Special Delivery 1: Special Delivery by Heidi Cullinan

Title : Special Delivery                                                    Word Count :94,830

Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : When your deepest, darkest fantasy shows up, get on board.

Special Delivery, Book 1

Sam Keller knows he’ll never find the excitement he craves in Middleton, Iowa—not while he’s busting his ass in nursing school and paying rent by slaving away in a pharmacy stockroom.

Then Sam meets Mitch Tedsoe, an independent, long-haul trucker who makes a delivery to a shop across the alley. Innocent flirting quickly leads to a fling, and when Mitch offers to take him on a road trip west, Sam jumps at the chance for adventure.

Mitch is sexy, funny and friendly, but once they embark on their journey, something changes. One minute he’s the star of Sam’s every x-rated fantasy, the next he’s almost too much a perfect gentleman. And when they hit the Las Vegas city limit, Sam has a name to pin on Mitch’s malady: Randy.

For better or for worse, Sam grapples with the meaning of friendship, letting go, growing up—even the meaning of love—because no matter how far he travels, eventually all roads lead home.

This book has been previously published and has been revised from its original release.

Warning: This story contains trucker fantasies, threesomes and kinky consensual sex.

My Review : Sam is shy, a little naive and a whole lot of kinky. He first meets Mitch outside the pharmacy his family owns in small town Iowa. Mitch is everything he ever wanted in a man . He is definitely something out of a fantasy, a trucker fantasy at that. Mitch is intrigued by this little ray of sunshine and he propositions Sam for a roll in the back of his semi. He is a long haul trucker who knows exactly what to do with a sexy little package like Sam. Sam is hesitant at first but he knows this is a once in a life time opportunity.  Mitch rocks Sam’s world and tilt it on  it’s axis. Their time together is explosive and it’s nothing like Sam had ever experienced in the fumbling hookups that he has in dirty bathrooms with the straight guys who exploits him. 

Sam is a very complex character though, because he doesn’t really see himself as a victim. He actually likes being exploited and degraded by these straight guys. He feels a sense of power in these acts of degradation. Mitch realizes he has found a kindred spirit and he wants to foster their bond, but he is going to have to trust himself while helping Sam to own this slutty part of his nature. Sam follows his heart and decides to leave his life behind and run away with Mitch who is a virtual stranger. He feels comfortable with Mitch on one level,  but this also makes him feel awkward because he is ashamed of being a little slut for Mitch.

Mitch opens up a whole new world of play and BDSM for Sam. Mitch is scared of pushing Sam to his limits because he has had a previous bad experience.  Sam needs Mitch’s guidance in this new foray of his sexual journey. Mitch introduces toys and threesomes to Sam who takes to it like a moth to a flame. Although Mitch tries hard to prod Sam gently in the right direction , Sam is easily overwhelmed. Despite all this, Sam let’s Mitch know that he trusts his judgement and he wants Mitch to force his inner sluttiness out and let him feel free in embracing all his dirty little deeds.

Their relationship becomes volatile when they start having really intense feelings for each other. They are both  unsure of what they are feeling towards each other and this causes sparks to fly, not necessarily in a good way. They are both vulnerable as they are walking into uncharted territory. Mitch has tried to turn a new leaf by changing his life over the last couple years from picking up prostitutes at truck stops . His relationship with Sam is similar,  but ultimately different because of the feelings he has experienced with his sweet Sunshine. Other truckers who knew Mitch’s character cast aspersions on their relationship.  This heightens Sam’s self doubts and causes him to have recriminations about being slutty with Mitch. Sam questions if it’s even possible to have  something long term with his trucker or is it just a pipe dream. Sam yearns for Mitch to clarify their relationship status. However, he doesn’t ask out of fear of losing the easy camaraderie that they have.

They start to tread on a slippery slope when they try to introduce a third in their sexual endeavors.  They meet up with Randy who is Mitch’s ex fuck buddy/ rival/best friend and everything kinda goes south. There is a lot of history between Randy and Mitch, there is some residual hurt feelings, tension but most of all sexual attraction. They are not exactly sure what they mean to each other,  but one thing is for sure, they mix like oil and water. Randy makes it clear that he wants Mitch’s Sunshine and Sam albeit a little bit jealous, wants to explore the possibilities with Randy. Mitch gets off on watching,  and he can’t wait to see the fireworks between Randy and Sam.

Their threesome is filled with explorations involving spreaders, a sex swing, toys and a hot double penetration of Mitch and Randy in Sam’s ass. Most importantly, their threesome made reparations to a friendship that had been torn apart and filled with tension. Their threesome leveled the emotional playing field, helping everyone to know where they stand with each other.  Their threesome was exceedingly hot, raunchy and primitive and it was all about acknowledgement and acceptance of their kink.

Alas, all good things must come to an end. After they finished their cross country trip, Sam decided to go back home and tie up some loose ends, despite wanting to stay forever with Mitch.  It is a bittersweet moment and they make sweet passionate love to each other. I guess the saying is true that absence makes the heart grows fonder. Sam realized that he is truly in love with Mitch, but he is still fearful of what the future holds. It takes a kick in the ass from Randy to get them back on the straight and narrow. After all is said and done, Mitch got his Sunshine and Sam gave Mitch the home he has been  searching for,  because for Mitch home is not a place, but rather where the heart lives. I give this my ratings of 5 – bring out the vibrators. I can’t wait to read Randy’s story.

Favorite Quotes : 1. “Then I would lick it, Sam. I would lick your hot little hole until you were pushing back against me, same as in the trailer, and then, then, baby, I would spread you wider and push my tongue inside you. Way in, honey. Maybe you didn’t know, but my lips were sucking at your pucker the other day, and I licked you as high up as I could. I licked you and fucked you, sweet thing, until you were mush, and then I listened to you sing same as right now. Only a lot, lot louder.”(Ooh la la, If you’ve never had phone sex with lots of dirty talk , you are missing out😉.)

2. “I wanted to fuck you when I woke up. I wanted to turn you over and lick you, and eat you out, and I wanted to fuck your mouth.” ( Sex shouldn’t be prim and proper. This is what sex is all about, getting down and dirty. )

3.Mitch had eaten Sam out before, but not while someone else held him open, not while Sam leaned over someone else’s knees, spreading on command. Mitch had never been this slow, this maddening, as he ran his tongue up and down him, sometimes sliding over to lick Randy’s fingers too. Randy pulled Sam tauter, forcing him open almost to the point of pain, and then Mitch entered him, slick and soft and wet, and Sam groaned and opened even farther, surrendering to them. Randy was harsher than Mitch. Randy enjoyed talking, and while Mitch tongue-fucked him, Randy talked about Sam’s hole, and how he wanted to fuck it, and how he admired the way he clenched, how good Sam looked. He talked about the toys he’d use on him, about how he’d tie him down on a bench, spread his legs wide and spank him with a paddle with a dildo rammed deep inside him, fucking him with every blow. His words were sharp and hard, and some of them were scary and more than Sam wanted. But they were just words, he realized. That was Randy. He fucked your head as much as your body. He found the edges in your mind and tried to send you over them. ( They couldn’t have found a better third than Randy. He is raunchy and wild and has no sense of boundaries. Randy is the perfect person to push them both to their limits.)