Indiscreet 6: Caden’s Dilemma by A.C. Katt

Title : Caden’s Dilemma          Word Count : 54,000

Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : Masato is a rich sub who has no life, Caden has a life but no money, can Caden get past his pride to be Masato’s Master.

There are only two things that Masato knows—how to write brilliant code and how to fly in subspace. He is rapidly losing control of the company he founded because the CEO he hired is running roughshod over him.

Masato needs someone to help him run his life, his business and the charities he wants to found. He thinks he might have found his Master in Caden. There is one problem, Masato is a billionaire and Caden has more than his fair share of pride. Can Caden get over his pride and help Masato take back control of his life or is Masato doomed to a life of fending off men who only want his money?

My Review :  It is quite clear that all the submissives in ‘club sub’ at the popular BDSM club Indiscreet are quite accomplished young men. So far they have added a psychiatrist,  accountant , business owner among other professions. One of the few paid subs, Masato  is a force to be reckoned with in his own right. Masato designed a very intricate software program at the age of sixteen which allowed him to be a billionaire and retiree at age twenty-two. Masato is on a journey to explore his submissive side at leisure.  He has enjoyed the lifestyle so far for a year, but he still has not found that perfect Dom that pushes all his buttons.

Masato is in a very unusual position due to his extreme wealth, because money tends to shift the power dynamics in any relationship even more so a Dom/sub union. Masato is looking for a  Dom who can  overlook his wealth, while at the same time making all the decisions in their lives and being fiscally smart. He thinks he might have met his perfect match in Caden, the new Director of Security of Indiscreet  and sub Danny’s older brother.  Masato appreciates many of the values he sees displayed in Caden.

Caden is smitten from the first moment he is partnered up with Masato for Danny and Gary’s summertime wedding. Caden appreciates Masato’s submissive nature while at the same time being able to communicate intelligently in any given situation. Masato is well known in the club for being able to take a certain amount of pain . When Caden uses his flogger with knotted roses on Masato , he knows they are close to a perfect match. Masato responds beautifully to Caden’s flogging and is in subspace after the third hit.

Caden is cautioned by Reed to get to know Masato properly for three months before getting too involved.  Reed is aware of Masato’s true identity and has been protecting it from the other club members due to Masato’s extreme wealth and his position as a sub. Only Reed knows that Masato is really Johnny Nguyen,  billionaire.

Masato has a few sleepovers at Caden’s but things get dicey due to him having to hide his wealth. He steers clear of his home and tries to hide his limousine and driver. Masato is very worried how his omission will affect his relationship that is beginning to mean everything to him. After he is invited to the sub club weekly teatime, he starts opening up to the other subs who he realizes are great friends and allies. They advise him as best as they can when he dicloses his secret. Danny warns Masato that his brother will be upset and he will see this ommission as a lie.

Masato builds up the courage and decides to tell the man who he loves the whole truth. He invites Caden to his home. When Caden gets to the house , he realized there was something off about Masato. Caden is furious when Masato exposes his true identity and storms out without giving him a chance to explain. Masato is devastated as the thing he feared the most has come to pass. Once again he is rejected because of someone not being able to look beyond his wealth. He is left to pick up the shattered pieces of his heart. The sub club are called in and they support and embrace Johnny in solace shedding their tears right alongside him and making their masters lives hell.

Caden understands the full weight of what he has done when he sees the masters the next day. All the masters are furious with Caden and they let him know in no uncertain terms where he can stuff his pride. Bear and Gary hate to see their mates crying,  Cisco is deprived of his breakfast, Bull can’t find anything in his house and Reed’s life is definitely not running smooth because Jim is on the warpath. Caden gets a taste of the subs wrath and quickly realized that they are the ones in charge. When they are upset and commiserating with tears at Johnny’s plight, everything is turned upside down in their masters lives.

Johnny refuses all  of Caden’s attempts at an apology and gives him the cold shoulder.  It takes a fire at Johnny’s house and being hurt to make them both see what they almost lost. Caden sets his pride aside and takes charge as soon as he gets to the hospital by dealing with Johnny’s affairs. Johnny acknowledges the changes in Caden seeing for the first time that Caden truly loves him despite his pride. Caden and Johnny can’t wait to start their lives as master and sub properly. They have a bedside wedding while Johnny convalesces. I give this my ratings of 3 – it was ok, give it a try.

Indiscreet 5: Gary’s Choice by A.C . Katt

Title : Gary’s Choice                  Word Count :55,000

Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : Can someone that suffered when he came out go back in the closet for love? Should he have to?

Danny, a house sub at Indiscreet, loves Gary, a former major league pitcher. Gary wants a contract but he’s still bound by his agreement with his manager which forbids him from coming out.

Danny and Gary, with the help of their friends at Indiscreet, find a middle ground and sign a contract. But will it be enough?

My Review : So far, we’ve met quite a few different Doms from different stations in life with different requests and protocols specific to their subs. Gary is a professional baseball player who was introduced briefly in book 3 where he attempted to get a contract from Greg and was outbid by Dom de Loria. House sub Danny is totally in love with Gary and would love to get a contract from him. Gary proposes a contract, the only stipulation is that it has to remain a secret. Being a a professional baseball player is definitely not conducive to their lifestyle. As much as Danny has gotten under his skin, he can’t be out due to it being a breach of his professional contracts. 

It doesn’t take long for Gary to fall under Danny’s spell. He soon realizes that he will brave coming out of the closet to have someone sweet like Danny in his life forever. Gary sees that he can’t abide the stipulations of secrecy set in their contract. He hires a team of lawyer and agent to fine tune his professional contracts,  so that he won’t lose his endorsements and can continue with his life with Danny with pride. He comes out for Danny on national TV and he proudly announces to all that Danny is his after Danny’s brother Caden gives his approval. Gary has enemies that would like to keep him in the closet and under their thumb. They are easily vanquished with the help of the ‘family’ which includes all the Doms and the omnipresent subs who knows and sees all. Danny and Gary has a beautiful wedding and collaring ceremony with everybody in attendance. As  bear said “all us kinky bastards have to stay together”. I give this my ratings of 3 – it was ok, give it a try.  

Indiscreet 4: Bull’s Whip by A.C. Katt

Title : Bull’s Whip                 Word Count :56,000

Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : Twinks are stronger than they appear and Bull is going to rue the day he thought differently.

Jamie O’Hara has been crushing on Bull Raleigh, the Dungeon Master at Indiscreet, for months. Bull hates twinks and Jamie is an gorgeous looking ebony haired twink personfied. Jamie is far from a twink and sets out to prove it. But in proving it Jamie ends up in danger from a white slavery ring. Can Bull put aside his prejudice to keep Jamie safe? When Jamie needs a safe place when he is threatened, Bull insists he stay with him. Jamie arrives with a White Persian Cat, the twinkiest cat in catdom, Bull struggles to stay above water as this set of twinks take over his life.

My Review : That old saying Walks like a twink, looks like a twink, must be a twink, isn’t always true especially in Jamie’s case. Jamie has all the trappings of a twink and Dungeon Master Bull Raleigh can’t stand twinks. It is up to Jamie to prove his worth to Bull who needs a sub who can truly handle pain. Jamie has a serious crush on Bull and does all he can to put himself out there. He is rebuffed each time he tries something new and Bull is down right rude and uncaring of his feelings. Bull is a self centered asshole who is filled with his own importance.  He is a judgemental, biased prick who is using his past hurtful experience to stigmatize all twinks. He sees twinks as puny , backstabbing gold diggers and Brian, Jim and Jamie are up in arms to break him of his preconceived notions.

Jamie sets out to prove Bull wrong about his pain threshold and in the process is severely beaten by a Dom and kidnapped by a sex slavery ring. All the Doms head to to shore to look for Jamie and are just in time to save him and eleven other men. They have captured all the thugs except for one and Jamie is the only one that saw his face. The police wants to put Jamie in witness protection , but Bull steps in and make the decision to take Jamie home. He plans on keeping Jamie safe until the bad guy is captured. 

At this point , Jamie is turned off by all of Bull’s disparaging comments about twinks and even his Persian  cat who Bull says is twinky. Jamie and Bull forms a tentative friendship after Bull goes into therapy with Greg for his issues. Bull has damaged Jamie’s self esteem making him feel lower than dirt , so he does a few sessions with Greg also. Bull has the space and he can  protect Jamie. The parameters surrounding their friendship becomes blurred after Jamie volunteers for a caning scene. While he was in subspace, Bull took the liberty of relieving him of his virginity. The aftermath for Jamie is devastating because he didn’t want his first time to be so meaningless to the other person.   

I must say I didn’t find any redeeming qualities of Bull’s from the start to the finish. I couldn’t warm up to him and it was very disconcerting to see his methods seeing as how he is the dungeon  master.  Bull was very unforgiving,  almost like he was waiting for Jamie to fail so he could punish him. Honestly,  licking boots, I just don’t see what that does for anyone. Bull is definitely on a power trip and I really don’t see him as a great Dom. Bull is very manipulative and I don’t think I’ve ever disliked a main character this much right up until the end. He had no scruples and did whatever he wanted to get into Jamie’s pants. Very dissapointed.  Bull finally acknowledged his love for Jamie when there is a club auction.  For me, I think this was a little too late. This  one was really a long hard road for me. I give this my ratings of 3 – it was ok, give it a try. 

Indiscreet 3: Cisco’s Boy by A.C.Katt

Title : Cisco’s Boy                           Word Count :55, 000

Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : Master Cisco de Loria wants everything from his new sub Greg Harris, that is everything but love, in fact his contract expressly forbids it.

Dr. Greg Harris finally has the money to buy a submissive membership at Indiscreet, a gay BDSM club. The only thing he wants is to have Dr. Cisco de Loria as his Master. Cisco wants Greg too, but the one thing Greg most wants to give, Cisco refuses to take, Greg’s love. Cisco is so sure he doesn’t need love that he puts it in as a clause in their contract. If Greg ever mentions love, the contract is terminated. Cisco finds out the hard way that things somehow don’t always work out the way you plan.

My Review : These two have been well liked secondary characters from the very beginning.  Dr. Greg Harris is the psychiatrist that has helped the sub Brian with his memories of child abuse and Reed the Dom who is bipolar. Dr. Harris has made it clear that he is in love with Dr. Francisco de Loria who has no clue. Greg has recently become a member of club Indiscrete where he is paying to be a sub. He only has one Dom in mind and that’s Cisco. Cisco is very surprised to see Greg being introduced as one of the new subs and he immediately puts in a bid to have him for six months.  Master Dom Bear negotiates the contract for them. The only stipulation that Cisco wants to add is that Greg should not expect love from him or fall in love with him. Cisco is adamant about this as he refuses to have his heart crushed again. Greg is willing to have Cisco in his life , however he can get him.

Cisco is very specific about how he wants to take care of his boy and his word is law. He puts Greg in charge of the maintenance of the home, but in everything else he is the Dom. Cisco wants all the financial burdens to fall to him and he has more than enough money to take care of him and his boy comfortably.  The only thing he requires of Greg is full obedience,  companionship,  great intellectual conversations and sex at his disposal. 

The relationship progressed really well between these two. Greg was really attentive to all of Cisco’s  needs and it soon became clear that it wouldn’t be easy for Cisco to stay detached. Cisco had issues concerning his money,   since his previous lover cheated on him and wiped him out financially. Cisco is lucky that after his parents died they left him over a hundred million dollars and he has guarded it ever since, making sure that his lovers have no clue about how wealthy he is. Cisco is able to see right off the bat that Greg would like to remain financially independent. This is the only contention in their relationship that earns Greg punishment.

Greg does everything in his power to please his Dom, but he doesn’t always feels as if it’s enough. He wants to be everything to Cisco , but he has to keep on reminding himself about the stipulation in their contract about not falling in love. The heart wants what the heart wants. His close friendship with Brian and Jim is what keeps his head above water, and his perseverance and faith in love that continues to guide him in his relationship with his Dom. His friends encourage him to watch Cisco’s actions rather than his words. It is obvious to all their friends that Cisco is so in love with his boy. It takes an almost tragedy where one of Greg’s psychiatric patients tries to hurt him for Cisco to confess his true feelings.

This was another enjoyable addition to this series. I didn’t feel as much connection with these two as I did with Jim and Reed,  but they were definitely a solid couple with a great sex life. I really like the fact that the author is drawing attention to mental health issues which has been the premise for all the stories that I have read so far. In our society today , I think it is really important that we not shy away from the ‘touchy’ subjects,  but rather highlight them as part of our everyday lifes. I give this my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear.  

Indiscreet 2: Jack’s Back by A.C. Katt

Title :Jack’s Back                   Word Count :38,000

Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : Jim Menetti was Reed Davis’s sub until Reed’s old flame Jack came back. Jim picks himself up and makes a life for himself apart from his job at Indiscrete. He even begins to date but then Reed changes his mind.

Jim Menetti had a life at Indiscrete, the Gay BDSM club owned by Bear Drummond and Reed Davis. His life revolves around Reed, his Master, and his position as manager of the Club. On Jim and Reed’s third anniversary, Jack Leary, Reed’s on and off flame comes back and Jim’s relationship with Reed unravels. Jim picks himself up and makes a life for himself apart from his job, he buys a home, makes it a cozy retreat and gets a cat he names Waltzing Matilda. He even has a new love interest, the mysterious Professor Caleb Brickner, an expert in the Spainish Inquisition and medieval torture. Then, Reed changes his mind.

My Review : Sometimes in life,  we are our own worst enemy.  This is definitely the truth in Reed’s case when he makes the biggest mistake of his life by cheating on his loyal sub. Reed had an inkling almost from the moment he talked to Jim that he had let go off the best part of himself.  Reed has allowed his ex lover Jack to come back into his life, thinking that he is his great love. He doesn’t realize that what he has done is to extricate any form of intimacy out of his life. He is floundering without Jim in his life , but he is not sure how to make it right.

 His best friend and master Dom ‘Bear’ is furious with his pig headed stupid best friend who can’t see what’s right in front of him. Bear and his sub Brian helps Jim to put back the pieces of his shattered existence together. Brian and Jim has become the best of friends and this is really great in helping Jim to become self confident in a way he never was. Jim meets the charming Caleb and things seem to be going great until it isn’t. Caleb has a dark undertone to his personality that is not immediately apparent.

Reed feels very relieved when his best friend Bear starts talking to him again. As soon as he meets Caleb , he feels a weird, ominous vibe. He knows he’s jealous of the new man in Reed’s life, but he knows he can’t deny the sense of fear he feels for his ex being around Caleb. Bear suggests that Reed talk to the pyschiatrist Dr. Harris that Brian had used when his childhood abuse was triggered. As much as he doesn’t like this idea, Reed knows that if he ever wants to be a part of Jim’s life , he needs to deal with his emotional barriers. Dr. Harris helps tremendously and  a lot comes to the surface for Reed. Reed is borderline bipolar and rather than share that part of himself with the love of his life, he decided to shut Jim out.

Caleb becomes increasingly possessive and when Jim rejects him, he gets exceedingly violent and kills Jim’s cat. Jim is devastated and fearful. Luckily,  his friends are there to help him through this harrowing time and Reed finally steps up to be the man he was meant to be for Jim. Reed expunges his deep seated demons and purges his soul.

I was really invested in these characters and they really tugged at my heartstrings with the connection that I felt through them . Whatever the first book in the series was missing,  this more than made up for it tenfold. I can’t express how real both Reed and Jim are and this is brought forth through their flaws and faults. I give this my ratings of 5 – bring out the vibrators. 

Favorite Quotes : 1. “Baby, I couldn’t stand by and let something happen to you. I know, you…you have a new life and I’m not part of it. I swear to you as soon as this is over, I’ll leave the area, let you go. But please, let me take care of you this once like you’ve cared for me so many times. I need your forgiveness. I need…to save my soul, baby.” Reed dropped his arms with an abrupt motion and walked over to the glass door. “I held out on you, baby. I shouldn’t have.” Reed sighed. ( The ultimate sacrifice is letting go of someone you truly love in order to give them peace and happiness,  without being the one to share in that happiness with them.)

2. You need to understand, my lover, we are in this together. Whether we be Master and slave, Dom and sub, or partners, you have to know that I love you for all that you are, past, present, and the future we make together. Reed, you are as much mine as I am yours. It doesn’t matter how it’s expressed. I’ll go down on my knees for you forever, if that’s what you need, Reed, just so long as I know you love me.( True love is founded on equality. )

Indiscreet 1: A Matter of Trust by A.C. Katt

Title : A Matter of Trust                Word Count :70,000

Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb :Donald K. Drummond is the Master of all he surveys; a legend in commercial real estate in New Jersey by day and by night a Master Dom at the gay BDSM club, Indiscrete. What he couldn’t find was a boy to call his own. That all changed when a nerd with taped glasses and worn Dockers barged into his office spilling his bottle of 1985 Bourdeau over his priceless Persian carpet. Brian Murphy came with a host of troubles, the least of which was his grasping Aunt, his invalid mother and his rather tenious position in Donald’s mail room.Can a Dom with issues of his own come to train and trust a needy boy from his own mailroom. It’s all A Matter of Trust.

My Review : Donald ‘Bear’ Drummond has a very dominant complex personality and he doesn’t trust very well. He’s a self made man who became rich through his hard work, dedication and perseverance.  He is used to men trying to use him for his money and he tries his best to weed them out. Bear is looking for an ideal sub , one who can fulfill all his needs and be the perfect boy for him. The first time he meets Brian,  he knows this is the boy for him. Brian works in the mail room of his company and was set the task of delivering a package to him. It so happens that Brian trips and that’s how Bear finds him.Brian is clumsily sopping up the Bordeaux wine out of the expensive Persian rug after overturning it. Bear could care less about all these things. He is so focused on the sexy little submissive and he can’t wait to finally get this dream boy into his home. Bear plans to woo his sub properly, but his plans get derailed after Brian goes home.

Brian lives in a shitty little crack building and has a very horrible homophobic landlady. After seeing an invitation come for Brian from the prestigious gay BDSM  club, she gets her goons to beat Brian to an inch of his life. Bear is just in time to take his beautiful sub to the hospital with the help of his friends Jim and Reed. It is from this point of the story, where the book gets a little lackluster for me. I liked the whole premise of the story, but the relationship between these two seemed very forced and rushed even though there is more than enough pages in the book to facilitate the development of the characters and a proper follow through. I don’t  think the chemistry was there between these two. I think that the dialogue was a little too stilted and it didn’t really flow how I thought it should. I really was dissapointed when I didn’t feel that gut wrenching reaction and that genuineness.

It is unveiled that Brian has been abused repeatedly by his mother when he was a child. It is heartbreaking that throughout it all,  poor Brian beggars himself to pay for her medical bills.  Bear moves Brian into his home and takes the liberties of taking over all his financial burdens. Both men know that they are in love with each other, however trust is another realm for both of them . Brian is an experienced sub but he is known in their circles as the unbreakable sub. No one has been granted the privelege of relieving him of his virginity.  Bear also has trust issues and he hopes that in time he can trust Brian as much as he loves him. Bear makes it very clear that they will not engage in penetration  until he has collared Brian publicly. Nevertheless,  their sex life is super hot regardless. 

Bear gives Brian numerous tests in the service element to ensure that they are a proper fit. Bear wants a forward thinking sub who will think for himself, but who will also serve obediently and show him the proper respect which  is due to his stature as a master Dom. Brian performs flawlessly both at home and at the club. Bear is extremely proud and finds himself loving and trusting his lover, friend and most importantly his sub.

I had a bit of a love hate relationship with this book. For his part,  I think Bear was a great Dom  in the respect that he was far more giving and took care of his boys sexual needs in the bedroom. On the other hand, in public he was very rigid in terms of his  boy’s posture and the obedience that he expected from Brian, some of which I thought was unrealistic. Overall I give this my ratings of 3 – it was ok, give it a try. If you like insta-love it’s definitely for you. I will definitely try the second book in this series.