The Firsts & Forever 9: Coming Home by Alexa Land

Title: Coming Home          Word Count: 432 pgs

Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:For twenty-six-year-old rent boy Chance Matthews, surviving day-to-day in San Francisco is difficult enough. Then an ill-fated road trip to Wyoming to search for his biological father throws his life into a tailspin. When a string of catastrophes leaves him stranded and desperate, help comes from the last person he’d expect. His knight in shining armor is everything he could want and then some, but Chance is sure a man like that would never want someone like him. That’s the stuff of fairy tales, and he stopped believing in those a long time ago.

My Review:  Chance Matthews has been chewed up and spit out by this thing we call life. He ran away from home when he was 14 after being abused. He has been earning his living as a prostitute on the mean streets of San Francisco since then. Although he doesnt have a good relationship with his mother, he has been diligently sending her a 1000 bucks for more than 10 yrs to help take care of his little brother.

One night after he finishes with a John, Chance’s path crosses the stoic Finn Nolan. Chance is not sure what to do since Finn is a cop and he fears being arrested. Finn is just as shocked to see Chance since he only knows him as the photographer and friend of his brother’s husband Christian. Chance tries to make a quick exit, but before he can go Finn propositions him and swears him to secrecy. Chance is still very wary , thinking that maybe he is being set up for entrapment. However, there is something in Finn’s eyes that call to him.

Although their arrangement should seem illicit and tawdry, Finn somehow makes it special. Chance tries to remain detached, but he is sucked in by the beautiful person Finn is. Finn is a virgin when it comes to man on man action, but he always makes Chance feel priceless. Chance is able to feel connected to a lover for the first time in his life. Their chemistry was out of this world.

When Chance decides to go visit his family and hunt down his biological father, he uses this as a way to cut the ties with Finn as well. He has become far too attached and fallen in love with Finn. Finn definitely doesn’t want to give up Chance and he wants to further the special connection they have between them. 

Everything turns upside down once Chance goes on his journey. He finds his sixteen yr old brother half starved and living on his own  with another  vulnerable looking sixteen yr old. He thinks he might have found his father , but the man practically threw him out. To top it all off, someone steals his beat up old car with all his possessions and money in it. He is at an all time low and feeling hopeless when Finn calls him. When Chance hears his familiar warm voice , he has a meltdown and stutters out the whole story.Finn would do anything for this beautiful man so he rushes to the rescue.

It was very emotional watching the progression between these two.  To see Chance finally opening up and trusting Finn. Also, watching Finn throwing caution to the wind and holding on to Chance and coming out to his parents and claiming who he truly is.

 Their ready made family was very interesting with two teenagers on the brink of manhood. It was lovely to watch them navigate through all the feelings of loneliness and coming to care and love each other while dealing with their trust issues. I really enjoyed this one . I give this my ratings of 5 – bring out the vibrators. 

Favorite Quotes: 1. He laid me on the floor again and spread my legs with a hand on the back of each thigh, exposing me as he pressed my knees to my chest. I moaned when he drove his tongue into me, opening me up before he slid it out again and licked my opening. He kept that up for a while as I reached down and stroked my cock, and then he sat up a bit and pulled a bottle of lube from his jacket pocket. ( Such a visceral reaction .)

2. I kept my legs right where he’d put them as he drizzled the lube over my hole and onto his hand. He pushed two fingers inside me and rotated his wrist, grazing my prostate and making me yell as a shockwave of pleasure pulsed through me. Then he slid his hand out and said, “I’m going to fuck you raw, baby .” I stopped stroking myself and raised my head to look at him. “We both got tested last week, just like you’ve been doing every six months. We know it’s safe.” ( There is nothing better than skin on skin. It definitely heightens the arousal.)

3.“Just so you know, I’m not going to hold back. We can make love some other time. Tonight, we’re going to fuck. I want you to feel so damn good and cum so hard that you forget everything but my name. I’m going to make you mine with every thrust into you, and then I’m going to cum inside you. I want you to know for an absolute fact that you belong to me. Only me. Do you have a problem with that?” (Sometimes you  just need a good hard fuck, no frills and gentle touches.)

4.He slammed into my prostate again and again, his big, thick cock filling me, stretching me, and I threw my head back and yelled as I arched up off the floor. I needed him closer. Deeper. I needed him to be a part of me. I clawed at his back, wildly, desperately, and when he yelled and came in me, I shoved his jacket out of my way and bit his shoulder, hard. All rational thought had completely fallen away. I was distilled down to sex and need and hunger, and he was, too. He fucked me like it might be our last time ever, urgently, almost frantically, pushing his seed into me with each thrust, yelling as he came in me. He dropped onto his elbows, his face inches from mine, his pupils so dilated that his eyes looked black, and told me, “You’re mine.” It was an absolute statement of fact. “Yes. Fuck yes. Yours.” The words tumbled from me. I was surprised I could talk. When he pulled out of me, his cock was barely deflated. “Fuck me, Chance.” His voice was pure gravel. ( Soooo hot.)

5. He got on his hands and knees as I fumbled for the lube and slicked my throbbing cock. I pushed a wet finger into his warm opening , fingering him roughly as I told him, “It’s going to hurt.” I was way too worked up to think clearly, let alone prep him properly. “Good.” I pulled my finger from him after just a minute and pushed my cock into his incredibly tight butt, grabbing his hips. We both moaned , and he mumbled, “Fuck yes, don’t stop.” I took him like he’d taken me, hard, fast, and rough. Our jagged yells shattered the stillness, along with the sound of my body slapping into his. My fingers dug into his flesh as I pulled him onto my cock, impaling him as he drove himself back in a steady rhythm. ( I love when it hurts sooo good, so raw , so in the moment. You can definitely feel that you’very been well and truly fucked days after.)

The Firsts & Forever 8 : Belonging by Alexa Land

Title :  Belonging                      Word Count : 98000

Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : Can two damaged men build a future together from the shattered pieces of their lives?

Gianni Dombruso’s life was altered forever at the age of four, when his parents were murdered and he and his brothers went to live with their grandmother, the irrepressible Nana Dombruso. Now almost thirty, Gianni has spent his life bouncing from relationship to relationship, seeking but never finding the security and stability he so desperately craves.

Alexzander Tillane was one of the biggest pop stars in the world when he walked away from it all in the middle of a concert in 2002. Almost destroyed by the pressure of fame, Zan retreated to a life of quiet solitude in an effort to heal. But the cure backfired, leaving him with more issues than answers.

Zan knows he can’t give Gianni the stability he’s looking for, not with all his problems. He can’t even imagine why the beautiful younger man would want to get involved with someone so damaged, but the heat between them can’t be ignored. Giving in to it could be a huge mistake. Or maybe both men might end up right where they belong.

My Review :  It is very hard to believe that Gianni , the playboy of the  Dombruso family is this extremely vulnerable creature that we see in this novel. I had a hard time reconciling this young man who had such a low self esteem with the sexy Gianni we saw in the previous stories. I guess we all hide behind a facade sometimes and  things are not always what they appear to be. It soon becomes obvious that Gianni allowed himself to be used because he thought that was what he deserved.

Zan Tillane, the infamous pop star and Christian’s father is the first man that Gianni has truly opened up to. It was definitely not a love match at first, with Zan being a grumpy bipolar shut in. He definitely did everything to make Gianni’s life harder while he was bringing him groceries. It was only Gianni’s perseverance that kept their interactions afloat. Gianni constantly pushed  Zan’s buttons by getting him to try a different fruit on each of his visits. It was hilarious watching their foray into this newfound relationship.  However, they do not make any great strides, because Zan is too accustomed to his self imposed solitude and too scared to expose himself to the world at large. It is not until Gianni decides to move to New York to live with a man who he doesn’t love and to whom he is just a booty call, that Zan sees what he is about to lose.  

Zan braves the paparazzi and leave his self imposed solitude  to prove to  Gianni how much he means to him. Zan ends up hiding out at Nana’s house, the safest place he could ever be with Nana and her beretta and the ex mafia Dombrusos. Zan tries to shield Gianna from the paparazzi by running away from their newfound romance.  Gianni is devastated and worries about Zan, because not even Christian has been in contact with his father.  It doesn’t take long for Zan to come back to Gianni, when he realizes that his safe haven is in Gianni’s arms and that they can weather the storm of his fame together . Gianni gives Zan the strength to return to performing, something that he has always loved but with which he became so overwhelmed.

I really enjoyed this installment with these two main characters who totally complemented each other. I really liked the chemistry between them and even though there is an age gap , it did not seem that way which I liked. I give this my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear. 

The Firsts & Forever 7: Against the Wall by Alexa Land

Title : Against the Wall            Word Count : 448 pgs

Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : Don’t start something you can’t finish.

It’s a cliché, but 22-year-old graffiti artist Christian lives by those words. He’s going away when he graduates from art school in just six short months. With so little time left, getting involved with gorgeous Shea Nolan has to be a mistake. If only he could make himself stay away from the sweet, sexy police officer.

Christian has a decision to make. Are a few months of happiness worth the inevitable heartbreak when it’s time to walk away?

My Review : From the very first moment we meet Christian,  the graffiti artist and Skye’s best friend, there has always been an air of mystique surrounding him. All the areas of Christian’s life is cloaked in secrecy that not even Skye is privy to. He comes off as a playboy who doesn’t really care about much but his craft.We’ve always known that he is hugely talented as a graffiti artist and is making a stamp on the world through his spray paint. He seems to be this thrill junkie who loves living life on the edge and always being chased by cops from building to building. It is after one of these escapades that he meets Chance, a prostitute who is also trying to hide his activities from the cops. Chance concocts a huge cover story of them being boyfriends in order to get Christian from under the suspicion of the cops looking for the graffiti artist Zane. The two become fast friends and end up at a club where Chance can pick up some tricks.

It is here that Chance points out the sexy guy who is staring at Christian.  That sexy guy happens to be Shea Nolan, the sexy Irish cop who we’ve come across in previous books. Shea is very shy and a little  bit of a klutz,  but Christian finds him to be very endearing.  Christian takes Shea home with the intention of having a one night stand. Their night together turns out to be magical and leaves them both wanting for more. It soon becomes clear that they will be seeing a lot more of each other since they have a lot of the same friends and run in the same circles.

Nana is up to her usual shenanigans and she definitely sets the stage for their romance to blossom albeit quite unintentional. Nana plans a wedding for her grandson Vincent and the love of his life Trevor on a cruise ship where all our favorite boys are invited. It was great to catch up with  all these characters. We also got a glimpse of Hunter and Brian whose wedding was also planned by Nana on the cruise ship. Vincent and Trevor have adopted a son since we last saw them and Christopher and Kieran has a baby on the way through a surrogate. Throughout this week long cruise,  Shea and Christian were able to foster their relationship and build a bond that neither expected.

Some of Christian’s secrets start leaking out the closer he gets to Shea. We are introduced to Finn, Shea’s brother who definitely doesn’t approve of their relationship because he thinks Christian is just a two timing user. When Finn corners Christian,  he has a huge panic attack fueled by flashbacks from a horrible experience in his life. It is after this, Christian shares his secret with Shea about being raped in his first weeks at college. He has tried to take back his sexuality in some small way by only topping his lovers and only being intimate with his clothes on. Shea doesn’t push him and he tries to take care of this beautiful vulnerable man. 

We’ve always suspected that Christian is a rich kid and this is proven when the secret comes out that his father is a famous rock star named Alexander Tillane. Another facet of Christian’s personality comes out when we see him taking care of his dad who is a bipolar OCD recluse who experiences lots of highs and debilitating lows. Although  Christian holds so much in , he is a great person who loves hard and tries to shield the ones he loves from heartache.

Christian soon reveals his biggest secret ever to Shea. He is dying from a malignant brain tumor. This was really gut wrenching and I cried buckets right alongside these characters.

As Christian’s illness becomes more pronounced, he learns the true meaning of love from all his friends and especially Shea who stays by his side throughout clinical trials. Christian has to learn to set his pride aside so that his friends and soon to be husband can help him through this devastating period in his life. The book ends on a high note with Christian experiencing some improvement from the clinical trial  drugs. Shea is positive and has hopes that Christian will make a full recovery and that they can enjoy a long and healthy life. I give this my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear. 

Favorite Quotes : 1. As his cock started rubbing that spot deep inside me, pleasure took over. My body relaxed and I exhaled slowly. I began to stroke my cock, rocking my hips in time with his thrusts, and begged, “Harder , baby. Please.” Shea got up on his knees , his hands grasping my waist, and watched as his cock slid in and out of me. He moaned and began thrusting harder and faster, his orgasm building. When we were both close I sat up and hugged him to me, bouncing on his thick shaft as I cried out. As soon as I felt his cock twitch and the first blast of cum fill me, I began cumming, too, my cock pressed between us. He held on to me, thrusting wildly, yelling as he came. ( I really enjoyed the passion between these two. They took the greatest pleasure in each day through hot lovemaking and lots of public  sex😉.)

The Firsts & Forever 4: Gathering Storm by Alexa Land

Title :Gathering Storm                          Word Count : 364 pgs

Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : Working as a gay porn star has brought twenty-two-year-old Hunter Storm fame and fortune, but it’s cost him a lot, too. He’s learned to think of his body as little more than a commodity, and he copes with his loneliness by giving himself to whoever will have him. The job has also put him in the crosshairs of a stalker, a man so deeply disturbed that Hunter and everyone around him is in danger.

Fortunately, Hunter has allies, including his best friend Christopher and Nana, a feisty senior who’s decided he’s family. And then there’s Brian Nolan. When Hunter first meets the angry, wheelchair-bound former Marine, it’s hate at first sight. But despite his shattered body and tattered psyche, Brian might turn out to be the best ally of all.

This male/male erotic romance is for ADULT READERS ONLY. It includes explicit language and graphic sex. This is the fourth book in Alexa Land’s best-selling Firsts and Forever series, yet each book in the series is written to stand alone, so jump in anywhere.

My Review : Who would have thought that Hunter would be the ‘beast tamer’. Right from the start,  he started charming and ultimately slaying the beast known as Brian. Brian is Kieran’s older ogreish disabled brother. From  the moment they laid eyes on each other, sparks started flying and definitely not in a good way. Nana comes charging in to the rescue with a .44 magnum (this time) when Hunter’s house is breached by his stalker. She chews out Brian for being an asshole to one of her ‘Gay homosexuals’. Hilarious,  you  just gotta love Nana. It’s definitely safer by the side of a little old lady who totes a gun and has an entourage of mafia gunslinger sexy grandsons, lol.

Brian immediately went into protective mode as Hunter’s stalker gets closer to him. Brian likes the fact that unlike everyone else Hunter doesn’t pull his punches, he is direct and tells him when he is being an ass. Brian is really scared that Hunter will see his scars both emotional and physical. When he exposes himself, the bond between the two grows stronger and more solid and dependable than anything either of them ever had to look forward to. I loved these two together, Hunter was the right amount of fun to cancel out Brian’s dour side. The sex was exceptionally hot and there was a slow build up that was perfect for their relationship. They took their time to learn each other’s bodies and in the end they were perfectly in sync. This one gets my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear. 

The Firsts & Forever 3: In Pieces by Alexa Land

Title : In pieces                                 Word Count : 406 pgs

Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : Twenty-year-old Christopher Robin Andrews lives his life in pieces. He’s a student. An artist. A loyal friend. And he’s had to make a living as a prostitute. He’s barely holding it all together, surviving day by day.

But then an unexpected encounter with a gorgeous man at a Christmas party shakes up his world. The last thing Christopher’s looking for is love. But sometimes, even if you’re not looking for it, love finds you anyway. Ready or not.

NOTE: This erotic gay romance includes explicit language and graphic sex between men. For ADULT READERS ONLY.

My Review : Christopher Robin is such a sweet guy who has had a shit for luck kinda life. Even though he is a prostitute,  there is purity and sweetness about him that is so genuine. He doesn’t really open up all that much , but there is just something about him that draws people in. He’s surrounded by people who love him and want to take care of him. However, he tries to put up a wall and tries to act like he is an island for fear that he will become dependent on his friends. For him , this is the worst thing that he could possibly do, because he has had such disappointment in his previous experiences. Kieran is the perfect guy for him, who would love the chance to cherish him. Kieran is a virgin and he is only too happy to put his trust in Christopher,  to allow him to bring him forth in the art of  hot sexy manlove. Oh boy, it was oh so sexy. Once again Ms. Land burns up the sheets, the walls and floors with the  wild sweaty  monkey sex  between the rentboy and the cop. I loved how they took their time in exploring Kieran’s submissive side. Who knew it was so fun being submissive. Makes me wanna try my hand at being submissive ;), mm mm food for thought. OMG, Nana is such a gangsta. Nana is back and she is better than ever, brandishing her pistol around and pistol whipping even bigger gangstas,  who knows if this one is real.  It would take a real idiot to try to find that out ;). Once again she proves to be a great ally to her Gay homosexuals (her words, not mine). Nana is an absolute gem and everyone would be so lucky to have someone like her in their lives. Another great addition to the series. This one gets my ratings of 5 – bring out the vibrators.

The Firsts & Forever 2: All In by Alexa Land

Title : All In                     Word Count :238 pgs

Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : Even though he’s really not over his ex-boyfriend Jamie, twenty three year old former football player Charlie finds himself drawn to Dante Dombruso, the gorgeous, highly dangerous leader of a mafia crime family. Dante is the perfect rebound fling, six feet, four inches of raw sex and hard Italian muscle, wrapped in an expensive suit.

The confident, sexy crime boss is way out of Charlie’s comfort zone. But Charlie already lost everything once by giving in to his fear, and he’s not willing to make the same mistake again.

If he’s going to do this, Charlie knows he can’t hold back. He can’t date this man a little, he can’t trust him a little, he can’t go to bed with him a little. If he’s going to get involved with Dante Dombruso, Charlie has to be All In.

Please note: This book is a lighthearted m/m romance. It contains explicit language, just a bit of BDSM to spice things up, and plenty of steamy sex between two hot guys. It’s intended for adult readers only.

My Review : From the beginning of the book Charlie started tugging at my heartstrings. My heart broke for the treatment he received from his parents after coming out to them. I was kinda prepared  not to like Charlie because of the way he treated Jamie in the first book  Way Off Plan,  but my hatred was unfounded. I was so sympathetic to his plight , I found my self feeling sorry for him and crying right along with him. Nobody deserves to be treated so carelessly by their parents, children should be loved unconditionally regardless of whatever  future paths they choose to take. At his lowest point , Dante was there as a shoulder to cry on , he was there to pick up the pieces of Charlie’s shattered life and dust him off.Everyone should have a Dante to take care of them, (sigh***) talk about romantic.

Nana is hilarious, Dante’s Sicilian grandma is crazy, she swears like a sailor and says whatever she feels whenever. She’s a warm , loving person and  a great woman to have in  your corner. Dante is one off the best things that could have happened to Charlie , because he not only gained a lover, he gained an extended family and a great friend in Christopher Robin,  Dante’s ex submissive prostitute. Dante tries to deny his need for inflicting pain during sex because he doesn’t want to hurt Charlie. What he can’t wrap his head around is that Charlie needs to feel the pain just as much as he needs to spank, flog and redden that ass. The spankings were so hot and so sensual and I’m glad Charlie was able to embrace this side of himself wholeheartedly. They both realized that they needed to trust each other to make their relationship truly work.There is a thin line between pain and pleasure and this book was a perfect portrayal of that. For that, this gets my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear. 

The Firsts & Forever 1: Way Off Plan by Alexa Land

Title : Way off plan                                 Word Count :  344 pgs 

Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : This book is an erotic gay romance. It contains explicit language, a touch of kink, and lots of steamy sex between two hot guys. FOR ADULT READERS ONLY.

Jamie Nolan is a young cop on his first undercover assignment, sent to investigate Dmitri Teplov, a suspected major player in the Russian mafia. Jamie knows better than to get involved with the gorgeous nightclub owner. But right from the start, the spark of attraction between the two of them is undeniable.

Everything about Dmitri is just so unexpected. He’s sweet and shy, and has a nerdy side that Jamie finds irresistible. Can this man really be a criminal?

No matter if Dmitri is guilty or innocent, Jamie’s big Irish Catholic family of cops and his police captain are never going to accept this relationship. Dmitri’s dangerous and manipulative gangster uncle is also none too thrilled that these two are together, and wants Jamie out of the picture. On top of that, Jamie’s still reeling from a recent breakup, and Dmitri is unavailable anyway. Isn’t he?

No way should this thing between them be happening. Getting involved with Dmitri Teplov was never part of the plan. But sometimes, the best plan is the one you make up as you go along.

My Review : Dmitri is as sweet as can be, except for the fact that he’s a part of the Russian mafia.  He’s the perfect boyfriend a guy could ever want,  he’s handsome, rich and uber sexy and he draws Jamie in like a moth to a flame.  Jamie comes from a long line of cops, the same career path he has chosen. Since meeting Dmitri,  he has started taking a good hard look at his life. Jamie realizes that he doesn’t really want to be a cop, especially if it means he can’t have Dmitri in his bed and his life. From the very first night he starts falling for Dmitri and decides that he is the man for him, however long that might be.

The sex between them is extremely explosive. Dmitri needs someone to control him and Jamie is the perfect candidate to tie him to the bed. Ooh la la,  Jamie can tie me to a bed any day of the week, I’ll be a willing servant begging on my knees. I really loved the relationship between the two main characters,  even though there was a defined top and bottom, there was also equality between them. They were both able to be vulnerable with each other and catch each other whenever needed. The sex scenes are totally hot, they painted such a smoking hot picture in my imagination.  I’m so going to memorize them, and put them to good use of course ;). The light bdsm and spanking scenes really got my temperature rising. Dmitri needed Jamie to tie him down and own him. It was through his vulnerability that he was able to feel completely safe in Jamie’s arms. I was totally there with them for all their orgasms, I felt them rushing through my body. Once again, love prevails through any and all tribulations. Thank you Ms. Land for allowing me to feel your writing. This one gets my ratings of 5- bring out the vibrators.

The Firsts & Forever 5: Salvation by Alexa Land

Title : Salvation             Word Count : 461 pgs

Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : Can two men from wildly different worlds prove to be each other’s salvation?

Trevor isn’t surprised that he’s a twenty-year-old virgin. He sees himself as skinny, clumsy, and shy, and is sure no one could possibly want him. Vincent Dombruso is about to prove him wrong.

Mysterious and troubled, Vincent masks a lot of secrets behind his handsome exterior. As the spark between them ignites, both men are surprised to find a kindred spirit in such an unexpected place. But Vincent’s Mafia ties and whatever he’s not telling Trevor could destroy their chances of a happily ever after.

Salvation is the fifth book in Alexa Land’s best-selling Firsts and Forever series, but each book is written to stand alone, so jump in anywhere. PLEASE NOTE: This erotic male/male romance is for ADULT READERS ONLY. It includes explicit language and graphic sex between two hot men.

My Review : Vincent is a tortured soul who has a brooding air surrounding him. Trevor is just what he needs , he is the kindest, sweetest person that tries to help and fix all the problems of his friends. He has only a few friends but he jumps into these friendships wholeheartedly.  He is very shy, but he is a staunch defender of his friends. Vincent is a total bad ass, but he is oh so sweet when it pertains to Trevor. The sex was exceptionally hot, you just have to love a virgin who knows what he wants and knows how to take control. This book was the fifth in the series and I’m going to have to go back and read the previous four, because I feel like I’ve connected with all these secondary characters. OMG, Nana is a hoot, she had me cracking up through the whole book. Gotta love a ‘gangsta’ grandma who is so out there.

    Trevor’s vulnerability really seeps out near the end of the story and I must say , I cried buckets at that point. Vincent was right there to catch him when he fell and I think that really solidified their relationship. This had all the trappings of a great romance. There was hot sex, laugh out loud moments, sad moments and the romance was off the chain. Who knew that a silent mafia hunk could do romance so well. I guess that’s why bad boys are so well loved. I want me one of those ;). I’m a sucker for a happy ending even with the twist at the end. Look out for more of my reviews on this author, I’m definitely gonna buy the previous books. This book gets my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.