Safe in his Arms by Renae Kaye

Title : Safe in his Arms                 Word Count :70,149

Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : In the late-night quiet of the caravan park shower room, Lon Taylor washes away the filth of the Western Australian mines. He’s not looking for anyone, but when Casey offers, Lon doesn’t turn him down.

Welcoming the young man in his big, hairy arms, Lon provides a safety to Casey that he has never known, and Casey wants to stay forever. Still reeling from the breakup of his family years ago, Lon’s not sure he’s ready for the responsibility of the comfort and security Casey craves.

But perhaps Lon can risk opening his heart again and hoping for a brighter future. Casey has some pretty big skeletons in his past to deal with. And Lon wonders what Casey will do when he finds out how badly Lon failed at protecting the ones he loved eight years ago.

My Review : Certain lights just can’t be dimmed no matter what unspeakable horrors has been done. Casey is that special someone who carries that kind of light, even though he has been victimized sexually by his own father at the age of fourteen. He is scared , he has nightmares that is cause for sleepless nights and he still suffers through panic attacks.  Irrespective of all of this, he is fun and carefree and trying hard to have agency over his own life and his sexuality. Casey understands that what has been done to him is no fault of his own and is separate and apart from him identifying as a gay man. 

Lon the big and hairy guy -who Casey met in the bathrooms at the trailer park where they both live- has been the only one who makes him feel safe and protected. Casey finds himself sleeping for hours safe and sound in Lon’s bed and he trusts him enough to blurt out his deep dark secret of his childhood abuse after a few days of being with him. Casey has been violated in the worst possible way for months on end, with photographic evidence and videos all over the internet for all to see. He is fragile, a little bit broken but ultimately one of the strongest,  bravest , most loving person that Lon has ever met. Lon is insanely attracted to Casey , but he is not sure how far to push him sexually. Casey and Lon are coasting easily in a sweet, fun, lighthearted relationship that they have not labeled.

When Casey’s grandmother realizes that Lon is the guy that he has been spending all his time with, she gets really upset. She thinks that Lon is way too old being 13 yrs Casey’s senior. She says horrible things to Casey accusing him of not knowing his own mind and accuses Lon of being a pedophile, making the assumption that because he’s a big bear he’s abusing Casey.  Lon is torn up about this, because while he knew that Casey was young , he had no idea that he was only 19 yrs old. He is upset at Casey for lying about his age and he is devastated that he might have lost the best thing that has happened to him in forever.

After talking it over, they realize that they both need each other , because what started out as a bathroom hookup has turned into so much more. Casey has brought back the joy and love into Lon’s life and Lon offers Casey a safe haven within his arms. Lon has to go back to his job at the mines for a few weeks and he asks Casey to stay in his trailer and make himself comfortable. 

Lon comes home on Christmas eve and his heart is warmed when he sees that Casey has gotten him a gift that is propped up beside  a potted fern (read Christmas tree ☺). Lon is overjoyed to be wrapped around Casey again, and Casey is ecstatic having his big bear home. There are lots of hills , valleys  and peaks in their relationship. There are a few therapy sessions for Casey to deal with his past. He also finds out Lon has a past almost as tragic as his.They have some hot man on man action once Lon is assured that he won’t cause flashbacks inadvertently when he penetrates Casey anally. They have toe curling sex. They find out quite a bit about each other, but throughout it all their love grows steadfast and strong. Their love is something that they can believe in, it is almost tangible, but most of all its a safe place for them both. Renae Kaye is definitely one of my favorite authors.  I give this my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear. 

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Warrior Camp 2: Love’s Indecision by Flynn Eire

Title : Love’s Indecision                 Word Count : 31,192

Genre : Paranormal Gay Romance

Blurb : Matteo Dominguez spent centuries performing his duty with honor and dedication, never letting anything sway him from his responsibilities. When Nate Hathus comes into his life as a pre-transition warrior, everything Matteo has worked for is put into jeopardy. Matteo desires Nate more than he does anything in his life, even his duties as a warrior instructor.

When Nate seduces Matteo, he’s helpless to stop the man, his heart and libido guiding him down a path he’s afraid may end in his destruction. Nate has yet to go through his transition and the feelings he has now may not be those he has afterwards. Matteo agrees to see where things lead despite Nate’s assurance that he will still care for Matteo no matter what.

But when Nate’s transition doesn’t go as planned, Matteo is faced with a terrible decision. Does he save Nate’s life and risk having a mate who might not want him? Or should he risk losing the only man he’s ever loved?

My Review : Matteo,  the centuries old vampire warrior has been  in love with Nate, the pre-transition vampire student for some time. He has watched him from afar and tried to resist tempation. This plan goes all to hell when the precocious Nate decides to approach and bombard Matteo while he is naked in the shower. There is not much that can be done to stave off a nymph set on seduction when Matteo’s resolve is already severely tested. Matteo gives in and they both have splendid orgasms as soon as they touch. Matteo stands strong and stops short of giving Nate the mating bite. He explains to Nate that it was a mistake that cannot be allowed to happen  again. Nate flees with tears streaming down his face. He can’t believe the man he loves has rejected him.

After a few days of walking around like a zombie, Matteo’s best friend Dimitri tackles him about the tension with Nate. Dimitri and his mate Alexander urges Matteo not to make the same mistakes that caused them so much emotional turmoil when they got together. Matteo decides to try to talk to Nate so that they can figure things out, but he gets sidetracked by his duties when Lance,  the troublemaker from book 1 goes into his transition on his 25th birthday. He spends the whole night trying to help Lance through his difficult time and finally crashes once Lance has been through the worst.

Once he is rested , he sets out looking for Nate in his dorm that he shares with Lance. On  his way there, he hears Nate screaming and he is just in time to pull Lance off before he rapes Nate. Matteo is beyond angry and he challenges Lance, a challenge he will definitely win. The winner of these warrior challenges has the right to violate and demean the loser sexually in front of all the Warriors.  So said , so done, Matteo decides to fuck Lance into submission and teach him a lesson. This scene was really hot and truly worthy of voyeurustic heaven. It was only after finishing, that he noticed how much Lance enjoyed himself and Nate was just in time to see the impressive finale. Nate runs away hurt and upset by what he sees as a betrayal. As much as Matteo wants to be upset at Lance, he realized that maybe everyone has misconstrued Lance’s attitude.  He sees Lance for the lonely , misguided little boy that he is on the inside. Matteo forgives Lance and understands that it is a possibility that he didn’t truly want to hurt Nate, but rather that he was confused with all the tumultuous emotions colliding in his new post-trans body.

Another crisis pops up when he goes looking for Nate; Nate has started his transformation early. Nate is scared and Matteo tries to soothe him as best as he can. He stays with him throughout it all and when Nate’s humongous post trans body is revealed, he begs Matteo to claim him as his mate. Although Matteo thinks this is a bad idea , he does it to prove how much he loves Nate. Soon afterwards, Nate delivers his rejection of Matteo by telling him he wants to explore with other guys sexually . Matteo is devastated by this turn of events. It takes him a few days of licking his wounds before he realizes that rather than take Nate’s words as rejection, maybe he can join his mate in exploration. 

Nate and Matteo decides to add a third to play with. They try Rune, but when they are done they realize that Rune is too much into pain for their liking and they aren’t interested in the D/s lifestyle. This actually strengthens their bond with each other , helping them to appreciate their love for each other.  It so happens that Lance offers himself for them to play with and this created a super sexy scene for all involved. Ooh la la, to be a fly on that wall😉. Matteo and Nate were very considerate of Lance’s needs, while at the same time they had their own private moment connecting as only true mates can. I guess it’s true that the couple that plays together , stays together. I see longevity in this couple’s future. I give this my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear. 

Favorite Quotes : 1. No, we just want to rim your hole together,” Nate snickered before leaning over and licking Lance’s ass. “He tastes different than you do, Matteo.” “Let me taste,” I purred as I leaned forward and slid my tongue into Nate’s mouth. When we moved apart, we moved down to Lance’s ass and both started to lick his hole. “Oh fuck, you guys are going to kill me,” Lance moaned as we continued to open up his ass with our tongues. “Please, fuck me already!” (Hot, hot, hot, 😉 do try this at home.)

Diary of a Teenage Taxidermist by K.A. Merikan

Title : Diary of a Teenage Taxidermist      Word Count :90000

Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : — Too cool for school. —

Ethan is a levelheaded, some might say ‘antisocial’, young artist-entrepreneur with a love for quirky taxidermy. He is close to graduating high school and at a crossroads. All he wants is to develop his business further, yet all his parents want is for him to go to law school. That is more than enough problems for Ethan, so any kind of love life is off his agenda. That is until Robert Hunter, the quarterback of the football team, comes crashing into him. Literally.

Robert drifts along in high school. He has good grades, he’s getting ready for med school, he’s even leaving potentially problematic dating until college. He’s gay, not ashamed of it, but he doesn’t want to stir up any trouble. His carefully laid plans might just go completely off the rails though, when he drinks too much at a party and causes irreversible damage to Ethan, the school’s weirdo.

Robert has to face the fact that maybe he isn’t the good guy he always considered himself to be. And maybe he doesn’t want to go to med school. And maybe, just maybe, he doesn’t actually want to wait with dating until college.

POSSIBLE SPOILERS:

Themes: First love, virginity, bullying, fitting in, entrepreneurship, disability, high school, jock/goth, taxidermy, artist, blackmail

Erotic content: explicit sex scenes, dub-con

Genre: New Adult homoerotic romance

Length: ~ 90,000 words (Standalone novel, no cliffhanger.)

My Review : There is proverb that says “What is a joke to you means death for another man” and this is so true. Robert learnt the meaning of this the hard way. He decides to have a little ‘harmless fun’ while drunk at a party, by chasing Ethan the anti social goth who is an outsider at school. This ‘harmless fun’ has a detrimental consequence when Rob shoves poor little Ethan and he happens to fall on a tree branch. The tree branch lodges in Ethan’s eye. By the time Rob gets Ethan to the hospital, there was not much to be done to save his eye. Rob feels horrible for his part in this mishap and stays by Ethan’s bedside until he wakes up. He feels really guilty and decides to be a better person from here on out. He tries to befriend Ethan and tells him he will do anything to right the wrong he has done, begging Ethan not to expose his misdeed.

Ethan has always had a bit of a crush on the star quarterback of the school Robert Hunter. He sees this as an opportunity  to have his cake and eat it. Ethan comes up with an arrangement for Robert to give him blowjobs for an extended period. He is a virgin and he can’t think of anything better than having the star quarterback on his knees. Their first time together is all that Ethan ever wanted and then some. He’s all blissed out after having the best sexual experience of his teenage life. Rob on the other hand, is a little bit disgusted, not because he gave Ethan a blowjob, but because he is gay as well and this is not how he imagined his first time would be. 

Things are still the same at school for Ethan, he is still shunned and and he is still seen as an  outcast. Not only is he ostracized for being a taxidermist, now everybody looks at him as even weirder for having lost his eye in such a freak accident.  Ethan earns no sympathy for his disability and no condolences for the state of his new reality with him being half blind. Ethan’s disability causes his center of gravity to be slightly off and he sometimes have lapses in his memory for short periods of time. Robert’s heart goes out to Ethan when he sees him stumbling around school, knowing that it’s because of him that Ethan is at a disadvantage. Rob starts talking with Ethan more and including him at his lunch table, he tries to be all around more friendly to him.

Their illicit arrangement continues and their second time together is much better.Ethan realizes that he would much rather do all the work than to blackmail Rob into doing something he finds disgusting. After all, its easier to receive a blowjob than to give one, especially when the giver is straight or is he😏? Rob warms up to Ethan and he even likes his quirkiness. He starts taking an interest in Ethan’s taxidermy.  Ethan is really good at creating jewellery and unique center pieces out of animal carcasses mainly rodents. Ethan has the eye of an artist and even though it is unorthodox for a teenager,  he has a good online business stuffing squirrels. Rob is the only one that believes in  his dream and doesn’t find his stuff wierd. His parents absolutely hate his taxidermy business and there is always the threat hanging over his head of his parents forcing him to go to law school, something he has no passion for. 

Although Rob and Ethan get a whole lot closer, Rob still will not identify as gay and his friends still doesn’t understand why he hangs around the anti social taxidermist. Rob is still playing straight, so when prom  night comes around, he takes one of the popular girls,  while Ethan goes with a male cheerleader who is very interested. Rob and Ethan are both jealous of their respective dates and they try to stay away from each other. When some of the jocks who really hate Ethan play a mean prank  causing Ethan to be showered from head to toe with glitter, Ethan is mortified and runs off.

Rob seeing the utter humiliation on Ethan’s face chases after him to see if he is okay.  This brings  out a new demension in their relationship.They both can’t deny the feelings that they have for each other anymore. Rob takes Ethan home and finally make sweet, passionate love to him all night long. Rob really opens up and decide to show Ethan  a part of himself that nobody else sees.  Ethan gets a five star breakfast in bed and soon discovers that Rob the jock is a secret foodie. He realizes how passionate Rob is about food and he is amazed at how professional his blog looks.Ethan  falls in love a little more with Rob’s sweet side. Rob finally comes out to Ethan who he now considers to be his boyfriend and he opens up about his feelings. 

Ethan’s world is turned upside down when he has a disagreement with his parents over his taxidermy business. Ethan calls Rob crying and upset and Rob feels so helpless. Rob who is overwhelmed with feelings of love for his boyfriend  decides that Ethan can live with him since his parents are not supportive of his dream. They both enjoy this adult , responsible side to their relationship.  This connection fosters unconditional love between the two despite everday disagreements every now then. They both disregard their prearranged educational future,  while deciding to pursue their love for each other and their respective passion in taxidermy and cooking. I give this my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear. 

Warrior Camp 1: Love’s Deceit by Flynn Eire

Title : Love’s Deceit                       Word Count : 33,902

Genre : Paranormal Gay Romance

Blurb : Dimitri Anslow has been in love with Alexander since he came to the warrior camp as a twenty-four-year-old pre-transition trainee. Fifty years later, he finally has the perfect plan to be with Alexander, at least physically.

After their life changing sex, Alexander tells Dimitri that he doesn’t love or want him. Crushed, Dimitri tries everything he can to forget the man, jumping from guy to guy. As Alexander gives him mixed signals, Dimitri tries to come to terms with the fact that his mate may never be his.

Can Dimitri move on from the one that owns his heart or is there something worth fighting for?

My Review : Alexander is a tough as nails centuries old warrior vampire. Dimitri is second to none other than Alexander. He has been in love with Alexander from the very first moment he came to train in Alexander’s camp. He has finally decided to challenge Alexander, not because he wants the title of the best warrior, but rather because he wants to be fucked and dominated by Alexander who he knows will win. Dimitri gets his heart’s desire and it was oh so glorious having Alexander be close to him and be the one you take his virginity.  One thing that Dimitri didn’t count on is that Alexander would think he was tricking him into mating him. Alexander laughs in his face and rejects him as a mate. Dimitri is devastated. 

Dimitri and Alexander gets into a tumultuous situation. Alexander’s rejection causes a lot of upheaval in  the warrior camp when Dimitri starts playing the field with a few of the Warriors to get over Alexander. Dimitri is really hurt and starts sleeping with Rune who is a hardcore pain slut. He only wants Rune, because he looks so much like Alexander from behind. Alexander hates to see what his rejection has done , but he really doesn’t feel like he will be able to give Dimitri the kind of love he deserves.

When Alexander gets kidnapped by Zakasacs who are killer vampires, Dimitri goes out to get back his leader. Alexander is injured seriously and Dimitri takes out three of these strong vampires with his sword. Alexander waffles through unconsciousness and does the unthinkable when he bites Dimitri and mates him. Dimitri would have been happy with this, but in the same breath Alexander is still trying to deny him as his mate. Dimitri runs off to be by himself. The only problem with that is now that he is mated, he will need to be bitten by Alexander everyday for the rest of his life in order to survive. 

Dimitri is ravaged by feelings of unrequited love. His best friend Matteo tries to impress upon him that Alexander loves him, but he is so done with feeling like Alexander’s castoff. He makes sure that Matteo is around and that they are in a neutral place when Alexander gives him his daily mating bite. Alexander is trying so hard to make amends after he sees how much he has hurt Dimitri.  Alexander knows that deep down inside he is totally in love with Dimitri,  but he is a hardened warrior and he doesn’t always know how to express his feelings.  He realizes that he is gonna  have to go real slow and give Dimitri a chance to trust him again. It takes another injury to Alexander for Dimitri to see that he can’t fight his feelings anymore. Alexander acknowledges that he is exactly what his Dimika needs and gives himself to him wholeheartedly and Dimitri learns to trust in  Alexander’s love. I give this my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear. 

Bear County 7: Cowboy Trust by Lynn Hagen

Title : Cowboy Trust                 Word Count :90 pgs

Genre : Paranormal Gay Romance

Blurb : [Siren Publishing: The Lynn Hagen ManLove Collection: Erotic Alternative Paranormal Cowboy Romance, M/M, shape-shifters, HEA] A diabolical corporation is after him. Some ranch hands want to teach him a lesson. Steven is surrounded by danger and it seems Colton is the key to his survival. Because Steven has a gift that people are dying to get their hands on. It’s a gift that has been nothing but a curse for him. Colton spots Steven working with the other construction men. They are finishing off the bunkhouse and Colton has yet to get close enough to speak to the man. But he’s determined to make Steven his, even when he discovers Steven’s dark secret. Together they strive to not only keep Steven alive, but to build a life both desperately yearn for. But when Steven goes into premature labor, Colton fears he will lose the family he’s craved his entire life. Worse, betrayal hits home when one of their own tries to cash in on the contract that is on Steven’s head.

My Review : Colten is the technological guru out at the Big Bear Ranch. He has been eyeing Steven, one of the construction crew who is helping on the new bunkhouse.  Steven is very different, he is quiet and keeps to himself. Steven can sense things that people have done or what they are thinking from a single touch. It  is a very debilitating condition for him , because he has no shields set up in his mind to block all the outside influence. Colten shows Steven that he is interested and would like to get to know him better. Steven shies away from him, because even though his interest is piqued, he has stayed a virgin because he can’t touch anyone without repercussions.

Rowdy the foreman on the job notices Colten’s interest and suggest he tones it down, because of the backlash that Steven would receive from the homophobic pricks on the construction crew .

Steven is not sure what it is about the big guy that draws him in , but he realizes that when  he is around Colten it nullifies all the voices that normally bombards his mental faculties. Steven is on the run from the big scientific corporation run by his parents. They see Steven as their pet project and they are forever experimenting on him like a lab rat. Steven knows that as much as he likes to see and enjoy the easy camaraderie between Colten and his brothers ,he can’t stay for too long. He sees a shadow of a Bear in Colten but he doesn’t know what it means.

 Colten sees a crack in Steven’s defenses and decides to seduce him. His seduction goes over really well,  because Steven just can’t resist him. They start to trust each other a little more when they realize that they come from similar backgrounds where they have been betrayed by their own parents.Colten tells Steven that he is a bear and explains how the mating works and that the success will be proof of pregnancy.  Steven gives himself up wholeheartedly , because he wants to belong to Colten body and soul.

 Shortly after they make love, Steven has to be put in the house to do paperwork due to his extreme morning sickness. One day after sitting for hours hunched over, Steven realizes that there is something wrong with the baby after experiencing serious pains. The doctor is called and pronounces that Steven is in early labour; the only way he can stop it is by taking him to his medical facility.  Shott and Colten goes to protect Steven , because they have recently learnt that Steven’s crazy parents are searching for him. 

After  staying in the facility for weeks watching and marveling at the beauty of his mate all swollen with his child, Colten is horny as hell because he hasn’t touched his mate sexually since he went into premature labour. Steven is really super horny as well and convinces his mate to give him a blowjob. What a blowjob it was, the orgasm immediately puts Steven out like a light. Colten goes to the bathroom for a washcloth to clean his mate up.  He comes back to find doctors examining Steven,  only to realize that it’s Steven’s crazy parents. They have a gun pointed at Steven’s stomach. Colten feels helpless , but he knows he can’t let them take Steven.  He tries to protect Steven and gets shot in the process ,before Shott notices there is a breach in security and kills both parents. 

Shott figures out that the breach is an inside job and corners the doctor who he suspects. They have to find someone else to deliver the baby when  Steven goes into labour.  Rene, Harland’s mother decides she is up for the job since she used to be a midwive. Moirai, a beautiful son is the newest addition to the Big Bear ranch. All this happens while Colten is recovering from his gunshot wound. Colten wakes up to find his mate and his son safe and at home. He can’t wait to make sweet love to his mate and provide a safe haven for them always. I give this my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear. 

Sex in Seattle 3: The Mating of Michael by Eli Easton

Title : The Mating of Michael         Word Count :74,335

Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : Everyone admires Michael Lamont for being a nurse, but his part-time work as a gay sex surrogate not only raises eyebrows, it’s cost him relationships. Michael is small, beautiful, and dedicated to working with people who need him. But what he really wants is a love of his own. He spends most of his time reading science fiction, especially books written by his favorite author and long-time crush, the mysteriously reclusive J.C. Guise.

James Gallway’s life is slowly but inexorably sliding downhill. He wrote a best-selling science fiction novel at the tender age of eighteen, while bedridden with complications of polio. But by twenty-eight, he’s lost his inspiration and his will to live. His sales from his J.C. Guise books have been in decline for years. Wheelchair bound, James has isolated himself, convinced he is unlovable. When he is forced to do a book signing and meets Michael Lamont, he can’t believe a guy who looks like Michael could be interested in a man like him.

Michael and James are made for each other. But they must let go of stubbornness to see that life finds a way and love has no limitations.

My Review : First off the bat , I must say I really appreciate an author like Eli Easton who is not afraid of portraying certain aspects of life that others shy away from and it is done beautifully. James is a washed up has been sci-fi author who is afflicted with polio. From a very young age his legs have been paralyzed and he has been confined to a wheelchair. He has some trust issues -which is totally understandable -after being left at the age of six by his  mother, the one person who should love you through anything. James does not believe that he will ever find someone who can be in a relationship with,  he just can’t see anyone looking past his disability.  He is very self concious about his thin legs in particular, all he sees is how useless they are. James is a 29 year old virgin who has become a  bit reclusive. This attitude has spilled over into his beloved work, his books that were meant to be an escape is now his only reality and not a very good one at that. His book sales have tanked , because his last few books haven’t lived up to the legend of his very first book. His agent pushes him to open up to the outside world and do a book signing.  He is so afraid of people not seeing him as a whole man. James is even more afraid of losing his independence if his publisher drops him and he loses his income.

James does the book signing very reluctantly and nervously. This is where he first meets Michael,  a very die-hearted fan. Michael has had a crush on his favorite author for years and he can’t wait to meet him. Michael is petite, very sexy and a little bit fem. He is a nurse as well as a sex surrogate.  He likes healing people and repairing their sexual pysche,  whether the damage has been caused by a disability, abuse or even shyness. He really likes his job as a surrogate not for any kinky reasons , but rather from the joy that people can experience from the intimacy of touch. Michael is definitely not turned off when  he notices that his crush is wheelchair-bound. 

James is very skittish when he meets Michael and flat out turns him down when he invites him to lunch. Michael is a little heartbroken but he is persistent. He shows up at the swimming pool where James work out and tries to pursue him. James rebuffs him once again. Poor Michael keeps at him and James feel really bad for being so rude to Michael. James let’s him know there can be nothing else besides friendship between them. Their friendship builds up a bit at a time. However, there is a lot they have both not revealed about themselves to each other. Michael has not revealed that he is a sex surrogate, because he knows many people don’t understand what he does and can’t handle it. James has also not shared much of his past with Michael which would explain why he is so afraid to let people in and believe that they would want to stay and be with him.  Their relationship gradually segues from friendship into something sexual, but it goes very slow because of James’ reluctance for Michael to see him naked and exposed both figuratively and literally. 

I think one of the hardest things for people living with disabilities is the lack of touch and intimacy. There is an invisibility cloak shrouding their disabled bodies. There are some  who think that by not acknowledging and hiding these bodies from able-bodied sensibilities,  you won’t have to view them in a sexual way. People living with disabilities are viewed as asexual and ‘unsexy’ and this can cause self esteem issues and feelings of inferiority. This was inherent of how James and how Michael’s surrogacy clients felt about their bodies. I really appreciated how Easton shined a light on this notion of disability and sexuality in a positive way that ended in a truly happy ending. Michael and James got to that place where they could love ,trust and be totally exposed to each other without the fear of judgement. I give this my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear. 

Exception to the Rule 2: His Fair Lady by Kimberly Gardner

Title : His Fair Lady                 Word Count :53,059

Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance

Blurb : Mark Talleo is something of a dog with the ladies. Any girl, anytime, anywhere is his motto until he meets Josie Frazier. The long lean redhead not only shares his love of musical theatre, but her smoky sexy voice and infectious laugh drive Mark wild and haunt his every step. Equally fascinating is his sense that she has a secret, one he is determined to uncover on his way to becoming her leading man.

Josie does have a secret, one she guards with her whole self. Although she has always known she was female, her name used to be Joey and she’s still biologically male. As much as she yearns for love and acceptance, her fear of rejection is just as strong.

Mark’s need to know the truth is matched only by Josie’s need to hide it. But when malicious gossip reveals her deepest secret the price of honesty may turn out to be too high to pay. But if each can accept that the woman he wants is the woman she is then at last Mark may find His Fair Lady.

My Review : From the moment that Josie is introduced,  she pulled at my heartstrings.  I was instantly in love with this character.  She seemed sweet , innocent and she was like a breath of fresh air. Mark was instantly attracted to Josie when he noticed her bright red hair, green eyes and luminous pale skin. Josie shut him down at first , but Mark’s charming personality won her over. Josie really likes Mark but she is hesitant,  because she knows a guy like Mark would never truly want her if she exposed herself to him.  

Josie is feminine in every way, except for the most important way; she is anatomically male. As much as she would like Mark to accept her for who she is , deep down inside she is ultimately scared of rejection.  She is not an out and proud transgirl. Mark and Josie get hot and heavy pretty fast through phone sex and hot make out sessions above the waist, well for her anyways. Josie is a virgin, but she loves to explore and she gives Mark anything any red-blooded college guy wants. Mark loves this side of Josie, but he is eager to touch her and give her all the pleasure she deserves. However, Josie’s secret has her constantly pulling back, because she is hyperaware  of her  unchanged male body.

It is very evident that her secret is going to end up biting her in the ass. It is like an uncoming train wreck you see about to happen, but there is nothing to be done about it, it’s inevitable. One day while Josie is in the bathroom,  another student accidentally walks in on her. Josie thinks nothing of it, thinking that there is no way the other student saw her partially exposed body. She is soooo wrong! Being as busy as she is with school work and the play she is casted as the lead for,  she puts the whole bathroom mishap out of her mind. 

Mark’s vindictive ex girlfriend starts spreading rumours around campus that Josie is a guy. Mark is a staunch defender of Josie’s until certain doubts start surfacing.  Mark realized that he’s never seen Josie fully naked in all the time that they have fooled around. As predicted,  it all blows up in Josie’s face when Mark confronts her about what he has heard. As soon as Mark sees  Josie’s reaction, he knows the rumours are true. Mark is devastated and he feels betrayed by Josie’s ommission. Harsh words are exchanged between the two and they storm off their separate ways. 

Josie starts getting harassed with  anonymous transphobic notes. She tries not to take it too seriously, until she is physically hurt and left unconcious by one of her cast members . Mark bumps into Kyle DiStefano,  Josie’s best friend at the hospital.  Kyle gives Mark some insight into what Josie’s life has been like since she was a kid. Mark is upset that Josie has been targetted because she is trans. He hasn’t ever been upset at her for being trans , but for the fact that she didn’t trust him enough to tell him.

They try to work things out when they realize that they still want to be with each other. Makeup sex is the absolute best and their first time together was extremely explosive.  They were both vulnerable in the moment, because it was something new for both of them . This heightened the sensuality rather than detracting from it. It was a truly beautiful moment between the two. I give this my ratings of 4 – lose the underwear.