Title: Only With You Word Count:248 pgs
Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance
Blurb:“I guess if the worst thing I’m doomed to in life is mediocre sex, my life isn’t too bad.”
Self-starter and business analyst Zach Keller is living his dream life. He spends his days working from home in his favorite Tolkien t-shirts and pajamas while mothering his best friend-slash-roommate. The fact that his sex life is a bust and his love life is nonexistent? Unimportant. After his college boyfriend berated him for his unconventional desires, Zach doesn’t plan on sharing that part of himself ever again, anyway.
“I’m tired of feeling like I missed out on something by not going to college.”
Craig Pela isn’t lonely. He has tons of friends and weekends packed with activity. He hasn’t needed anyone since he left home at eighteen and never looked back. But everyone around him is moving forward in life, while he still works the same retail job at the same video game store, and it’s making him question his life choices. After all, he doesn’t want to be the loser still playing video games at fifty, does he?
As their relationship develops, Zach’s shy nature melts away to reveal an irrepressible geek that charms the pants off Craig. And Craig’s kind patience and ability to match him obscure quote for quote leaves Zach wondering if he’s finally met the man he can be his true self with. After all, how can someone else love you when you keep a part of yourself hidden?
My Review: From the moment Craig lays eyes on the quirky little nerd with curly hair , he is intrigued. When the guy opens his mouth and word vomit comes out ,he is even more endearing. Craig soon finds out that the guy Zach is his coworker Ben’s roommate. Craig is a bit disappointed when he thinks Zach might be nervous, because he has a crush on Ben. Their second meeting doesn’t go very well, when Craig’s smart mouth gets him in trouble for teasing Zach. Craig pleads with Ben to allow him to apologize to Zach by setting up a lunch date for them.
Craig sees a totally different side of Zach with the way he opens up around his best friend Ben. It is now Craig’s mission in life to get Zach to respond to him in that same carefree manner. Especially, when he realizes that Zach may be nervous because of him. Surprisingly, even with all the social awkwardness and overthinking on Zach’s part, they hit it off really well. They end their first date with a hot frottage session, but Zach ends up running off not knowing how to act after the hot sex. Craig is slightly confused , but decides to pursue Zach because he believes there is a connection between them.
They are getting on really well and Craig knows he is starting to have feelings for Zach. Although Craig is seen as this sexy pierced Adonis, he is plagued by his own insecurities. He struggles with the idea that he may not be good enough. Craig feels like he has no prospects since he just works at the video game store and have no college education. Zach also has his own insecurities that he will be rejected for his true self. Zach is a freak in bed, he gets off on being called a slut and being used thoroughly. He fantasize about gangbangs and random strangers using his body while his boyfriend watches. He’s always hid this part of himself, because his last boyfriend was totally disgusted when he found out.
In the heat of passion, Zach uncontrollably lets his freak flag fly high. Craig is so turned on watching his sweet shy boyfriend, turn into such a little slut and he certainly enjoys the ride. The only problem is when he starts processing what Zach wants, he knows he is not interested in an open relationship. When Zach sees that Craig is ignoring him, he is hurt but figures that it was inevitable. Craig is torn by his decision, because he really misses Zach. His friend Mal encourages him to talk it through with Zach.
Zach is surprised when Craig texts him a few days later to meet up. Craig apologizes for being a dick and they talk about the kind of relationship they do want. The way Zach explains it becomes clear that he doesn’t want an open relationship. He just needs to feel wanted and for his boyfriend to be proud to be with him. Craig acknowledges that he is not averse to the idea of Zach living out his fantasy if he is there by his side. Craig gets a thrill at being in control of Zach’s pleasure. He sets up a trip to a gloryhole where he watches his boy’s blissful face as he pleasures a stranger. Craig is on a high hearing the utter satisfaction the man feels at his lover’s mouth. As slutty as Zach acts, Craig also sees a vulnerability in the way he waits to see if he will be rejected. Craig reassures him as they leave and show him how precious he finds him.
They continue to forge their relationship and get to know each other better both in and out of bed. However, there are still facets of Craig’s life and family history that Zach knows nothing about. When Zach is tasked to host an obnoxious ‘baby announcement’ party for his overly pretentious relatives, everything goes to shit. Craig is snubbed by Zach’s mother and father who only tolerates Zach being gay. For the first time , Zach stands up for himself and gives his mother a proper dressing down for her being ungrateful and her ungracious manner in dealing with his boyfriend. As soon as they leave Zach gets a call saying that the mother to be Shelby has been rushed to the hospital where she has a miscarriage. When he turns up, Zach is repudiated for being gay and his family blames his ‘sinful’ sexual orientation as the bad omen that resulted in the miscarriage. Craig and his best friend Ben are left to pick up the pieces as their words shatter Zach’s heart.
Craig feels like his presence has caused this rift with Zach and his family. He takes himself out of the picture, thinking that Zach should find someone who has more of an educational background to match his. On the other hand, Zach believes that his lover has left him, because of his crazy homophobic family and he doesn’t blame him. When Zach sees Craig out on the town with a redhead, he believes he has moved on. Zach runs away with his heart broken in two. Seeing Zach again makes Craig acknowledges how much he missed his sweet shy boyfriend. The redhead Kieran encourages Craig to go after the man he clearly loves. Craig knows it’s going to take some grand gesture for their reconciliation. He forms an elaborate plan and by the end of it truly opens up to Zach about his own family drama. Zach finally sees that all Craig is used to is being rejected by the people he loves. Zach plans to change those negative feelings and shows Craig how treasured he is. Craig now sees what he brings to the table. The fact that he accepts Zach for who he truly is , makes up for all he thinks he lacks.
They are settling as a couple, knowing that their trust and love for each other is their strongest bond.For his birthday, Zach gets an orgasmic treat from Craig. Craig takes the time to set up an orgy where Zach can really indulge in his fantasies. Zach is in heaven taking 4 men including Craig. He knows his loving partner will take care of him and he trusts his choices implicitly. He can finally be the cumslut, he has always dreamed of being. By the time he is done, he is in a blissful stupor. I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear.