For a Reason ( Sizzling Miami  Series 2)  by Jessie G.

​Title: For a Reason ( Sizzling Miami  Series 2)      Word Count:366 pgs           Genre: Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:Former Marine and full time big brother, Bull Connor spends his days helping those in need of a second chance and his nights fighting the inner demons that won’t let go. During a routine tow he comes face to face with the only person who refuses to need him and the one man he wishes would.

As a throw away, Ian Jones is used to being alternately overlooked or ridiculed but hasn’t given up on the idea that with just one chance he could turn it all around. Rescued by the one person who neither overlooks nor ridicules him, he longs to be seen as more than just a man in need.

Ian isn’t pining for the family he’s never known but when they descend, unwanted and uninvited, Bull must prove that he’s the man who will protect Ian’s long neglected heart by sharing the demons that torment his wounded soul.

My Review: In all his 25yrs, Ian always had a rough life. He was left in a dumpster by his crack addicted mother on the day that he was born.  Ian always felt as if his life was pointless since nobody ever wanted him and he bounced around from foster homes. Regardless of all of this, he has strived to pull himself out of the gutters by going to college to get a computer science degree.  Ian is on his way to a job interview when his car sputters and dies in the Miami heat.

From the moment, the tow truck driver Bull lays eyes on Ian, he wants to protect him . Ian has always been wary of macho men who wear their strength like an armour. However , he soon realizes that Bull is trying to help him when he gives him a cheaper rate for the tow. This puts Ian on edge,because he knows that nothing in life is free. Bull tries to get Ian who he has dubbed ‘Red’ to open up to him. There is something about Red that touches him to his very core. When he sees the fleabag motel where Red lives, he  just knows he can’t leave him there. Bull is just in time to see the manager harassing Red for his overdue rent.  Bull gives him no choice , he forces Red to pack his bags and move in with him.

Red is overwhelmed by Bull’s overbearing ways. After thinking for awhile , he realizes that Bull has given him a chance for a fresh start. Ian is wary, but he thinks he would love to get the chance to know this kind-hearted sexy bear of a man. Bull makes it very clear that he is attracted to Red, but Red is so scared of his feelings. Red has never been in a relationship. He has a low self-worth caused by the people in his past  and doesn’t understand what Bull sees in him.

As the time goes by, Red sees how altruistic Bull is in the way he takes care of all the needs of his family and friends. Red decides to take the plunge and give their relationship a go. Red wants to ensure that he is the man who takes care of Bull’s needs. Bull takes care of his’boy’ and shows him the beauty of love between two men. Red explores his newfound sexuality and they dabble in a bit of light BDSM. Bull is the greatest teacher he could have ever imagined. He loves the many facets of his man, the aggressor, the nurtured and the sweet caring giver.

Not only does Red endear himself to Bull, but also to the rough and tumble crew of ex-cons that work at  Bull’s garage. They see a confidante in Red, someone they can show their true selves to without judgement. This trust and openness is what gives Red the strength to expose all his deep dark secrets to Bull. Red opens up and tells Bull his whole life story about the many times he tried to kill himself starting at the age of five, he tells of all the abuse physical , mental and sexual that he has endured throughout his lifetime. At first he is scared that Bull will see him as tainted, but seeing Bull’s tears has washed his soul clean and gone a far way to healing him. 

Their bond becomes stronger and they both learn to trust in each other. Their trust in each other is definitely needed when Ian’s family appears out of the blue. This sets everything in a tailspin. Ian is overwhelmed , definitely unsure and insecure as he doesn’t know what to think about having a brother and now a father. Things are very unsettled for him, but Bull is there for him through it all.

It is very painful for Ian to learn about his family, but he really wants to get to know his brother. It is harder for Ian to give his father a chance , because he doesn’t believe he is upset enough. It isn’t until Bull points out that his father is also a victim to his mother’s addiction and lies, that Ian relented a bit. Ian’s familial ties will definitely be slow going, but his love for Bull is surely on the fast track especially when Bull proposes. This was a beautiful love story and I give this my ratings of 4- lose the underwear. 

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Grayson( A Bully Novel 1) by Morgan Campbell

​Title: Grayson( A Bully Novel 1)                 Word Count:315pgs    Genre:Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb:Ten years ago…

-Grayson- 

A month and a half ago, I made a choice.

A choice that nearly cost me everything:

my friends, my family, my life.

Who knew that choice would nearly cost me my future?

-Finn- 

A month and a half ago, I made a choice.

I chose to turn my hell into someone else’s.

I nearly ruined someone’s life because I couldn’t handle my own.

Who knew that choice would threaten my future?

Ten Years Later…

Grayson Michaels made that fateful decision as a teenager, he’s determined to not let the past define him. Control him. Bind him. Vulnerability is not an option. When his demons surface in the form of Finn Abbott, Grayson learns that everything isn’t as it seems.

Finn Abbott is trying to put his life back together. Divorce, house arrest, and a slew of lovers have only caused his life to spiral out of control. But a job offer comes along and everything seems to be back on track. That is until the ghost of a scorned boy returns in the form of a vengeful man.

Fate is a fickle friend. Questions need answered and debts need repaid. What happens when past and present collide? Can two people destined to be enemies find love instead? As they say, there’s a fine line between love and hate.

My Review: It is a well known fact that bullying is on the rise in the 21st century. It is made even more prominent with cyber bullying becoming increasingly popular. For every case that we here about and all the young lives that have been lost because of discrimination, small- mindedness and vitriolic attacks which ultimately leads to self-hatred for these poor victims, my heart goes out to them. 

Grayson’s story touches me to the core. Sixteen year old Grayson knows he is gay, he is proud but doesn’t flaunt it. He has a family who loves him to pieces, he has two best friends who care . Grayson has just entered into a budding romance with his boyfriend Logan that has the potential of blossoming into something beautiful. Grayson is a true artist who sees an underlying beauty in most things. Herein lies the problem,  he does a painting for his school art project where he highlights one of the popular jocks Finn as his idol. The jocks take offense to this and start targeting Grayson every chance they get. It soon becomes clear that the homophobic Finn has something to hide, he has secret desires that he cannot allow his friends to see. After he beats Grayson up, he kisses him in an unwarranted moment of passion. It is sad to see how Grayson withers under the pressure of the attacks and become a shell of his former self. At first he tries to hide it from his family and friends, but they soon become involved when the jocks start cyber bullying him through his Facebook account. Grayson is tormented and his self worth is being depleted from the physical and emotional abuse that he is enduring. Only his boyfriend Logan knows that Grayson has started self -harming by cutting. He urges him to stop and for awhile Grayson tries to do better for his family. However, the pain becomes too overwhelming when he sees how worried everyone is about his situation. Grayson decides to take himself out of the equation and makes the decision to commit suicide.

Fast forward ten years,we are reintroduced to Finn who has led a very messy life. He has just signed his divorce papers after being caught cheating with a man. All those hidden desires culminated into many different affairs with many different men over the years. Although we could say he is a sleaze ball, he has a backstory that sheds some light on the situation during his teenage years . Finn grew up with a homophobic father who started beating him from the age of 5 when he asked for Barbie dolls. It took him awhile , but he learned to repress his true self and in turn took out all his rage and pain on poor Grayson who had put a spotlight on him and almost expose to the world that forbidden self. It certainly sheds some light on why Finn is the way he is. However, he is trying put his life back together. He has just landed a job to do the advertising for a tech firm. It is clear to see that he is very talented and soon he becomes an office favorite. The manager quickly signs him up to go to a tech convention with the boss for two weeks.

 It is very surprising for everyone when the boss who turns out to be none other than Grayson flips out on Finn. Finn is definitely ashamed when he sees the boy who he tormented so many years ago. He is also elated to see that Grayson is alive and well even though the man in question is pulsating with anger. Grayson is almost to the point of having a meltdown so he calls reinforcements in the form of his family and friends. His support team is very strong, his two best friends who are now married to each other, his ex Logan who is still a close friend , his mother and his uncle. It is obvious that he has flourished since his failed suicide attempt.

It is great to see how confident Grayson has become and in the next few weeks he gets his revenge on Finn by making him his errand / whipping boy. This doesn’t really make him feel good about himself though. He quickly realizes that He still has an unrequited crush on Finn and this mortified him. He just can’t believe he would feel anything besides hatred for Finn. It also causes the reader to feel empathy for poor Finn who is also a victim of his own horrific childhood.

Things come to a head when they head out on their trip. They get caught in a snowstorm where they meet in an accident. They end up taking refuge from the storm in a cabin. It is there that Finn purges his soul and unburdens himself to Grayson. As much as Grayson would like to remain rigid, it is obvious that Finn has paid in his own way for his sins. He sees the scared little boy within Finn. Grayson decides to give the feelings that are peaking through between them a chance to grow. Their relationship is challenging especially when they get back to the real world where Grayson’s family is afraid of him getting hurt again. They realize that they have to set aside outside views and opinions and focus on what they feel towards each other. This was enlightening and shows the true spirit of forgiveness. I give this my ratings of 4- because we all have redeeming qualities no matter the mistakes we make in our past. There is nothing too big for true love to overcome.