Sex & Mayhem 4: No Matter What by K. A. Merikan

Title : No Matter What        Word Count : 99,000

Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : — A gentle heart has no place in an outlaw’s chest —

Ghost. Not a member of the Coffin Nails MC. Not a doctor anymore. Not gay.

Luca. Bent, not broken. Will not let go of Ghost. No matter what.

Ghost finds out the hard way that people you meet online aren’t always who they seem to be. When he met ‘Zara’ five years ago, they became inseparable. She’s been with him through the rough and the smooth. He’s been there for her when her abusive boyfriend had her in tears.

She is The One, and despite all his friends considering him crazy, Ghost is about to propose.

But ‘Zara’ turns out to be Luca, and Luca is most definitely a guy. Yet Luca is the same person with big dark eyes, so desperate to be saved that Ghost can’t help but fall head first.

Luca’s so-called boyfriend is not just abusive. He is a Sicilian drug lord, a man dangerous and ruthless. If Ghost is to ever save the person who wreaked havoc on his heart, he has to make a deal with the Coffin Nails MC. But being a member is a destiny he’s always tried to avoid. And when a life of violence becomes too much to bear, he might be the one needing Luca to catch him when he falls.


Themes: Outlaw motorcycle club, criminal activity, hurt/comfort, abuse, catfishing, independence, sexual orientation issues, mafia, PTSD

Genre: M/M erotic romance, suspense, drama

Length: ~100,000 words standalone novel

WARNING: Adult content. Explicit gay sex, strong language, violence, potentially triggering sexual abuse scenes. Reader discretion advised.

My Review :  Ghost, the Coffin Nails ‘doctor’ has just found out that Zara the woman who he has been corresponding with over the internet is actually a guy named  Luca. It is quite a conundrum. Ghost has fallen in love with ‘Zara’ and had plans to propose and take her away from her abusive druglord boyfriend. When Ghost  meets Luca he is very upset, but he can’t just leave him with Frederico. Ghost makes a snap decision to kidnap Luca and Luca is just happy that he gets the chance to explain himself to Ghost,  the man who he has fallen in love with . 

The plot thickens when they get to the Coffin Nails residence and realize that Luca’s ex is none other than Frederico Villani and belongs to one of the biggest mob families. Frederico and Ghost come to an agreement where Luca will be set free the next day. This doesn’t sit well with Ghost but he knows that he can’t afford to piss off Frederico, a man who is the MC biggest drug supplier. Ghost lets  Luca go, but worries all night long. Frederico inflicted unspeakable horrors upon Luca’s body and shares him with his henchman Antonio for their last night together. Luca holds it together and thinks of his return to Ghost rather than his  half broken spirit . 

Ghost is very conflicted about his feelings, because on one hand he is in love with this Internet persona ‘Zara’, while on the other hand he is not able to reconcile Luca’s masculinity with his intense feelings. However,  Ghost decides to let his love guide him through and he takes things very slowly with Luca. Ghost is forced to acknowledge his bisexuality when he starts feeling the pull toward Luca. Yet again he is caught between a rock and a hard place. He is stalwart in his decision to keep his sexual preferences secret from the club members, while exploring his bisexuality in private with Luca. This puts somewhat of a strain on the budding relationship that Luca and Ghost are fostering. Luca is a little clingy, because of his fear of Frederico and Antonio and this overwhelms Ghost who has to  constantly check in.

 Ghost seems to have bitten off more than he can chew. He has never aspired to patch into the MC club, but now with him being indebted to them , he’s come to an agreement with Tooth the VP and Priest the prez to be a Prospect. All his life , he has dreamed about being a doctor and after losing his medical license he is left floundering. Doing odds jobs as a prospect for the club is draining all the life from Ghost. Also, he is definitely not the rough rugged biker that we have been previously introduced to. Ghost hates guns and he is more refined seeing as he was a doctor before.He comes off a little bit wimpy and it is a little bit disappointing if you are looking to him to be a saviour for Luca.He is unhappy with his position in life and this is reflected in their relationship. Their relationship was a constant struggle and I didn’t always feel the chemistry between them. It always seemed like they were placating each other in one situation or another. This was my least favorite one of the series. I give this my ratings of 3 – it was ok, give it a try.


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