t want to keep him, but he doesn’t push for more. Fielding lives in the moment and the passion between the two is incendiary.

Fielding is worried about the man he thinks of as his ‘daddy’ when the team notices that Liv is not checking in. Their feelings overwhelm them as soon as Liv walks through the door, he is jumped by his boy who is ecstatic to see his daddy safe and sound. Liv takes Fielding to the woods to stay with his even crazier friends Horace and Freddie. Being in the woods gives Liv even more freedom. They end up giving a passionate performance of their lovemaking to the voyeuristic duo . Seeing Liv’s imperfections and Fielding’s beauty tantalizes them, making them have hope for themselves. After a week of roughing it, Liv decides it’s safe to go back to the cabin.

The stalker has become desperate and he uses Little , another member of Liv’s team to get to Fielding. He snatches him from right out of their office building using the guise of visiting Little. Fielding is surprised he knows his kidnapper, he was a child star he worked with years ago. It doesn’t take the team long to find Fielding. Liv is spitting mad and wouldn’t hesitate to eliminate the stalker if Sheriff Camden Pelter didn’t hold him back. Liv takes his boy home and pampers him, knowing that he has to let him go soon. What does a man like Liv have to offer someone like Fielding? The answer comes to him from the matriarchs Lily and Peaches who impress upon him his true worth as a son , brother, friend and lover.

Within moments of coming to pick up Fielding, his parents pour on the insults about his weight gain.Liv doesn’t even hesitate to order his boy back to his side. Finally, he sees the truth , there is nobody else who can take care of Fielding like he can. He acknowledges that he loves his boy unconditionally and only he can provide for all of his boy’s needs. Fielding is ecstatic and can’t wait to continue his life with his daddy. For sure, there will definitely be a wedding put on by the matriarch.I give this my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear.

Only See You ( Only Colorado 2) by JD Chambers

Title: Only See You Word Count: 246 pgs
Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:“I might not be every gay man’s wet dream, but I always get a second look.”

Mal Copol knows who they are: Nonbinary. Awesome. Exhausted. They won’t change for anyone, but just once, they’d like to be the one with relationship potential, not the hookup. Also, not having to fight employers on who they are and how they present themselves would be nice. And while they’re at it, add not getting raised eyebrows at their high heels and tasteful makeup while discussing their latest rock-climbing trip to the wish list. Is that really too much to ask?

“Here I am at twenty-seven, embarking on life, version 2.0.”

Parker McWilliams is breaking free from the constraints of his former life and wife. He’s recapturing his zest to try new things and experience everything to the fullest, instead of the complacency he had fallen into over the past nine years. If one of those “new experiences” happens to be with a certain beautiful and intriguing nonbinary person, well, Parker’s just going to roll with it. Anything contrary to his past life is a good thing.

Mal and Parker keep surprising each other every time they meet. Despite their differences, neither has any interest in fighting their attraction. But when circumstances threaten to keep them apart, the couple must decide if that attraction is enough to overcome the obstacles they face.

My Review: Parker McWilliams has been trying to pick up the pieces of his life since he ended his marriage to his horrible Stepford wife Shelby. He packed everything and moved clear across to Colorado to move in with his gay cousin Zach. They have not always been the closest or seen eye to eye, but they both realize it was Shelby who was the problem all along. For the first time since he was 19, he is no longer under the shroud of Shelby’s control and influence. Parker has been meeting new friends and he has been reforming his self image all on his own. He is on his way to finding his true self.

On the day his cousin Zach moves out to live with his boyfriend Craig, Parker meets yet another new face. Mal Copol is one of Craig’s friends who is helping out. Mal identifies as non binary and uses ‘them, they’ pronouns. Parker is a bit confused at first and unknowingly offends Mal. Mal sets him ‘straight’ as they see that Parker is not trying to be offensive, he just doesn’t understand. Mal is intrigued by the sexy straight guy, but he knows it’s not meant to be so he sets his sights on Ben, Zach’s best friend and Craig’s current roommate.

When Mal and Ben’s date take a disastrous turn, Mal ends up taking home a drunken Ben. Mal is disappointed and a little bit upset that Ben would get so drunk. They call on Parker to help get Ben up the stairs. Parker willingly helps, but he is also upset on Mal’s behalf. He feels bad that his roommate made this sweet guy feel so crappy. Parker offers Mal coffee and one thing leads to another and before he knows it , he is pleasuring Mal. This is the most selfless and spontaneous that he’s ever been and it’s a great feeling. He is surprised at himself , since he has only ever been with one woman. Mal is blown away, they can’t belief that this sexy straight guy turns out to be slightly bent. They have never been with someone who treats them with so much care. However, they chalk it up as a one off experiment.

It isn’t until a dinner party a few weeks later when Mal sees Parker again. Mal is at an all time low after just losing yet another job due to his gender identity. Just being around Parker puts a spark in him. By the end of the night, they are getting hot and heavy in the backseat of Parker’s Volvo. For both of them, hottest sex ever…. until they are interrupted by a cop who gives them a warning. Parker feels like he’s living his teen years again in the best way, with all the fun ,spontaneity and frivolity that it brings.

Mal and Parker become even closer when they take a road trip for Parker’s father 60th birthday. Mal is on the journey as a distraction from Parker’s divorce. When they get there , Parker’s mother insistence on asking about Shelby drives him up the wall. However, it soon becomes clear that something is seriously wrong with her confused, muddled state. It hits Parker like a ton of bricks when his father explains that his mother has early onset Alzheimer’s. When they get back to their hotel room, Mal takes care of Parker helping him to relieve his tension. Their lovemaking is exquisite and something that is so so erotic and enlightening for Parker. There is laughter and playfulness, something they’ve both never experienced before. There is a definite connection between these two.

Their relationship progress nicely while they both realize they have a lot in common. They do lots of fun, outdoorsy activities and of course Mal takes lots of selfies. It is one of these pictures that would prove to be their downfall. Shelby sees one of the tags with Mal kissing Parker on the cheek and goes ballistic at one of their settlement meetings. Parker’s lawyer lets him know that she needs to check out Mal’s background so they can be on the offence. Mal is extremely upset about this as it doesn’t seem like Parker plans to fight for them. To top it off, Parker has been thinking to move back to help out with his mother’s illness. Mal is devastated, but he decides to let Parker be free to make his choices unencumbered.

Things are left unresolved between them and they both go their separate ways. Parker is trying to settle into a routine with his mom. In her lucid moments , they talk and she encourages him not to give up his life and go after Mal. It’s when Parker gets a chance to talk to her doctor who tells him that his mother could live for another 20 yrs while her condition slowly deteriorated. Parker realizes how selfish his father has been in manipulating and guilting him into becoming her permanent caregiver. When Mal has an accident while ice climbing, Parker rushes to their side.

Mal is ecstatic that Parker has come to be with them, but they’re not sure what it means. When Mal sees the vulnerability that shines through when Parker tells them that they mean the world, their heart leaps. Mal is overwhelmed with emotion that someone finally sees the true them. Parker accepts all of them and he is no longer afraid. He is ready to embrace his new identity and shout it to the world. Parker decides that for the new version of his life , he wants to live with Mal, loving him and exploring all the outdoorsy adventures they can find. With his mother’s blessing he gets her a living caregiver and move back to Colorado to his new loft with the love of his life, Mal. His divorce to the Stepford witch is final and he can embrace his freedom as Mal’s partner. I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.

Contour ( Shape of You 1) by Meg Harding

Title:Contour (Shape of You 1) Word Count:200pgs
Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:Jamie “Roxy” Albright has one great love in his life and room for no other. He lives and breathes makeup. Men are nothing more than temporary distractions and romance… well, that isn’t worth his time. With a burgeoning career as a YouTube makeup artist opening doors to never before dreamed of opportunities, time isn’t something Jamie has and distractions aren’t something he can afford.

Instagram model and shirtless wonder Tyler Jackson is quickly falling for elusive Jamie. How it went from a seemingly innocent message to feelings, he’ll never know. Their chemistry is instant and fiery hot, and Tyler’s never been that good at self control. The challenges are endless, though. There’s Jamie’s walls to break through and a country worth of space between them. And just when things are starting to look up, life throws a wrench in the works.

My Review: When internet sensation Youtuber make-up artist Jamie decides to comment on an instagram photo of the model he’s been crushing on, he’s not sure what to expect. Tyler is surprised to see that the androgynous snarky make-up artist his ex girlfriend idolized has commented on his pics. Tyler is bisexual and since he’s single , he decides to see what’s what. He likes what he sees of Jamie even though their personalities are vastly different. Jamie is aloof, doesn’t give much away and is very much an ‘ice princess’. On the other hand, Tyler is the all American jock everyone loves. He is super kind, always talking to his fans and very personable. Tyler’s a dog lover and has two beautiful dogs that seem to be well loved. For some reason , this is a huge draw for Jamie.

They build up a rapport through text messages and the chemistry seems to flow between these two. Tyler knows that Jamie will be a hard nut to crack, but he just keeps on opening up , hoping that will pull Jamie in. Tyler goes for a visit to Jamie’s city and Jamie is definitely nervous wondering if things are going to get weird. For Jamie, sex is not a biggie and that’s what he tends to lead with, without the intimacy. Things are a little bit different for Tyler, he is not into one night stands, he is more of a relationship kinda guy. Things definitely get hot and heavy between the two, but Tyler also ensures that Jamie gets a proper first date. It is clear that their chemistry is off the charts, but Tyler knows that Jamie uses sex as a defense mechanism. He decides to change that, he doesn’t allow Jamie to hide behind the sex. For the first time , Jamie is exposed to intimacy and it is certainly scary but deep down inside he craves this with Tyler. Tyler sees that Jamie is freaked out the morning after, so he promises no commitments, but rather that they take things slow and see where it goes after he goes back home to Nashville.

They continue their relationship via texts. Things get downright dirty when Jamie returns the favour by visiting Nashville. Their reunion is explosive, there are no holds barred and their romp in bed is carnal and messy in the best possible way. Things get pushed in the right direction when they decide to do a makeup challenge for Jamie’s YouTube channel where he introduces Tyler to the world as his boyfriend. Their romance is absolutely a whirlwind but it works for them. Jamie meets Tyler’s best friend Dan who cautions him to take care of Tyler’s heart. Jamie is honest that he knows nothing about commitments and relationships, but he knows he wants to try with Tyler. They make further plans to backpack across Europe, after Jamie finishes up a business deal which he is signing with Lush.

Jamie opens up more to Tyler on the Nashville trip, but there is still a wall in place. When Jamie’s mom finds out about Tyler, she’s a bit negative in her advice. Jamie thinks the world of his mom, who raised him single handedly by being a stripper. It is obvious that his relationship purview has been skewed from all her negative relationship advice over the years. He has been taught to use sex for power and fun without the intimacy attachments. Their Europe trip starts off with Jamie being upset with his mom and reevaluating everything he’s always known about relationships. When Tyler calls Jamie out on his foul mood, Jamie makes the decision to open up for the first time with Tyler.

Jamie waits until they get to their hotel room to explain what’s going on. He opens up to Tyler about his past and the way his mom brought him up and some of the morals she instilled. One of the main things is to never depend on anyone and that romantic love is a choice, where you leave yourself open for heartache and pain. As he speaks the truth he has always lived, Jamie realizes how isolated a life he has been living. Tyler acknowledges where Jamie is coming from and opens up about his own addiction riddled mother who doesn’t really play a role in his life other than being a leech for his money. Tyler lets Jamie know it is okay to be scared of all these new relationship feelings he is having. He realizes that Jamie is at a crossroads , feeling conflicted about what he thought he knew about commitment and relationships.

There is one thing that Jamie is certain of , Tyler deserves to have a place in his life. He grasps what he wants, titillating Tyler with his lacy thongs. Tyler can’t get enough of this sexy man who brings out the caveman in him. Two weeks together have them seeing all sides of each other. They tour Europe doing all the cute couply things. It is inevitable that there will be some unguarded moments between them. The moment has finally arrived, Jamie goes totally bare before Tyler. Baring his face is akin to Jamie baring his soul for Tyler. Jamie never lets anyone see him without his makeup. Makeup has turned into his shining armour that protects him from all hurt and pain.Jamie lays himself vulnerable for Tyler and it’s a beautiful thing. Tyler knows in his heart he has fallen for this beautiful man, but he knows Jamie is not ready to acknowledge yet what he might be feeling.

They soon find out the true hell that a long distance relationship can be, especially between two young up and coming professionals.With their busy schedule, they can barely make time to text, much less skype. Knowing that he might lose Tyler doesn’t sit well with Jamie. That’s when he realized that love and romance with Tyler was never a choice. He has unavoidably and irrevocably fallen for this kind spirited, supportive sexy jock. Jamie lays his soul bare for Tyler professing his love. In the end, Tyler makes the decision freely of uprooting his life in Nashville to be with the man of his dreams, his true love Jamie. I give this my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear.

No Shame( No Shame 4) by Nora Phoenix

Title:No Shame Word Count: 333pgs
Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:(This is NOT a stand alone novel. See end of this description for details) Brad feels nothing but shame about himself. Shame about his sexual needs, about his reputation, about his medical problem no one knows about. No one, except his best friend Charlie, but no matter what feelings Brad may have for him, he’s not going there. Charlie deserves so much better, and Brad desperately needs something not even Charlie can provide.

Charlie has loved Brad forever, but he’s never acted on his feelings, unsure of where he stood. Plus, there was the complication of his boyfriend. But when his boyfriend’s abuse gets too much for Charlie, it’s Brad who helps him escape and recover.

Miles ends up severely wounded in the line of duty as an FBI agent. He’s floored when the man he was protecting, Indy, opens his home to him so he can recover. Indy also sets him up with Brad, who turns out to be a perfect solution for Miles’ sexual issues…until Miles wants more than sex from him, and a developing friendship between Miles and Charlie complicates things even more.

Bit by bit Charlie and Miles break through Brad’s defenses, until they come crumbling down. Miles will have to prove he can provide what Brad needs, and Charlie’s sweet love will be put to the test. But when Brad finally finds the courage to break free of his shame, will the fragile love that has blossomed between the three of them survive?

No Shame is a steamy M/M/M romance that ends with a happy ever after for all characters, including those from the previous books in the series. It’s the fourth book in the No Shame Series, and is NOT a stand alone novel, so make sure to read the first three books first (No Filter, No Limits, and No Fear). It contains hot sex, a ménage, a little daddy kink, more hot sex, and a poly-amorous relationship that transcends labels. Also: trigger warning for mentions of domestic abuse, sexual abuse, and rape.

My Review: Three different men, with three vastly different personalities. They all come with baggage, but they mesh seemlessly. We’ve been introduced to all three before, we have Miles the FBI agent who was a part of Indy’s protective detail. Indy saved his life when he got shot, he also offered him a place to recover since he has no family. We have Brad, Blake’s younger brother, a mild mannered math teacher who comes off a little bit abrasive in social situations. The only person who brings out Brad’s gentler side is Charlie, his best friend. Charlie is also recovering after his cop boyfriend Zack beat the living daylights out of him. Indy, Josh, Connor and Noah has opened up a section of their ranch style home to these three.

Miles has a tiny little problem, he has an overly hyper sex drive which leaves him tenting his trousers throughout most of the day. So far he hasn’t met anyone who can handle him. That is, until he meets Brad; Brad has a nasty reputation around town of being a ‘cum slut’ , he craves being used. Indy requests Brad’s help with Mile’s little problem which can become quite painful if tensions aren’t released. Brad is only too happy to help. Miles is still in the hospital the first time he experiences Brad’s oral prowess. He is very impressed and looks forward to Brad’s visits. Miles is curious to know more about his mystery man when he finds out they are cohabiting the same house . When he tries to spark up a conversation with Brad, he is immediately shot down. Brad lays down the law, letting Miles know it is just sex, nothing more. Miles is very disappointed as he feels a connection with Brad.

Miles come to realize that there are underlying problems that causes Brad to be so prickly. It is his slow friendship with Charlie that allows him to see things more clearly. Right away , he recognizes how in love Charlie and Brad are , but they can’t see it for themselves. Even though they have been friends for awhile, Brad dares not cross the line of friendship. He fears he is not good enough to be with Charlie. Brad has issues with psychological erectile dysfunction after a former bout of testicular cancer. This holds him back and he is very insecure about being worthy. Brad also suffers from abandonment issues when it comes to having a family. He believes that everyone he loves will leave him or trade him in.

It is a long road for Brad and the struggle is real as he continues to fight his identity. It is Miles who pinpoints what he really needs. He implements a Daddy/boy dynamic when he factors in all the issues Brad’s endured in the past. Miles is spot on and ‘Daddy’ lures his ‘boy’ in. Brad feels a sense of peace the first time he gives up control to his ‘Daddy’. There are two aspects to their kink however, Charlie realizes that Brad also craves being his little slut. It is Charlie who pulls this element of kink out of Brad through his dirty talk and bossiness. Brad lives to service his men and this is where he thrives. The status quo is definitely thrown out with these three. The strong macho Marine Miles loves to bottom for the ‘twinky cross-dressing’ Charlie who is more a defined top. Then we have Brad who has always been in control and takes care of everyone, he yearns and relishes being a ‘boy’ to his daddy.It is amazing watching the dynamics between these three unfold. Although, Charlie and Miles develop more slowly, it is no less intense.

When Connor gets some devastating news, it is wonderful to see how this makeshift family rallied around taking care of each other. Noah goes with Connor to be his strength. It was gut wrenching watching this strong man crumbling, but Noah was there to pick up the pieces. Miles was left as the ‘Dom’ in charge and between him and Indy, they were able to get Josh into ‘subspace’. The house and family have definitely expanded as Indy, Josh, Noah and Connor has offered this new trio a place in their lives , hearts and family. This kinky lot have all been blessed with the greatest treasure of all, LOVE. A wonderful end to a series that embraces all types of kink. It closes out with Indy and Josh proposing to Noah and Connor respectively. I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.

No Fear (No Shame 3)by Nora Phoenix

Title: No Fear Word Count:325 pgs
Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb: Aaron is drowning. After coming out as gay, he lost his parents’ approval, his job, and his sense of identity. He feels like a freak who doesn’t fit in anywhere. His last hope was his brother Josh, but Josh can’t seem to forgive him for how Aaron treated him when they were teens. Not that Aaron can blame him, because he did treat Josh like crap.

All Aaron wants is for someone to accept him, guide him, because he doesn’t have a clue. When sexy jiujitsu teacher Blake takes him in and starts mentoring him, Aaron has hope for the first time, even though he can’t understand what Blake sees in him.

Blake doesn’t do relationships. At all. He’s more than willing to help Aaron find solid ground under his feet, but that’s it. Until insecure, vulnerable, and surprisingly sexy Aaron gets under his skin, triggering all kinds of protective instincts that make Blake long for more. He wants to take care of Aaron, give him what he needs, but how can he convince Aaron of that?

When Josh’s friend-with-benefits Indy’s past finally catches up with him, it endangers them all—and leads to heartbreaking decisions for everyone involved.

No Fear is a steamy M/M romance that ends with a HFN for Aaron and Blake, but has a continuing storyline as well. It’s the third book in the No Shame Series, and is not a stand alone novel, so make sure to read the first book (No Filter) and the second book (No Limits) first. It contains hot sex, a little kink, more hot sex, very mild puppy play, and a beautiful friendship-with-benefits that transcends labels. Also: trigger warning for mentions of sexual abuse.

My Review: We were introduced to Aaron Gordon in the previous installment of this series. We met him as Josh’s younger brother who turned his back on him when he came out. First impressions of him were that he was a spoiled brat who comes from an uber religious family. He comes off as being a self entitled kid who got everything handed to him. Now that he has come out himself, his parents kicked him out. Aaron is no longer the golden boy and he is rudely awakened to some of the horrors faced by many gay men around the world. On his first foray out to a club, he is beaten badly and gets a few bruised ribs for his troubles. Aaron shows up on Josh’s doorstep and even though they are not close, Josh lets him stay for a bit. Things are very tense for awhile and it soon becomes clear it’s not gonna work. Aaron is perceived to be very lazy and expects to be taken care of. He doesn’t have the wherewithal to clean up his own mess. It is Josh’s boyfriend Connor who steps in and gives him an ultimatum: pay his own way or he has to stay somewhere else. Josh finds him a safe space to stay with Indy’s juijitsu professor Blake Kent.

Blake seems to be a very rigid man , but he has a very kind heart and he looks out for others and champions the weak. He opens his home as a safe space to people who have been abused. Blake is empathetic to Aaron’s situation, but he soon loses patience with his slovenly ways. Blake takes Aaron to task, letting the arrogant young man know he needs to pull his own weight. After Aaron cleans the studio without complaining, Blake heart softens when he realizes that Aaron is trying. After a very candid conversation, Blake understands that what he saw as arrogance is actually Aaron’s vulnerable insecurities coming through. Aaron is a lost puppy, who has lost all his sense of self and identity.

Blake gives Aaron carte blanche to ask any question he wants. This leads to some sexual explorations when he finds out that Aaron is still a virgin. Blake decides to pay it forward and lead this innocent young man into a gay new world. First order of business is to get Aaron some sexy underwear and a new wardrobe. After careful scrutiny, Blake deduces that any form of sexual identity that Aaron might have formed while living with his parents would have been eradicated. Blake sees through the fear of rejection and perceives that Aaron may possibly want to identify with a more gentler, feminine side of himself. He knows he is spot on when he sees the joy on Aaron’s face when he tries on a more feminine wardrobe. This also brings out Aaron’s sexy side. Aaron is feeling a new sense of self and decides to have the sexy dominant Blake relieve him of his virginity. Blake decides to give him a taste of the gay nightlife first to see other options before he takes on the much coveted job of v-card defiler.

Aaron knows from the moment he steps in the club that there is no other man for him. He sways sensually to the music and Blake knows right away that he is willing to break all his rules for this sexy Aaron. Blake knows that there is definitely something building between them that defies his no relationship rule. He is certainly intrigued by this sweet cuddle puppy who has turned into a terrier. When they start getting too frisky for the dance floor, Blake makes the decision to take sexy Aaron home. He is on his way home when he noticed something weird at his studio. Someone’s trying to break in, he stealthily creeps in and overheard them talking about finding Indy. Blake knows he has to warn Indy.

It is the middle of the night and its clear to see that Blake has woken up my favorite quartet. Blake is a little bit shocked to see the openness and sexual familiarity displayed by these four men. It makes him curious about their relationship. When he explains what’s happening,it is Josh who comforts Indy by kissing him. Looking at Noah, it is obvious that he isn’t upset at Josh kissing his boyfriend Indy. The same goes for Connor when he walks in. The easy camaraderie amongst these four is clear. They use sexual banter and nuance to comfort each other. What Blake is envious of is the love he feels radiating from all of them. However, it is very tense between the two brothers Josh and Aaron. The pot finally boils over when Josh lashes out at Aaron for not standing up for him when they were younger. Aaron is brought to tears and he apologizes for hurting Josh. It is Indy who appeals to Josh, showing him that Aaron was only a scared 15 yr old boy then. Blake cuddles his ‘puppy’, letting him know he is no longer alone. Blake sees deep inside his boy, knowing the pain he carries inside is keeping him from embracing his true sense of self.

Blake knows that with all the pain Aaron has endured, he just needs someone to take care of him. Blake takes Aaron on a date and he loves the connection that he feels with this needy young man. Something in Aaron calls to Blake and he explains the BDSM lifestyle, especially the daddy/boy dynamics. It doesn’t quite fit though;when Blake explains about puppy play, all the pieces snap into place for Aaron. Puppy play definitely resonates with Aaron and accounts for all the weird, clingy, needy feelings he is prone to feeling.Blake decides to step up to the plate and fulfill this need in his boy, which surprisingly calls out to the dominant nature within himself. Before they can go home to explore the new dynamics in their relationship, Aaron asks to stop by to check in with Indy and his men.

They aren’t there for too long before chaos ensues. The men who are hunting Indy show up. Blake jumps into the fray and disarmed two of them, but gets shot in the process. Connor kills 3 of the men. Indy knows he can no longer put his men in danger. He decides to go into witness protection. Blake is seriously hurt and flatlines twice. Luckily, Noah is there to pull him back. They are all in their own world of hurt. Aaron is constant and just like the ‘puppy’ he is, he never leaves Blake’s side. Everyone starts noticing how ‘clingy’ he is. Blake’s brothers Burke and Brad make derogatory remarks about Aaron. This brings up all of Aaron’s insecurities causing him to flee from the only home he has ever known. Blake is furious and takes his brothers to task for their judgement. Blake expresses his love for Aaron and continues to text his ‘puppy’. Aaron is so far gone in his loneliness, he drives quite a few states away and find a job at a motel.

Everybody’s world seems to be imploding.Connor comes up with a plan for him and Josh to free Indy, but it involves being separated. Connor has quit his job and gone back to the criminal elements of his past life in Boston.Indy has gone into witness protection and is in an unknown location fending for himself. Noah feels like he is losing himself, especially when he finds out that Josh has to be booked in a psychiatric ward for his PTSD. Blake is recovering slowly and missing his ‘puppy’, but he diligently sends text messages on an hourly basis letting him know how much he is missed.

It only takes Aaron a month to figure out what the sentiment behind Blake’s messages mean. Even though Blake hasn’t said it outright, Aaron knows he is loved. As soon as Blake opens the door, Aaron knows he is home. A sense of peace flows over him as soon as he is back in Blake’s arms. Blake presents him with a gift of a perfect pink collar and matching leash to welcome home his puppy. Aaron is at peace with himself and his unique needs and he is definitely ready to embrace his true identity. The sexual energy between these two is very palpable and showcases the full extent of their trust and love for each other. I really enjoyed how naturally the puppy play aspect was introduced by the author. It was not overly salacious, just two men being in love and freely expressing that love ,as it should be.

Indy once again proves to be a superhero trapped in his little ‘twinkie’ body when he ends up saving himself as well as a federal agent Miles who will star in the next upcoming book of this series. The plan Connor has set in place is perfectly executed without any of the key players falling under suspicion. At last, Indy is free, all the men of the Fitzpatrick clan who has hurt and hunted him are dead. I can’t wait to see the fabulous quartet that is made up of Indy , Noah, Josh and Connor reclaim their lives. Another amazing addition, the next one will be a threesome, can’t wait. I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.

One Man’s Trash (The Heretic Dom’s Club bk 1) by Marie Sexton

Title: One Man’s Trash              Word Count: 343 pgs

Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:After four tours in Afghanistan, Warren Groves couldn’t settle into civilian life. For the last twelve years, he’s survived by working odd and often illegal jobs for some of Denver’s less fortunate. His personal life is equally unsatisfactory. He can barely remember the last time he had sex, let alone the last time he got to use somebody hard and rough, the way he likes. Fate intervenes when a favor for a friend leads him to a pretty young rentboy named Taylor Reynolds.

Taylor’s spent the last few years on his own, working as a hustler, going home with anybody who’ll give him a warm meal and a place to sleep. He enjoys having a bit of force used against him, and he makes Warren an offer he can’t refuse — all the sex he wants, as rough and dirty as he likes, in exchange for room and board.

At first, Warren thinks he’s struck gold. Taylor’s the perfect roommate — he cooks, he cleans, and he’s dynamite in the sack. But Taylor has some dark demons in his head and some even darker cravings. Falling for somebody as volatile as Taylor is dangerous enough, but when Taylor’s urges turn truly self-destructive, it’ll be up to Warren to decide just how far to let things go.

My Review: Nobody knows more than Taylor how messed up his life is. Taylor lives each day bouncing from guy to guy, trading his body for his next meal and a roof over his head. Taylor engages in a lot of self destructive behaviors. When Warren, ex army vet finds him at his friend’s Phil request Taylor he is standing at a glory hole servicing a bunch of guys at the same time. He seems to be in utter bliss. When Taylor gets a good look at Warren , he offers him the same deal he had with Phil before – sex on demand for room and board.

 Warren is not traditionally handsome, he has a few scars and he has a rough look about him. In short, he is big and scary, but that’s certainly a part of the appeal for Taylor. Taylor loves rough sex, it’s usually the only way he can find sexual gratification. Warren hesitates their first time together, but he can’t deny the fact that he’s very attracted to the sexy little twink. Warren is very dominant and Taylor is definitely not afraid to be submissive. He is instantly aroused when Warren ties him down and get a bit rough with him. They embark on a very tumultuous journey, where they live as roommates with Taylor keeping house while Warren gets to slake his lust after a hard days work. Warren’s job is a bit unconventional, but he feels useful working security for a few hookers. He is usually very worked up after listening to them have sex all night. Taylor has the benefit of being the one he comes home to.

They have a great few weeks where they each know what they are both getting out of their deal. However, Taylor has a dark side and when he gets bored that dark side seeps in until it takes over. Taylor becomes uncontrollable and the only thing that seems to fill that void is copious amounts of hardcore sex with faceless strangers. He becomes quite violent and breaks Warren’s tv during his first episode. Warren is shocked to see the state Taylor is in , he is begging for Warren to hurt him. It is intense, but Warren refuses to give him exactly what he needs. Warren punishes him with a flogger and ties him down and penetrates him roughly. It puts Warren in an uneasy state but he can see that it eases Taylor’s tension a bit. Taylor is blissed out and he feels guilty for his behaviour. 

Taylor confesses some of his deep dark secrets to Warren about the incestuous relationship that he had with his older brother. Warren sees how troubled Taylor’s life has been. He sees the ‘relationship’ for the abuse that it really was, but Taylor associates it with love and safety. Taylor talks about some of the taboo acts that his brother James did to him, which he thought was done out of love. It is clear to see the act of sex and love is twisted and definitely tainted in Taylor’s mind.  

Things continue normal for awhile and the two confess their growing feelings for each other. Warren lets Taylor know how much he loves him, flaws and all. Charlie another one of Warren ‘s friends ask him to help take care of a drug addict called Riley who is ready to kick the habit. This takes up a lot of Warren’s time and Taylor soon becomes bored. Taylor wants to help and demand Warren take him along. Taylor proves to be more of a help than Charlie and Warren, because he actually holds Riley’s hands and helps him emotionally. Taylor tells Riley about his past activities of selling himself for a roof over his head . This draws them closer and they bond over their ‘flawed selves’. They become friends and Riley seems to be getting better. Warren warns Taylor that Riley might relapse, but Taylor chooses to believe in Riley and have faith.

Taylor soon realizes that the easy camaraderie and friendship that they have is akin to what real brothers must be like. His subconscious can’t seem to handle this and the blackness overwhelms him again. The episode he has this time is much worse than the one before. This one leads him back to the place it all began. Warren finds him back at the glory hole servicing quite a number of men. The blackness causes Taylor to crave anonymous sex. He relishes pain and shame, it is the only thing that seems to fill that void for Taylor. Warren is shocked but he loves Taylor enough to give him what he needs.

Warren takes Taylor home and calls a few Doms and their friends over. He gives Taylor what he needs , albeit in a safe environment. Warren ensures that all the men wear condoms while he stands aside and watch. Taylor is insatiable and it doesn’t seem to be enough. It takes all the men having their turn to make Taylor feel almost at peace. In the end it is Warren who fills the void when he professes his love and gives Taylor his secret forbidden desire of a golden bath. Watersports is not Warren’s scene but he remembered when Taylor exposed his deep dark secrets he mentioned how loved he felt when one of the men peed in his anus while they had sex. 

Warren feels wreaked after this experience. He knows that the next time the blackness overwhelms Taylor he won’t be able to provide this. When Riley overdoses, Warren knows he needs to express his love to Taylor in a way that will fill that void inside of him. He claims Taylor’s body through his love, he allows him to see it as the temple that it is. Warren lets Taylor know that he will never give anybody the chance to abuse him ever again. This was enlightening, it was certainly dark and depraved in certain parts, but overall I really enjoyed this and surprisingly felt connected to both of these men. I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.

Sin & Saint ( Executioners 4) by J.M.Dabney

Title: Sin & Saint                           Word Count: 176 pgs

Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb: Eric and Ellison Gant, better known as Sin and Saint, were opposite sides of the same coin. They epitomized the nicknames given to them by their friends in the band Executioners. One thing Sin and Saint did well was fight, and being inseparable meant they had a lot of disagreements, but one thing they agreed on was that Sheriff Camden Pelter was theirs. The older, stoic man didn’t agree, yet they were determined to change his mind.

Camden Pelter had the daunting job of turning the Powers Sheriff Department around. The residents of the Georgia town didn’t have much faith or respect in the deputies serving them. That’s where he came in, and he was determined to do his job. That was easier said than done with two annoying brothers, Sin and Saint, who dogged his every step. No way in hell was he getting mixed up in the chaos that was the Gant Twins. Now if only he could get them to listen and realize they didn’t have a chance of changing his mind.

My Review: From the very first moment that Sheriff Camden Pelter laid eyes on the twin temptations of the Executioners band he has been leery. Cam has been running away from Eric commonly known as Sin and Ellison otherwise know as Saint for three long years. The twins bring out Cam’s protective instincts, but what he is even more scared of is his dominance that rears its head every time Sin & Saint are around. Cam also can’t get over the fact that they are way too young for him. Sin & Saint are more than 20 years his junior.

Sin is definitely the more outgoing flirty one of the two. It is Saint’s shy vulnerability that draws Cam in. It is a known fact that you can’t have one without the other. Cam knows how threesomes work, he has seen perfect examples of Scary’s relationship with Tank and Elijah. Scary is Cam’s cousin and he has never seen him happier than when he’s with his husbands.

It is certainly not surprising when Cam ends up in Scary’s office looking for advice on how to deal with his beautiful twin twinks. It doesn’t take long for the Twirled, Brawlers and Trenton Crews to place bets on what’s going down. Linus barges in and give Cam some advice as well. It all comes down to honesty, honesty is the key to making any relationship work. Cam listens intently to Scary and Linus, because both have not just one but two husbands. Linus is very happy in his triad relationship with his partners Wren and Hunter. It was great catching a glimpse of my favorite triads of all time.

Cam invites the twins over for dinner. They are both ecstatic, but Sin loves watching his shy twin with their man. Cam notices for the first time how Sin uses his brazen personality as a shield to protect both Saint and himself. Cam finds every opportunity to give them each one on one time. Their time together is very erotic and Cam ensures that all their kinks are taken care of. It comes natural for both his boys to call him ‘daddy’. Cam gets a thrill hearing his boys calling out his name. They all take care of each other and it’s clear that Cam is proud to call them his own. Soon , they are talking marriage and kids after meeting the twins’ mom . Cam proposes to his boys after professing his love. The boys are excited to getting started on moving their stuff to Cam’s home. All their plans are put on hold when the Trenton crew let’s them know that Cam is in danger.

It’s all hands on deck for this daring rescue mission. Saint pilots the chopper while Sin rappels out with a few of the Trenton crew to save their man. Cam is hurt but he will live. He wakes up fuming, hearing that his boys have put themselves in danger for him. When he thinks about all the possibilities he goes a bit crazy and shuts them out. It takes two weeks for him to come to his senses. All the crews are mad at him, It is Bull the patriarch of the Brawlers who talks to him, showing him the error of his ways and letting him see how short life is.

There is no hesitation as Sin & Saint welcomes Cam with open arms. They forgive their man effortlessly as soon as he promises to take them home. Their Christmas wedding goes off without a hitch with all the crews in attendance. Nine months after, Lou , the only surrogate for the crews gives them another beautiful addition baby Elisabeth. A truly enjoyable end to the Executioners series, I give this my ratings of 4-lose the underwear.

Can’t Fight It( The Blueridge Junction Boys 2) by A.D.Ellis

Title: Can’t Fight It                                  Word Count: 334 pgs

Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:For small-town tattoo artist Levi Wells his few forays into love have only brought him trouble. When trouble with a capital T came sashaying into town two years ago in the form of flamboyant young dancer Jay Owens, Levi becomes more determined than ever to stay away from anything remotely resembling a relationship. Especially one with someone so young and different than him.

Two years. That’s how long Jay has been trying to wear Levi down. But, Levi only sees Jay as a thorn in his side and balks at their differences every chance he gets. Luckily for them both, Jay isn’t going to let a little thing like Levi’s reluctance stand in the way of getting what he wants.

Levi is as stubborn as Jay is tenacious and they find themselves at an impasse. When Jay inadvertently gets himself into an unnerving situation, Levi’s protective nature surges forth even as he berates his heart for getting involved. Will Levi stay focused on their differences and keep fighting his true feelings? Or will Jay finally burrow through Levi’s self-imposed walls? One thing is for sure, you can’t fight love.

*Can’t Fight It is a male/male romance meant for ages 18+ due to language, themes, and adult scenes.*
My Review: Jay Owens is certainly a force to be reckoned with, every inch of his glorious twinky self. He’s had his heart set on a certain Tattoo God, Levi Wells ever since he’s moved to Blueridge Junction 2 years before. They have a great group of friends surrounding them and it is obvious how close they are when its Jay’s birthday. Jay is always fabulously flamboyant in his everyday life and it is increasingly apparent when he has a ‘pretty in pink’ party theme.

Jay is always flirty, sassy and overtly sexual whenever he is around Levi. His behavior makes Levi want to run for the hills. Levi doesn’t feel like Jay is his type especially given their 10 yr age gap. Jay heckles Levi and calls him ‘daddy’.Levi is constantly rebuffing Jay’s advances, but his walls are slowly tumbling down when he starts having sexy dreams about the sexy little twink. When Jay makes a thank you toast to his friends at his party, he opens up a little about his younger self and what drove him to Blueridge Junction. Jay’s home life was less than perfect with a drug addicted mother, he was left hungry and alone for the most part. Seeing Jay in this vulnerable light makes Levi want to wrap him up in his arms and take care of him. 

Levi comes to the decision, albeit kicking and screaming that it’s time to move forward in their relationship slowly. He can’t fight his feelings anymore and he acknowledges that Jay might be the perfect type of guy who can give him his happily ever after.Jay is ecstatic that all his dreams are finally coming through, but he soon understands it won’t be easy. Jay has a very independent spirit and he butts heads with Levi’s ‘take control’ attitude. Levi is left soothing ruffled feathers more than once.

Their first argument stems from a lack of communication and high-handed ways. Jay is extremely pissed when he finds out that Levi has gone behind his back and requested his boss give him time off. To Levi’s credit , he was just being protective of Jay since he has a stalker who keeps calling him. Jay works as an exotic dancer and Levi believes the two things are connected. Their friends provide insight when they explain that both Jay and Levi will definitely have to open the lines of communication for the longevity of their newfound relationship.

Jay and Levi talk things through and make plans for what their roles will be in their relationship. Jay realizes that his past has caused insecurities and he should just accept help when its given. He sees that Levi is more protective rather than controlling. When Jay gets another threat, Levi suggests that he move in with him. Levi has Jay’s best interest at heart and he just wants to love him and protect him now that they’ve ventured on this journey. I really enjoyed watching the sparks fly between these two, their sexual chemistry was amazing. They are opposites who complement each other in every way.

Before they can get their happily ever after, Jay gets a letter saying that his mother died. Levi goes with him to sort things out. This gives Jay closure and a bit of peace on his neglected childhood. It is bittersweet when he finds out that all the money he ever sent his mother was saved for him. She wrote an apology letter saying how much she loved him. For once , she actually did right by Jay. It doesn’t erase all the loneliness and hurt he felt as a child, but it has mended a small part of his heart and given him insight as to what he would like to do as a future career.

They have a couple of blissful days touring the city before they head home. Their friend Kennedy, the cop dealing with the stalker case tells them that the stalker has revealed himself. Jay decides to not press charges as he just wants to move on. Jay has plans to open up a dance studio with the nest egg that his mother saved for him. It will be a place where he can give youths a safe place to be who they want to be. Finally, Jay and Levi’s future is on the right track. I give this my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear.

No Filter ( No Shame 1) by Nora Phoenix

Title: No Filter               Word Count: 290 pgs

Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:Indy will do anything to prevent his mobster ex from finding him. Their last encounter left Indy recovering for months in the hospital, and ever since he’s become an expert at hiding in plain sight. Determined to stay under the radar, he takes on a new identity and moves from place to place. His life has no room for friendships, let alone love, so he keeps his heart firmly closed. After all, he has nothing to offer but a damaged body and a broken soul. Plus, he’s so done with men. Until he meets the man who breaks through all his defenses.

Former Army Medic Noah came back damaged from his last tour—in more than one way. Between supporting his best friend-with-benefits Josh who’s struggling with PTSD, dealing with his own issues, and the stress of his job as a physician assistant, rebuilding his life seems impossible. There’s little time for what Noah needs, let alone for what he wants. When he meets Indy, Noah discovers what he wants more than anything: for Indy to stay. But how will a relationship with Indy work when Noah needs Josh as well?

Indy never expected the strong, confident Noah to be as damaged and broken as himself. But what will happen if he starts letting Noah in? Indy knows he should run to protect Noah and Josh. 

Noah needs Indy to stay more than anything. But will what little he has to offer be enough to make Indy trust him and stay? 

No Filter is a steamy M/M romance featuring an open relationship (no cheating!) that ends with a HFN, but with the promise of a HEA. It’s the first book in the No Shame Series, and is not a stand-alone novel. It contains hot sex, a hint of a ménage, lots of talk about hot sex, flashbacks of said hot sex, and…Oh well, you get the idea. Also: trigger warning for mentions of sexual abuse.

My Review: If anyone would have told Indy that being subjected to a convenient store robbery would have been a turning point in his life, he wouldn’t have believed it. This is how he met Josh, the young army veteran who suffers from severe PTSD. Josh has a flashback the moment he saw the robber’s gun. It is Indy’s quick thinking that saves his life. Indy tackles Josh to the ground with his superior jiu jitsu moves to snap him out of his flashback. It sucks for Indy who already has a broken arm in a cast. Indy is trying to breath through the pain and stay in character since he is on the run and pretending to be a southern belle. Not wanting to blow his cover and desperate to get Josh out of his flashback, Indy decides to ground him by kissing him. It finally works and Josh slowly comes out of his spell.

By the time the cops show up, Indy is in severe pain and in need of medical attention. This is where Noah comes in, he is Josh’s best friend who is a former army medic. He works in the ER now and when Josh calls him frantic telling him he needs to protect Indy’s female persona, he steps in to help. Noah doesn’t know what to think when he meets Indy, but there is an instant spark between the two. However, it is clear to see that Indy is very afraid and hiding something. Warning bells go off in Noah’s head when he feels scars on Indy’s body. He also sees signs of trauma in Indy’s reactions to being restrained.

When Noah and Josh offers Indy a place to stay and recover, he takes a leap of faith and puts his trust in these two men. Indy feels an attraction to Noah, something that hasn’t happened in quite some time. When Indy realizes that Josh and Noah shares a bedroom, he feels like a fool for lusting after somebody’s boyfriend. Noah explains that Josh and him have a very complexed relationship that may defy certain norms.

Watching these three men come together was exhilarating, sensual and a little bit confusing at times. It was the pure trust and honesty in their connections that pulls it all together for me. Here we have three broken men trying to piece together their wounded hearts and souls. We have Josh who suffers from PTSD and is very codependent on his best friend Noah. He is openly gay and navigating his sexually submissive side while also working through issues from his past. Then there is Noah who facilitates Josh’s codependency as a way of healing them both. Noah has lost his leg in the war and has some residual feelings of insecurity. He is only recently identifying and accepting himself as a gay man. Indy is the only other man that Noah has been attracted to sexually. Indy is on the run for his life. He feels like he is damaged goods and it is clear that he has suffered severe sexual trauma. Noah and Josh are the first two men he has been attracted to in awhile. It is Noah who makes him want to trust again. He feels unworthy and undeserving to be in a relationship with a strong man like Noah, because of his past. Indy is afraid to become too attached and wants to protect them from the dangers of his past.

The sexual tension in their house is combustible. They all paired up sexually with each other at different times without any resentment or hurt feelings amongst each other. Noah and Josh had sex all the time as a way of finding release and it helped Josh to understand his sexually submissive side. When Noah let Josh top him, it helped him accept himself as a gay man. Josh and Indy getting together was about healing each other from their past sexual trauma. Josh gave back Indy some of the power he lost when he offers to bottom for him. Indy regains a part of himself he thought was lost forever. After their fun filled activity they fall asleep blissfully.

When Noah comes home after a sixteen hour shift in pain from standing all day, he becomes jealous when he sees them cuddled up together. Tempers flare when he believes that Indy has given Josh something that he couldn’t get. Josh sets him straight and diffuses the situation by offering up himself to relieve some of the stress and pain that Noah feels. Noah goes at Josh hard with Indy watching the whole time. When Noah finds release a dam finally breaks and all the pain and sorrow for all he’s lost comes pouring out. 

This is cathartic for all of them. It is Josh’s way of saying goodbye and bringing Indy fully into Noah’s life. Indy makes the decision the next day to tell Noah his sordid past of being sold into sexual slavery by his mom at sixteen. The man she sold him to, Duncan Fitzpatrick belongs to the mob and treated him deplorably. Indy lived in hell for four years. He finally snapped when Duncan passed him off to his sadistic cousin who raped Indy. When he was done Indy stabbed him and waited for him to die before he called the cops , so he could claim self defense. Duncan found Indy and tortured him before he could testify. Indy knows he will always be a hunted man.

Indy finally sees that what he has found in Noah is worth fighting for. He gives himself freely to Noah without fear. He gets a taste of what a loving sexual relationship should be like. Noah is happy that Indy has finally let him in and is allowing him to love him. Josh will always be a part of their lives and they have a different kind of love for him. Noah is willing to protect Indy with all that he is . He will never allow Indy to be hurt again. This is only the beginning, but it is clear to see how deep their love runs for each other. Looking forward to Josh’s story and the continuation of Indy and Noah. I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.